#stressfulsemanticsrants

[innko]

whelp now i have scary red photos of BOTH my eyes

[innko]

people who deny your pain so much you are pushed to the point of wishing it on them...

[innko]

fuck, if i cry whatever eye problem i have hurts more

[innko]

you can never win when calling out subtle xenophobia/racism because when you do, it’s blamed on you for perceiving it. you’re told you’re making something out of nothing and reading into something that wasn’t there. but that’s how racism persists in an environment where it would be considered rude to be overtly racist.

[innko]

maybe it’s because of the kid that’s been screaming outside for the past hour but i am filled with a cold dread and can’t focus on getting any writing done

[innko]

(I am going to see doctors about this within the next week or so don’t yell at me) but I’ve developed some mystery eye problems and I’m trying to do some work on the computer and if I turn the screen up too bright my eyes hurt but if I turn it down too low my cloudy eye can’t see it what do I do???

[innko]

people who don’t see money as a way of manipulating others/as a form of debt. people who want to be part of the solution and aren’t just happy with not being the problem. people who tell me to look after my health in a world that is ready to reward me for sacrificing it at every turn. people who respect women. caring and loving relationships. the idea that i’m not personally responsible for everything in my life, that the majority of my surroundings are determined by socioeconomic circumstances. that i can’t work, think, or ignore my way out of being sick. that you can take a break and come back and it’s okay. that you shouldn’t have to suffer to build the life you want.

i want to be old so i can finally stop saying that i did not know of these things for the majority of my life.

[innko]

they get you by telling you that you’re not equipped to deal with life, but they professionally are