Apr 19, 2014
2:31am
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2:31am
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12:22am
i wonder what you'd say or how you'd feel if you saw all my text posts about you..
some parts of me wishes you'd see it so you know how much its killing me to not be with you & some parts hopes you never do so you can live your life stress free without me
just a thought though..
12:21am
yeah ben i cant...i miss you so much it literally hurts :((((((((((((((
Spring Break
its spring break & ive only thought about you at least 5 times or more or maybe less this week. haha considering its friday i guess we'll see how things go when monday comes & school starts up again. anyways, im not sure if you'd call this some kind of progress from usual. thinking about you 24/7 or thinking about you every time i see something that reminds me of you. which in most cases is basically anything and everything. but it was nice to not feel so cloudy & sad for once. to actually have a vast amount of time in peace versus feeling so stuck all the time. because i am stuck & i know im not getting out any time soon, so coping with whatever im so glued to thats holding me to you will just have to do for now. hopefully when the time comes we can be something again or we can just be friends like we are now & i pray to god that if that happens i hope that ive moved on so i can stop watching you fall for someone & have to feel what im feeling now every life sucking day. because i dont think i can handle that anymore and im worried how id react if that ever happened again.
2:19am
god damn i just every guy would stop being so sleezy & creepy & especially thirsty because they dont get the freaking idea that my lips are only for you only.
it meant nothing
this is the smallest thing that has hurt me in the biggest way possible, to see what you told her. that you've never had chipotle before when your first time was with me & angel. this is one of many examples of why i wish i didn't remember so much things that surface back to me remembering every freaking detail that kills me. ughhhhhhhhhh /.\
upset
im going to sleep sad again like ive been doing for the past 2 years now & im so upset because nothing has changed & i thought by now id at least be texting you goodnight at this time.