Bipolar Update: So in terms of managing my bipolar disorder, I'm pretty fucking good for the most part. Yeah, I still rapid-cycle/have at least one or two episodes a day. But my mood stabilizer and anti-depressants are my fucking life-saver. It stops me from reaching that extreme depression and the craziness that is full-on mania.
However, me thinks I need an anti-psychotic in my sanity concoction. Because, I've had at least five psychomotor agitation episodes in the last few months. It's been awhile since I had one but nonetheless, they're a bit too freaky for my liking. It's incredibly distressing to myself and those around me. They last way too long as well.
I've also been having a shit ton of both visual and auditory hallucinations in the last month or so and they still manage to make me jump sometimes because I think it's real :/ it's not overwhelming but it doesn't make me feel great either way so, aha. It's not fun.
I'm pretty sure I see my doctor this week so hopefully he agrees with me. Because as you know, the psychiatrist at the public mental health centre thinks that all my symptoms are just rare ass anti-depressant side effects :))))
