#stellaeternis

[stjaernlis]

❅ ❛ hiems somnias a stella ❜

‒ ae · kaamos. oh star, dream through aimless winter wander. frost befallen steps echo thy gentlest bygone hummed arias of mourning monachopsis along untethered, ethereal fragmented absence.

[stjaernlis]

✦ ❛ somniferous star ❜

ad · #stelaellustro meteoric. eternally in a sleepy melancholic state.

[stjaernlis]

✦ ek · lux lacrimosa.

eyes are being inconveniently much more so delicate to light recently, paired with a sensitive nose - each morn when faring to work i am both tearing up and sniffling. which has garnered looks and !! please do not perceive, promise i am not crying -

for someone generally coldly blank in expression the full sobbing tears look ever so funny in combination.

[stjaernlis]

✦✧❄︎✵ ek · stella proxima inter ultima.

continuing last topics & archives; i would like to reiterate the two approaches had over the years with sona, in addition reprising their heavy duality themed composition in a digestible manner, having noted there may be confusion.

✦ ad epithets. these come with a primary epithet, classification title, and morpheme of address. ! each spatial classification can be lengthened with the insertion of ' stella ', ie. stella proxima, stella ultima et cetera . . .

❛ hiemstella solivagans / starfaring winterstar / starlight / stjärnlus ❜ · proxima ( ek ) ‒ main sona. classified by the most personal approaches and simpler, less ornate components. dreamy melancholic yet arctic star, aimless solivagant winter wanderer, little northern explorer. frigidly still of stars winter and void, yet mostly a humble approximate.

❛ aeverstar nix ❜ · ultima ( ae ) ‒ astronomical pseudo oc treatment sona. a beautifully dreadful concept; most distal but indulgent ' aura ' farming prospect. stubbornly paramount in lore leaving little to no room of interactive liberties unless strict boundaries are followed.

❛ - ❜ · inter ( ei ) & ❛ - ❜ · hic ( is ) ‒ indecisively between categories - somnimemos & starlight as titles contemplated. whether inter becomes the between usual auxiliaries or somnimemos is still mused upon.

❛ polaris ❜ · omniae ( *any address ) ‒ fondly in tandem ad memoriam as ' nix ', the completed composition of sona as a whole. time is but a constant plague and thus, a compiled visual without the stress of multiple auxiliaries suggests clemency upon my sleepy detached being.

✧ auxiliary. these come with a morpheme address and epithet. ! each with the achievable epithet alternative of fallen and or other additions to said title. alternatively play on hiems; hiemstella, hiemslumi, hiemsmemoria, hiemsomnia et cetera.

🟎 ❛ nix ❜ · polaris / polariae, polarisfallen / ad astra. ‒ the completed omni composition of sona as a whole, thus describing the entirety of stella.

✦ ❛ nox ❜ · stellae, starfallen. ✧ ❛ lux ❜ · lumiae, winterfallen. ❄︎ ❛ vox ❜ · memoriae, memoriafallen. ❅ ❛ eux ❜ · somniae, somniafallen.

✦✧ ❛ . ❜ · nostalgiae, nostalgiafallen. ❄︎❅ ❛ . ❜ · melancholiae, melancholiafallen. ✧❄︎ ❛ . ❜ · vellae, wishfallen. ✦❅ ❛ . ❜ · sperae. hopefallen.

✦ on polarity, dichotomy of dualism and contrast.

due to stella being extremely austere with their fixed eternity themes it is most pivotal to remember regardless of their auxiliary visuals they must remain the same across and beyond. there are only delicate aspects which may be present in other regards such as visual or minor atmospheric semblances which does not constitute as them having different separate states; but rather fine explorations. though even most of these infinitesimal wanderings are analogous.

their extreme contrasts exists within all; even in character with cold moon - star phases parallels and dualistic approaches it is never to be represented through a single auxiliary. the liss of having been consistent over years in describing stella as ' dreamy detached and spaced out ' vs ' distant frigidly sardonic and coldly dreadful ', both eery, otherworldly ethereal, and melancholic aimless wandering yet clear opposing forces in a fittingly taciturn way. everything is parallel and exchangeable through each, showing no favour other than what ambitioned perception may be present through an audience lens.

