I'm In Way Too Deep
Fandom:funhaus AU: sbgc Pairing: spubin Apparently I never posted this, so please enjoy and read this sappy lil thing It was a cold morning, November winds cutting into bodies and chilling the air. Spoole's breath left his mouth in heavy clouds as he and Joel walked briskly towards the school. California is always unaccustomed to the cold, and the boys had nothing more than sweaters to keep the chill off their bodies. Joel felt a tug on his sleeve, a clammy hand grabbing at his own, clamping down tight on his fingers and a thumb running across his knuckles. He turned his head, a small smile spreading across his lips as he looked at Sean. His cheeks were bitten red from the frosty day, his hair sticking out messily from under his beanie. Joel couldn't take his eyes off him, letting them roam over every detail, the creases in Spoole's jacket, the smile lines on his forehead and mouth, the brightness in his eyes highlighted by the redness of his face. Joel's own face softened, an inaudible sigh drifting from his mouth. It was then that Joel knew he was in far deeper than he ought to be with this sorry kid. After a minute Joel forced himself to look away, and ran his own thumb over Sean's in return. "Thanks for letting me stay over last night, I hope I wasn't a bother." Sean said quietly. "I just didn't really have anywhere else to go you know." Joel pressed closer to him "you can stay anytime Spoole, don't worry about it." Sean nodded slowly, staring down at the sidewalk in front of him. Joel squeezed his hand tightly, trying his best to comfort him without bringing the subject up too much. No one wants to start their day by reliving trauma brought on by their family. Joel thought he saw a tear welling up in Sean's eye as he looked away from him, and before he knew it words were tumbling out of his mouth. "I don't want to see you hurt because you had too much pride to reach out for help! It's not worth it when you know I'm going to be there for you...forever Sean. Y-you are my best friend and I don't know what I would do without you, you keep me grounded every day." Joel paused for a moment, barely able to breathe before he forced out the words that were making him start to shake, "I love you Sean." He stammered. "I love you so fucking much" Sean stopped walking and stared at him, stuttering over words. "W-what do you mean??" He squeaked, eyes widening. "Wh-why? I'm nothing, I'm a loser and I'll never be a good friend to you or boyfriend or anything for anyone!" Joel let go of his hand then, choosing instead to grab with both hands at Spoole's sweater and pulling him in close to him. "Shut up." He murmured. And then his lips fell against Sean's, and even though it wasn't the first time it felt like the first time that mattered. The two boys were alone in this world, but for what it was worth, they had each other, and that's all Joel cared about. When they broke apart they stayed close, breath mingling in the cool air, hands wrapped around each other's. Sean laid his head softly against Joel's, and sighed. "I'm never leaving you now, you know that right?" He whispered. Joel's grip tightened on him. "I wouldn't let you." "I love you."