#stohnefox

[borispavsky-arc]

POSTCARD SERIES:  LUX LISBON. ( @stohnefox  )

hello from sweden! the weather is very different but it is nice i hope you forgive me for the way i left but i promise so i write to you to tell you about sweden. you need to see world. very beautiful things to see. people very different. nicer. hope you are doing well. out of trouble or creating some? ha!  write sometime, yea?  

[redheid]

— i  only  wanted  to  help.

@stohnefox​          ♡  

[archived-borispavsky]

 “you say ‘i’ll give you anything’ but you never come through”  // @stohnefox​ 

       01:30am.       you’re standing there across from her at a crossroads.  dark sky above had a limit of stars tonight, not enough to stop and count constellations.  it wasn’t like you wanted to anything ; too focused on the way the slightly yellowed tinge of streetlights cast glow across her paled features.   thinking more about how the lamp did little to compliment her complexion ; knowing she looked better under the stars or with the suns glow.    "you say ‘i’ll give you anything’ but you never come through”      another screaming reminder at the ways in which you’d always come up short.    the ways in which you’d continue to fail, falling into familiar pattern and footsteps of a father who taught you all that you knew about what it meant to be a man.     it’s a story that doesn’t feature any other ending besides one that’s tragic.     

     cigarette sits lit between lips, bottom spout split in the middle from an earlier fight with a man who’s name you never caught. it didn’t matter now, you’d insist that you won if anyone dared to ask.      there’s nothing funny in what she’s saying, nothing funny in the way she stares at you as she speaks and yet - you couldn’t help but smirk.    smirk as if it was amusing to you and maybe it was.  you’d swore you wouldn’t hurt her and yet you always came up short. 

           ‶  so go on then, yea?  tell me it is that you hate me.  tell me you think i am rotten.   tell me what i do not already know, yea? ″    eyes study her face, shaking head with a heavy inhale of smoke ; allowing it to linger within before exhaling it sharply. 

               ‶  is not the first time i hear it. will not be last.  sorry, zaika. ″

[entragedy]

*     @stohnefox     /     dance.

        OTHERWORLDLY  WOULD  BE  A  GOOD  WAY  TO  DESCRIBE  HER.     golden  -  halo  of  hair,     .lux  almost  glows  ‘neath  the  ocherous  sunlight  that  expands  over  her  back  and  shoulders.     late  midday  winds  are  warm  enough  that  his  nape  is  damp  with  sweat,     he  bows  over  his  bass  guitar  as  one  would  with  the  good  book,     reverent  in  his  longing  for  pulse  -  based  chords  and  melodies.     HE  PLAYS  AND  SHE  LISTENS,     there’s  nothing  quite  like  the  virtuous  glee  that  spreads  unto  her  face  when  he  plays.     

        there’s  a  familiar  song  that  plays  from  the  radio,     perched  near  the  unlatched  window,     a  kind  of  romantic  tune     ---    something  about  a girl  with  a  redwood  mane,     smelling  of  fresh  pine  and  lemongrass,     and  it  draws  lux  from  her  seat.     she  is  luminous  as  she  beckons  him  to  stand,     mischievous  crinkle  of  her  cornflower  blue  eyes,       entwined  fingers  once  he  reaches  out.     a  clumsy  half  -  step,     graceless  as  eamon’s  hands  find  hers.     ❝     you  know  i  can’t  dance.     please  do  not  make  me.     ❞

[redheid]

[ wave ] for your muse to gesture to mine to come closer         @stohnefox

ah nearly point tae ma chest like an insecure schoolchild being picked on tae write the answer on the board but ah catch maself at the last second in embarrassment and keep the pointer finger down. 

                instead ah nod a whit is it and scrunch my eyes up. the reflex of having an older brother and then for some illogical reason keeping the company of people who act in the same eerily and pointlessly threatening authoritarian manner kicks in and ah’m waiting for a punch in the arm or a smack in the face for falling for a come hither request. ah clock it though, like the insecure do you mean me question ah daren’t speak out loud and ah simply move closer, give ma heid a shake to her with ma very own carefully curated confused expression and say,   ‘ whit? ’   give ma heid another shake, eyebrows a raise.   ‘ whit is it? ’

[tller]

empty,  hollow,  numbing sensations  walking down  the halls of an institution such as  high school.     mindless bodies colliding against each other in  an effort  to push through crowds to meet their goal.   the fact it started  so early  in the day didn’t help.   waking up didn’t really do the trick,   it only awoke the body   ...    but the mind still sleeps.

            “   SORRY,   ”

shoulder bumps hers  pretty  hard.  head turns  immediately  to look at who had fallen victim.  eyes are glazed over due to still wanting to be resting peacefully in his own bed  and not the shit place.

  “   didn’t see you there   ...   way too early.   ”     voice falls flat.  monotoned and dead.  tired energy seen so  evidently.

@stohnefox​ ♡

[midaslips]

☁️    *       …       (     @stohnefox​​​   )  

❝        (   . . .   )       alright   ,    you’ve   seen   him.            please   keep   any   positive   comments   to   yourself      ‘cause  i   so   don’t   wanna   hear   ‘em.         i’d    probably  upchuck   that   hot   pocket   i   just   had       &       you   wouldn’t   wanna   do   that   to   me   ,    would   you    ,    lux    ?         ❞

[borispavsky-arc]

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@stohnefox

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other .

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other .

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other .

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other .