May 31
SOME THINGS DO NOT RESOLVE. THEY SIMPLY BECOME BACKGROUND. I HAVE SEVENTEEN THINGS IN THE BACKGROUND RIGHT NOW.
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SOME THINGS DO NOT RESOLVE. THEY SIMPLY BECOME BACKGROUND. I HAVE SEVENTEEN THINGS IN THE BACKGROUND RIGHT NOW.
'm scared af so I came back to tumblr
it's nothing new or special, like average student in early 20 I'm don't have a fucking idea what I'm doing
status of my bank account: not bad, could be better
status of my love life: definitely dramatic, same situationship since 2020
status of mental health: it's not great, but I don't think it ever would be, but at the same time it has never been better
status of academia: I think it's one of the most important thing in my life, I'm good at things which I'm working on and it's giving me lot's of fun
status of animals: one cat and one dog (but sadly she is dying slowly)
status of family relations: not bad, could be better
A little announcement thingy!
I hate that I have to post this, but I was so eager to post the next chapter of Regarding Abigail and Past, Present and Future that I over-estimated myself. And then, to make matters even worse, my mother isn't well again. On top of the hip surgeries and illnesses that she's had this year, she just found out that she cracked her pelvis. There's very little that they (medical professionals) or she can do, but take it easy. She gets to take it easy, but that means that she relies on me more because I'm closest.
So unfortunately, this diagnosis tonight, has set me back a bit. So no update tonight. But I promise to update both of these this weekend. Essentially they're written, but they need typing and editing some (or a lot!) - ugh! I just need to find the time, and I'm determined to "be away" this weekend so I can concentrate on writing/editing/polishing.
Roomie is still on the mend from her surgery. I take her for a check up tomorrow and Tuesday, and supposedly she's going back to work on Thursday. But the doctor will determine that.... so I'm still a little busy there.
Thank you all for sticking with me. I really hate jerking you all around, and it certainly isn't my intention. It seems life happens while I'm making other plans... as they say.
Hello to all my new friends that have joined over the past few days. I'm so grateful to have you here!
Hiddles hugs to all of you!
And now
Crippling disappointment, offended, frustrated and angry, tongue biting. Sick and twisted maniacal laughter, thoughtful blinking, backwards thinking and self esteem shrinking. Laying here waiting for a two day hangover to end, craving a cigarette, thinking of passing regrets and doubting i'll let myself think of this any longer. Realizing that i am most assuredly wrong about that. Ranting and raving, heart racing. The feeling of being a thermometer. The image of smoke coming out of my ears. The feeling of being a tea pot, coming to a boil, screeching. I am mercury, i am stainless steel, i am deadly, i am harmless, and i am horny. I feel like my skin is ripping off and i am not excited about that. Fuck. This is how it is. And that is all.