I've been thinking all morning about how different of a person I am on here than I am on twitter. I literally haven't spoken to people on here in years. It's not because I'm an asshole (I mean I am but not in this situation) but because my anxiety keeps me from talking to people I don't know. But on twitter? Where I've always been active? I have absolutely no problem talking to so many people every day. I don't feel right if I don't talk to most of my Twitter friends at least once a day. I'd love to be able to do that here. But I didn't use my tumblr for years so I have no clue who any of my old mutuals are especially if they've changed their names and just thinking of trying to talk to people from the new fandoms I've been lurking in makes me nauseous af. I'd love to be more involved with like the Juke and Jiara fandoms but like... The thought of talking to people is horrifying.