#stag-a-licious

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R

Wee

Oh that’s a cute doggo. Give them many pets for me please.

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Got sicker because I went to work because I thought I was getting better… oopsie…

tsk tsk

YOU NEED TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, STAG!!!!

don't make me come over there and show you care and platonic affection >:) i'll do it! don't test me

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SIDDDDDDDD!!!!!

I DID IT!!!! I GOT A NEW DOG AND HES MY NEW SD IN TRAINING!!!!!

OK FIRST OF ALL: I AM SO HAPPY FOR AND PROUD OF YOU, THAT IS VERY EXCITING NEWS. Give the pooch some scritches for me, yeah?

Secondly, my dyslexia made me read that as “my new SID in training” and I was VERY confused for a second 🤦🏻

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*brings you a cup of tea and a fluffy blanket*

I had long day at work. Can we cuddle?

🥺

Absolutely!

Let me find a nice patch of moss for us. It’ll only take a few seconds.

*poofs into a cloud of sparkles and disappears for like 5 seconds and then reappears in the same manner*

Ok, I found a nice lil spot by a creek. There’s a few bunnies and a very pretty and sleepy deer all curled up for a nap. Let’s go.

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Siddddd.

I sick.

🥲🥲🥲

OH NO🫂

Here have some soup!

🍲

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Hey Sid. Guess who just got around to opening all the bank statements from while away at school and discovered that their mom took $10k from them without asking?

Holy fuck! You should report her. That’s theft. And it’s over $3k. Show her that karmas a bitch.

Overall I’m sorry that that happened to you. You deserve better. Giving you all of the hugs I can muster.

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A bear got out of her enclosure at the zoo I work at. I wasn’t even there but someone left the gate unlocked. So now the usda is coming for a surprise inspection. So fun.

Sounds to me like someone (not you) is getting fired from their job.

But seriously though, that’s hella dangerous and I’m glad that no one got hurt.

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I've been doing some research on my own issues and atp in time, I'm hesitantly labeling as semimultiple/median. Leaning more on the singlet/not as distinct separations, but l cannot deny there are other... the best way ! can describe it is having 'facets' to me who are nearly the same... but definitely different and distinguishable.

And it's also like. I know *mostly* all of my past. But there are still things people will talk about that happened at an age I should remember and I just don't.

And with a lot of the upsetting things, I know they happened, but it's like... I remember a third party version and none of the feelings associated with the event. Like I know something happened and how I felt. But I don't actually remember it happening to ME, or feeling like how I know I did.

Idk. I'm still looking into things.

I also have has instances where I do something, and then think. "Why did I do that?

I never do anything like that?" And thinking back it's all blurry and like it didn't actually happen to me.

For a while I was hesitant to label these things because you know fucked up heart and low brain oxygen could be the cause. And DPDR, and other stuff also caused by the heart issue. but it's just so much of my life, and I'm obsessive about my heart rate. I got a watch to monitor it. These things happen at times my heart rate is normal too not just when it's low or high, which is why I'm hesitantly labeling. Of course l am going to try and obtain a formal diagnosis. (Once I start seeing a psychiatrist who isn't best friends with my mother)

So yay me, starting to figure things out!

This is meant to be a good thing by the way. For years I thought it was all normal until I realized it wasn’t and wanted answers. And it looks like I might be getting them.

I am very very proud of you for taking the first steps towards advocating for yourself. I know it’s hard (but also relieving) to learn these things about yourself. I’ve had similar experiences, but to a lesser degree as mine is just regular old CPTSD. There’s a lot of life that I don’t remember, at ages that I should.

Thank you for trusting me with this discovery about yourself. I’m here anytime.