#stillnotsleepy

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3am. I decided to make a picture of myself wih my eyes closed look magical with filters. Did it work? #stillnotsleepy #iamhungrythough #actuallyimsleepynow #goodnight #bye

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And So They Say..

People tell me that I'm always in the middle. That I don't take a side and just go with whatever is everybody's decision. It's quite of a good thing right? To be in the middle.  Kasi nga you're just avoiding the backstabbing and the fights and the raising of voices and whatever. But then they tell me I'm wrong. That i should fight for what I feel. That I should not fumble around but raise my head and say what I want to say. Well, I can't do that. I'm just not like that. I'm not zealous. Parang ako kasi, gabay nala maging happy it iba kaysa haak. Ang weird ko ano? Parang di ko nala igsisieze it moment kun maaram ak nga mas kailangan hit iba. Mastay put nala ak kaysa makiaway. Kung alam ko na wala na talagang pag-asa, nagive-up nala ak. Kasi for me, what's the use of trying if you're just gonna fail? Okay, so maybe that's a bad thing but it's not that I don't take risks or anything but I just hate failing. I mean, I hate it when failure slaps you in the face and sometimes you hate yourself for being such a failure and a nuisance. Ayaw ko la talaga mahurt. It's something that i'm afraid of. I'm afraid to be rejected. To be called a failure. To be me.