· winterday vs winternight vs ( intertwilights ) polar night vs kaamos. assuming most perceptions takes dark as being night and light as being day which are equally correct with the retrospect that stella's case interchanging these work as well. nox can be winterday or twilight just as lux could be winternight or twilight. this is my own indulgence exploration and gaze on what ' void ' and ' light ' can be. the idé is to push the limits of perception in a way that works. void is the absence. pure white or even the stark winters of polar night and kaamos evoke the same feeling of ' cold nothingness '. a dream or mardröm during winternight or winterday alike frigid moonstar phases silent. over winters bygone and henceforth, a quiet yet quite astronomical contributor to the duality and winter embodiment disposition. this is the most arduous and complex piece to describe appropriately without lingering on too overly personal information i do not wish to speak of. with that in mind these too are not anchored to any specific stella; it is already bound to all of them. of utmost importance that these planes of being are presented from an extremely internalized & uncannily silent point. hence never warm or hot - rather exceedingly cold regardless or the sleepy and dreamy detached to the inhospitable and glacially distal. their destructive and impulsive behaviour comes as unwarranted unpracticality, often followed with responses of disdainful confusion as their less expressive and dangerously unpredictability ' does not match their visual '.

✦ silhouette. all of which is stella is tethered to them as an entirety. from the extremes to arias echoing, woven within the tapestry of final starlight.

[stjaernlis]

✦❄︎✧✵ ❛ ae stellae, hiems, inanis, et solivagans ❜

‒ xv.ii.xxv · stella starchive.

dreamy yet arctic melancholic solivagant stella of winter and void. starfaring stargazer wandering aimless in its eternity.

between several meetings, working, the somnolent introspection and predisposed melancholic reflections there are fleeting moments in life which stay. it has been over a year by now, my written ' revision ' on stella was meant for completion by yester yet time is relentless. slowly, the presentation has quieted in tandem with my presence yet when little transitory breathers appear you can perceive the silent arrangements being updated through writing and postings. a pseudo grace to the internet & technology for never forgetting should i do so myself.

i have been ruminating over each key theme and what visual symbolism each should suggest. an echo from the past challenged my intuitive ambition for designing specific things related to personal history. the lack of understanding and being able to emphasize was somehow comforted by learning through pictures. it could be an interesting exploration - though i feel most are already portrayed. there was a worry regarding overburdening the primary motifs, however considering how accordant they are and with the consistent repetition of two, four, or eight rule, there was room.

i · primordium.

✦ stars · north star, starry, starlight ❄︎ winter · snowflakes, ice, auroras, north, quasars ✧ void · black hole, night sky, nothingness, stargaze ✵ solivagans · polaris guiding star, freedom, compass star pseudo primordium. ○ eternity · death, finality ★ astronomy · the cosmos as omnia.

initially, stella has always somewhat had two approaches in the bygone it was self portrait based ones or the 2022 - 2023 ' void era ' meant as a stream sona; a grand omnipotent being. the other who; most consistently has fondly been referred to as ' a dreamy spaced out melancholic starry entity wandering lost in the love for stars and winter '. the ' true ' sona if one may. it simplifies things, the more worldly yet starry and simpler fits bring me a lot more delight for the reason it voids the pressure of making something monumental out of that which was meant to simply be for fun. thus i will accentuate the austere ' polaris, per ardua ad astra ' proxima version more and indulge in ' aeverstar ' for humour.

i wish 2022 - 2023 had been kinder years. mea culpa for the astronomical disservice letting bitterness control my ( ew ) emotions. ironically the era ended up focusing on void / albeit never losing the starry winter of course / aspect just because of the pain, wishing to deviate out of reasons i now can only point myself out as petulant and acrimonious for letting it dictate. hence void can be rather wistful but persists a remaining part still quite pivotal. the ' why on stars did i do that ' would never end should one ponder on it too long. suppose that is what the new generation calls character development.

whoever has read so far, congratulations. give me a sign ?! maybe i will give a small reward ? there is more.

my brain is a contrast of the cosmic speed of light vs an empty husk devoid and decayed of any life. the idea of writing and possibly getting back into studies flourish butterflies and the sentimental excitement of organisation. fare with and the musicbox will keep singing quiet arias.

paradoxically; i hate oversharing. catch me obliterating traces of occasional personal postings should i cringe into oblivion - as such, the attempt is to keep it digestible. on a note; i do not believe you need a reason to hold something dear. comparisons, humble brags and struggle olympics are off the table. call it callous but i do not care. if it is meant only as means to ' justify ' then there is no authenticity behind it. on the other hand, the adoration for learning there is a story behind something remains fond should it come from sincerity.

ii · composition.

