#squiishispeaks

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I may step on some toes with this- but I wanted to respectfully come out directly and state that I'm not interested in doing IRL meetups with strangers :(

I do appreciate that there's people who want to meet and spend time with me in person; it's just I really struggle with the idea of that with people I don't know or have any rapport with.

Maybe I'm paranoid, but it just really causes me a lot of stress thinking about everything that could go wrong 😞

I would love to make friends that I know I can trust- and it's also really important that it goes both ways!

I want people to be able to trust and rely on me, so as much as I'm genuinely flattered with offers of money or lodging covered for a meetup- I know that I wouldn't be myself doing something like that and the experience would be really awkward.

[squiishibugss]

Hi, I think you making that post about parasocial stuff was really needed

I've been on Tumblr for years in the feedee circles, and time and time again I've seen so many women in particular being chased off because of a few weirdos. I've seen accounts vanish after even a day and it sucks so much :(

If you feel you need to close your DMs or messages, I really don't blame you. If it means protecting yourself and others then by all means I'd do it. Don't let a few spoiled apples ruin your experience here, slam the door in their face, block them and keep yourself safe and happy. If you give people here an inch, they STILL after all these years think they can behave like this

omg I've seen it too, it's so heartbreaking and sad.

I'm considering it, I love the conversations I have here and the amazing people I'm meeting- but it's really becoming nerve-wracking for me.

Ireland is a relatively small place, and I'm unfortunately kind of recognizable. There's been people from Tumblr approach me in public IRL and it's been really scary for me because it's at my job and stuff. Thankfully those interactions were really nice but it's something that has bothered me, especially seeing how quickly a few people have developed unhealthy attachments to me.

I don't want to hurt anybody, and I also want to keep myself as safe as I can reasonably expect to be. I know there's risks with having a presence like this on social media, and I've hit over 1k followers (I'm still so shocked, thank you I love you guys so much)

so there's so so many people that enjoy me enough to follow and talk with me! and that makes me so happy. never in my wildest dreams did I think I'd get this traction. so taking away that aspect of it really hurts to think about.

I'm just hoping people can see my heart and know that I genuinely love and care about this community and my fans- and I want to do what's best for this little community I'm growing.

I don't do this for money, I've made less than 70 bucks off of all of this. those were just sweet donations and custom orders. I do this because I've watched this community for literal YEARS and finally feel confident enough to participate.

I just want things to be okay and sane.

[squiishibugss]

I wish I had little pointy elf ears so bad like I wish I could go into the sims character creator and fuck around

[squiishibugss]

You don't have to be so apologetic about it. I think it's great you gave a thorough explanation tho. Hope you're having a great week

thank you anon you're so sweet ok

I think I'm just anxious because I've had people from here show up to my job IRL and ask me out

My week is going really good tho I'm moving house!

[squiishibugss]

Hi bugs! :3

What's some aspects of the emerald isle you've loved the most since coming here? Personally I love how the countryside is practically at my doorstep no matter where I am X3

hmmmm

it's really hard to pick one, but I love the skies when it's clear out. absolutely gorgeous, especially in the spring.

I love when the weather is right, when it's just bright and hazy enough- everything turns a nice blue. it's like a movie filter.

I love the smell of turf fires too!!

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should I set up a monthly donation to Wikipedia I got an email from them

literally used to spend hours a day on Wikipedia as a child and idk if I'm being a bleeding heart and falling for a scam or something idk...