GraveMuse musics & tales 01
First song I'm sharing from this playlist, there is no particular order of these posts. This song is from Ludovic's perspective - post having found something worth living for. ...And sort of his thoughts on his relationship with his dearly beloved Muse.
"I don't wanna die,
But I ain't keen on living either"
"Before I fall in love, I'm preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death,
That's why I keep on running"
"Come and hold my hand,
I want to contact to the living"
Yes, he knows Pirin loves him very dearly both as a friend and now as partner & spouse. And yet.. some days doubts still creep and insidiously whisper: 'Just out of pity. Vanya accepted you out of pity, not wanting your smile to fade. He simply never had the heart to reject a pathetic, shattered man who at last dares harbour hope and smile truy.'
Those days are some of the worst.. hardest to endure. On such days and nights, Ludovic drifts close to his dear Night-nymph, seeming more affectionate than usual. On those days and nights, just being near Vanya, glimpsing him from his periphery isn't enough — no. He needs to hear that rasping, low and wintery voice, feel a cold, clawed hand and look into those pearlescent eyes...
To know this, is real and solid, and not a hallucinated dream. This bond they have, is real. Vanya won't leave and never look back.
