#spysongs

[theblinderboy-blog]

‘ anything you wanna tell me? promise i won’t freak out. ’

           Tommy hesitated for a moment in telling Grace what he wanted to. There had only been one other in which he’d confessed such feelings too and that was long before France. He took a breath, ocean blue eyes falling upon her fair features whilst his fingers curled themselves against hers.      —     A rarity that it was that Tommy Shelby was rendered completely nervous and fearful to speak but Grace had that effect upon him.     “   I —   ”    why was he finding this so hard? perhaps it was because he felt their breaths dance with each other; their hearts finding a matching rhythm with the others. All he knew, was that with Grace, he was completely and utterly in love.     “   I love you, Grace.   —    I could not imagine a life in which you are not part of it.  ”

                                                        * @spysongs          SHAMELESS STARTERS  /  ACCEPTING.

[widowedfcked-blog]

𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 - likely story. She had left with his horse that day and not looked back , except to TRAIN the horses of the Peaky Blinders . Business was kept through telegrams or one of the other Blinders . She never dealt with Mr. Tommy Shelby , or his woman . However , now she was delivering the horse for inspection . It turned her insides . She should have sent her apprentice - anyone else to their home . It had been long enough that her immediate anger of Thomas Shelby had turned into disappointment , but understanding . Aristocrats gossiped about everything , including The Shelby clan & their significant others . There was almost nothing secret in their world , even terrible dark secrets . 

CIGARETTE in hand , burning between her fingertips to calm he nerves , she quickly dispensed of it before stepping out of the truck and making her way to the home . The maids were quick to escort her , but where she did not know & whom. Seeing the LADY of the house , she internally bit her tongue .  ❝ Please , excuse my interruption - I’m delivering a horse for Mr. Shelby , & I must see that it’s given over to one of his kin before leaving & Inspected ,  ❞ she’s manicured and well rehearsed , POLITE & direct . 

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋 ▸@spysongs

[volubils-blog]

@spysongs. ( x )

‘ i see. ’  may replies.  that’s made her think.  though her expression: a practiced, neutral look, does not change, this conversation is quickly starting to make her want a cigarette, too.  while she thought the time she’d spent with him had meant she had a vague idea of who thomas shelby was, she seems to have come to know him just as well as she currently knows grace.  figuring the struggle with what doesn’t want to be possessed is perhaps somewhat of a rite of passage, for any woman on their way to his heart, goes some way towards making her feel better and not dwell too much on it.  the grimace might mean grace is used to it, hardier than the rest of them.  may must not be the first.  if she’s not going to step away from this, then she wants to pry.  taking a moment to look around the room, to take a sip of the epsom gin, she goes to speak again, ‘ and say you were without him, grace, tell me- who do you have left? ’

[widowedfcked-blog]

“i’m not mad.”

𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐒𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 ▸ GRACE

𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐝 - 𝐚 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐤 . What could she be mad at her for ? There was no great love affair between she & Thomas . He had proven that when she took Grace’s Secret home & heard no word from him . No telegram , not even one of his goons to deliver a message . As far as she knew Grace was with another man - MARRIED. Thomas had held the same burning flame May held for her deceased husband , but for her. It was not her fault that she was a LIGHTHOUSE & Tommy WANTED to get burned . They both had need for one another in that moment & he had brought out something in her she thought was long dead. ❝ We met by chance , betting against each other for a horse . He’s horrible & remarkable in the same breath. There will never be another Thomas Shelby in our history or in the distant future … perhaps I was BEGGING to feel something - pick the most unattached MAN I could find .❞  She didn’t know why she was telling his wife anything. Neither probably wanted to hear her speak things out loud , that should have been kept in the depths of the dark. 

❝ We felt something for each other - I don’t delude myself to considering it love. There’s no beauty in what he does , it’s stripped and honest - he doesn’t parade around , pretending not to be who he is.  For him ENOUGH will never be enough & I can’t blame him & I hope my connections will help him become really LEGITIMATE, ❞  May had known Tommy intimately during their time together to know it was true . He had the same look in his eye as her father - you see WAR & anything , even getting yourself killed now , is better than hearing those SCREAMS in the night . ❝ but you & I both wanted the same thing - to feel alive , just as he does . He just chooses to feel alive with you & I no longer play second fiddle to GHOSTS. ❞

Those three words elicited such a reaction from May , normally she felt no ill will towards Grace - she just didn’t understand Thomas’ love for her. ❝ … and now why should you be mad ? That would be foolish, but the only fool here is the woman who is going to WIN you and your HUSBANDS company a derby.❞

[volubils-blog]

‘ the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad. ’ / @ may .

she could see why grace might have thought that she was- may carleton, desperate spinster, knowingly encroaches upon another woman’s well-to-do lover.  what else is there to say?  if she had believed that, then it wouldn’t have been surprising.  the fact she still seems to see some good in her, however, is.  

‘ because of what?  the epsom money? ’  she asks, slightly smiling.  maybe grace would like to thank her.  she decides she’ll stay standing where she is.  a true shelby, it seems, judges a woman’s worth based on her usefulness to them.  perhaps grace is learning the secrets of the best.

gravesuggestions prompts.  accepting.

[uglybabies101]