#strongchxn

[93hsk-blog]

« @strongchxn​ || continued. »

      Wonho stared at the other, brows furrowing at the tipsy male. It was his first time seeing Kihyun beyond the drinking limit - and he had to admit that it was quite the sight to watch. ❝I’m going to be honest with you,❞ he uttered with a soft laugh leaving his lips, ❝I have no idea what you’re talking about, Kihyun.❞

[geniusity]

“Just trust me this once, okay?”

“I do.” He told Himchan but he still couldn’t do it. Trust was a hard thing for Youngjae. Even with his own members who he had known for more than five years. He looked back at Himchan then at the others who were all looking at him. Youngjae is about to say that he can’t do this for the fourth time but Himchan had his arms spread out waiting. Curse whoever suggested doing these team building exercises. Youngjae let out a sigh and faced forward, taking a deep breath before letting his body fall backwards.

[tiger-zelo]

I've been semi-mia for quite some time now but I do remember someone with your physical features calling me chan chan. And.. let me just change that nickname for you a bit and call you tigga tigga. I like the way that sounds better.

I was wondering where you went too, glad you’re back even if it’s only semi back. That would be mee~ ohh I like that does really sounds better…I like it!

[tiger-zelo]

Have we met before?

I think so..I called you chan chan and I think you use to call me tiger tiger or tiger jello one of the two..if not then hiii~

[tsentered-blog]

AU / BAP / Himchan

[olzuri-blog]

[ text: Bay ] one more sticker and i'm blocking you

[text: Maxxie Moo]: But you love when I give you stickers..

[fragilepastels-blog]

“Who were you talking to?”

The voice behind Youngjae nearly makes him scream. He isn’t expecting Himchan to suddenly just be there, so as he’s hitting the end call button he nearly drops his phone. It’s like a scene from a cheesy anime. The thing flies through the air, he fumbles with it and juggles it as he tries to get a firm grip, and in the end he’s face first in the floorboards, shirt riding up and exposing his belly and lower back, but hey, he’s got the phone at least.Groaning a little bit, he just resigns himself to lying on the floor, and lets his nose press into the wood. “I…It was just my friend…….h..his name’s Jin.. He’s re-really nice..he’s a baker and h..he knows I don’t like to leave my apartment s..so he hand delivers my stuff t..to me……. W..Why..?”He barely bothers to even look up at Himchan, instead his cheek squishing into the floorboards as his eyes simply dart in the older’s general direction. He then uses his hands to push himself up off of the floor, eventually coming to a standing position and dusting himself off.But then it dawns on him, the tone Himchan used. He almost sounded.. possessive. Like he didn’t want Youngjae to have other friends or some……thing. Oh lord.“I….. Papa Bear… I’m not interested in him..I swear. I-I’m pretty sure he’s already dating someone anyway…h..he’s just my baker! I re-really don’t think he likes me like th..that I promise! A..And I don’t like him th..that way either!” Whimpering, he kind of finds himself flailing his hands almost desperately, wondering to himself if maybe..Himchan is mad at him?

[fragilepastels-blog]

strongchxn said: -he furrowed his eyebrows at your silence and ran his fingers deeper through your hair when you buried your face into his abdomen again; Hey.. You okay? -he lightly poked at your side, hoping to get your attention; You’re acting a little strange.. quiet.. you’re being too quiet.. -he worried that somewhere along the way he upset you, which was what he’d been trying to avoid, upsetting you;

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Youngjae’s not sure what to say. At some point he just doesn’t have any words anymore, but he doesn’t know why. He doesn’t want Himchan to think any of this is his fault, because he honest to god has no idea what’s going on with him, but he still finds himself a dead giveaway when his shoulders heave a little and an involuntary sob escapes his body, despite his attempts to suppress it. He doesn’t want to talk about it though, because he doesn’t know /what/ to talk about.

What is he supposed to say exactly? He has no reason he knows of for bursting into tears, so he can’t just make up some bullshit answer because Himchan’s smart enough to know when someone’s lying, but then Youngjae’s always been a really bad liar anyway so maybe that’s why the older always catches him. Still, now that he’s given himself away, he finds he only presses his face further into Himchan to hide, trying to keep himself locked in place as he silently lets the tears finally free themselves from his body. He wants to say something, but what? He just told Himchan everything was fine, that neither of them were actually ready or stable enough to date. He just assured the older that just a friendship for now was all that was necessary, but deep in him somewhere was he lying even to himself? He doesn’t want to think that, he doesn’t want to think he may actually be desperate for more because he doesn’t want to lose his closest friend, his favorite Hyung. He doesn’t want to pressure Himchan, or make him uncomfortable. He wants just a friendship to be okay because asking anything more could scare his fragile older counterpart away from him, and the last thing Youngjae could handle would be Himchan being scared to face him, leaving his life because he couldn’t control his own feelings. He needs Himchan there, they have a bond he hasn’t found with anyone else, and even the thought of losing him now to /this/....that scares him. So he wants to say just a friendship is fine for now, that they don’t need anything else to develop because Youngjae /truly/ believes neither of them are ready for the dating world. But then he has no other reason to be crying, so why is he such a mess? Why can’t he control himself or come to peace with talking about it? He doesn’t even understand himself right now, and that might be the scariest thing he’s ever experienced. For a boy with as many fears as himself, he knows somewhere in him that that’s a problem.