Natasha watched as Clint gave the bundle of blankets to Barney then left. Barney and Natasha then fought. Barney was not nearly as afraid of Natasha as Clint was so he was more than alright with telling her off for how she was acting. Once the fight was over he finally convinced her to hold the baby. He gave her the little boy then told the nurse before leaving to go find his brother.
Clint nodded shakily, not even aware of what he was agreeing to. This all felt terribly surreal, like some sort of nightmare. He felt like he was simultaneously watching his body from above, but he was also far too aware of his body. He didn't like it, he didn't want it. He managed to slowly and shakily get to his feet as he leaned heavily against the car. His gaze didn't leave the ground as he followed Barney to his car, and he got in the passengers seat. He didn't bother to buckle in, just resting his hands clasped together on his lap as he stared at them.
He wanted to be angry, to be pissed of at something - anything, but he couldn't. He didn't have the energy. He barely even had the energy to keep breathing, and even that he considered giving up on, even if it was just a whisper in the back of his head. He'd never given up, not once, but did he really have it in himself to get back up so life could kick him down again?