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Honestly, I still remember this day like it was yesterday.
This was my second and last op with Jared Padalecki for the day. As always, when I walked up to him (thanks to the IMALIVE volunteer, of course), he was all smiles. It was kind of hard to tell him that I didn’t want my face in the picture. I have a couple of ops where my face is showing with him, but all of them bother me.
Luckily, Jared just agreed, and pulled me into another hug. Honestly, I don’t remember the picture being taken. I know he knew how anxious I was, and he didn’t let go before gently rubbing my back with his nails.
I went to move out of the way, but I was surprised when Jared stopped me. He put one of his hands on my cheeks, and said something along the lines of “I hope it’s just for the picture, because you have a beautiful, radiant face.” It had to be one of the kindest and loving things anyone has ever said to me.
There was so much I wanted to say, but I couldn’t speak. The man I look up, the man I aspire to be, went out of his way to make me feel better.
Again, I figured I’d be walking away, but he stopped me again. Jared looked me right in the eyes, and told me he loved me. I had never said I love you to him, I always figured it would just be weird for him to hear, so it caught me off guard. He in no way had to add that in, yet he took the time to.
Jared pulled me into another hug, and honestly, I was just stunned by the whole thing. Had he really said all of that stuff to me? Was it possible that people could actually see me the way he apparently did?
When I finally walked away (of course, it wasn’t until after he touched my chin - something he did at the previous con I went to), I felt so… loved. It didn’t matter that he probably wouldn’t remember me. That interaction gave me hope for the future. That might seem insane to you (perhaps it is), but for me… I don’t know, it was everything.
