#stresspost

[crazybutconfidentaf]

I'm going to become goop without my games omg ejcbiwnfuefjencbejcjejcbje no game no life was right

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh am i gg insane? Yes.

D&D is too good, gimme my drug

[parliamentrook]

a list and a Ricky

Had a crap day. March was absolute hell, April was normalizing, May is ramping back up to the same fear and uncertainty as March.

With everyone home most of the time and on conference calls all over the house I hit sensory overload, get extremely irritable, then crash. I’m usually low energy, but I am even more disappointed with my productivity than usual, even though I logically know I shouldn’t be. It’s like knowing there’s nothing to be anxious about but that doesn’t stop a panic attack. Knowing it’s okay not to be very productive doesn’t ease that deep rooted disappointment and worthlessness.

I’ve been finding that detailed to do lists are helping me. Breaking down projects into steps makes me feel accomplished and motivated even if it takes me a week to get something finished.

[parliamentrook]

is anyone else starting to calm down and normalize, but also feel really guilty about it as more and more people are dying?

[parliamentrook]

our president thinking that businesses and money are more important than lives is fucking terrifying

and all the others who also do are now emboldened by him

absolute fucking monsters

[parliamentrook]

perfectly fitted veggie burger with naan rounds and salted plum candy. I’m undecided about the candy... I didn’t like it at first, but after removing most of the plum (and the pit still inside) I was into it. I like a little salty with my sweet, but not too much. no one else likes them so I’ve got a massive bag

insomnia very bad tonight, I’m going to try and get more anxiety meds on Monday. I’m very aware how taxing stress is on the body, trying to stay as calm as I can. eating enough is hard but I’m doing my best plus taking vitamins. it’s extremely important to take care of your mental health, eat well, stay hydrated, and get enough sleep to help your immune system

[parliamentrook]

My moms home from Taiwan, with candy and face masks. I’d much rather be there than here. I was almost paralyzed with anxiety going into the kitchen to make tea this morning. Everything is a surface.

[parliamentrook]

thank fuck my mom is getting on a plane home right now, phew. very worried about airport exposure, esp at jfk

[parliamentrook]

fuck it, quarantine in the basement time, don’t care if it’s even a tiny bit irrational, if it only helps my mental health it’s worth it

actually excited to set up quarantine kitchen