✦ ad · astra. the stars. in harmony with winter, stars and astronomy has remained the most eternal of portrayals; through the waking world of real life and the somnolent escape that is the interstellar network of the internet. the archives does not forget, for that i am eternally grateful. ' stars are my favorite things. i always lie and look at them before i go to sleep, and wonder who is on them and how one could get there. the sky looks so friendly with all those little eyes twinkling in it ' ' all the other stars keep to their courses, and go along just like trains on their rails, but comets can go absolutely anywhere; they pop up here and there wherever you least expect them ' their singularity is strictly defined as a star, be it for polaris or aeverstar. there are cameos of all things astronomy, moon and its phases, the stellar twilights and planets.

❄︎ ad · vinter. the winter. with the beholden fondness for ' home ' in the north. from the snow, starflakes and ice to resplendent curtains of the northern lights. a wintery star being by core, eternally enamoured by the silence and quiet the coldest months bring. pure rejoice at first snowfall and the melancholic soliloquys that accompany those quiescent hiemal times. an archaic sentiment few will remember but with anachronistic words; winter as a whole with homages to different times. presently the idé is softer for ✦✧❄︎❅ - indicating winternight, winterday & twilight; polar night, kaamos yet all interchangeable. having cultural ties which celebrate the season as an essential part of life to be embraced rather than endured. a meteoric facet which in half influenced the sharp reflective duality aspects come from the known contrasts the north bestows upon us. it embraces everything beloved; the stars, cold, friluftsliv, candlelights, old traditions, nature.

✧ ad · inanis. the void. perhaps another personal pondering that should not be ruminated too deeply; a rather abundant portion is reconciliation. but few dear ones have noted the perspective on void may entail two things; nothingness & the vast cosmos. which is of liss, something something black straight thin hair is reminescent of the starry night. and mistake my sentiment not; i absolutely adore the other definition as well. true eternity in my own idéa is death, nothingness, the void. weak fondness for the destructive aspects of the void and the fascination for black holes - theories following suit.

✵ ad · solivagans. the solitary starfaring wanderer. courtesy to orbital beings for the suggested heartening specific of solivagant & fernweh rather than sehnsucht & wanderlust. the important stress on alone wandering remains a profound aspect one does not wish to divulge into publicly with the consideration to the partial trauma which in the end really does not matter. instead isolated in its positive starlight it pays homage to the intense cultural upbringing & identity that highly values freedom. it is perfect, with such gratitude to those who encouraged. from ' allemansrätten ' to a childhood that lived through dreams, starfarer, the stranger from elsewhere, on learning to accept never fitting in; monachopsis obliged. solivagant stays true to the eternity themes, as everything else moves around it, the solitary wanderer will eternally be starbound to ' doing so alone ', be it of wish or circumstance. fixated in place. ' you can't ever be really free if you admire somebody too much ' ' i am monarch of all i survey. i own the whole earth ' in fairness ' polaris ' already bid the wandering traveling guiding star compass aspect, or even summarises stella as a whole. yet it befits a pseudo title far more. furthermore a full orbit was made with the four and eight points. each interconnect with the personal ' bases ' lived in the longest despite the ephemerality; north, east, south, west sounds like a meteoric coincidence yet it is not, with the in between being the constant faring. one of the most olden headcanons; always floating, never truly touching the ground is a bittersweet allegory.

this is unadultered word spam of which one wishes to reiterate; these are not reasons that make anything more significant in the grand scheme of the cosmos. take it with some stardust, from a neurodivergent under stimulated ? tired being. pure delight, simply for fun and whichever dramatic musing this nostalgic brain of mine wishes to place in writing, sincerely.