#stop being perf

[haleyxxdunphy]

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[partygaskarth]

have the creepiest crush on one of my best friends. God, kill me with a brick. 

[greyskiesdeadeyes]

Dylan Kongos. Kroq 22nd annual Weenie Roast 2014.

[lifebyelissa]

Boys are frustrating.

The other day I realized I liked my friend again (I did about two months ago then when both my best friend and I realized we liked him, we did not want to hurt the other by dating him, so I got over him quickly. And several weeks ago, she told me she did too). The other day when two of my friends, the guy I like, and I were hanging out one night for several hours until about 2am. And at the end of this night, I realized that I do actually still like him.

I realized this during several times of the night. First when we were walking, we would always fall behind my other two friends and just... talk. Normally, he's mean to me (mean as in: makes fun of me about everything. Everything as in my age, my interests, the movies I like... everything) but I know he's never serious about any of it. So when we were talking he wasn't being mean, we were just talking normally, like two friends should (we're not normal friends since we're always firing shots at one another).

Then at one point in the night, my two friends and I were standing up as we were getting ready to go and he was still sitting on the ground waiting for us to decide on what to do next. I was looking at him because that's what I do, I observe my friends faces a lot, I like reading their expressions. And as I was looking at him, I caught him checking me out. I was really surprised, because I didn't think he liked me, and I've never had a guy who I was semi-interested in look at me that way. I was a little sacred because once anyone shows any kind of interest in me, I run away.

So that was the last time saw him and I won't see him again for at least another week and a half. So hopefully something will happen between us when he gets back, even if I m scared.

Now, this other guy. I have been asked individually by several different people who don't normally talk to one another if this guy and I are a thing. Literally a handful of people. Even today one of my good friends asked me about it. This guy and I hang out a lot together because he's the worship team leader and I am on the worship team. We also both skateboard and have similar styles in how we dress. His music taste is very 70's rock and mine is very much so Paramore, so I obviously think he has great taste in music. But we've we don't hang out one-on-one, like, ever so I don't know anything about him except for what you normally know about your people you don't hang out with all the time.

I feel like if we hung out more and I got to what makes him, him, then I could like him. But right now, because we don't know anything really about one another, I can't see it. If he asked me out tomorrow I would probably say yes, but I know that if we talked more and it still seemed like we don't have anything in common, it would not work at all.

We'll see what the summer brings because the first guy, the one I have actually begun to like again won't be in the area for most of the summer (three weeks total max out of the three months). Whereas the second guy will be here basically all summer, so we will have time to catch up and get to know each other better.

I don't know, I guess I'll just have to wait and see what God has in store for me and my basically non-existent love life.

[goodheartedweirdos]

darrens voice literally makes me want to cry it's too beautiful for words

[eyes-disguise]

Have you ever liked someone so much that every time someone says there name you get this feeling in your stomach and you smile like an idiot as if it wasn't already obvious?

[take-me-to-your-grave]

My 31 year old friend's repsonse to my Cheesus Crust Story.

Me: (wrapping up my pizza story)

Mick: That's funny..u work 2mrw? i do...sis actually works 2mrw 2,lol..i just ate another fucking donut...wana kill myself now :X ...damn,i needa quit smokin 4reel...yea right

[brbcuddlinq]

tori is my girl crush that is it. no questions asked. i'm not even sorry.