A Contradictory Confession
Engulfed endlessly by what I ignore,
I want to detach from what I adore.
Past pictures photographed inside my eyelids,
Now closing my eyes is what my body forbids.
Many question marks of who, where, how, what and why,
Unsaid apologies but numerous goodbyes.
So I’ll glaze my eyes and erase my mind,
So my past is something you’ll never find.
I’m bathed in my shame but I’m hidden by my smiles,
Innocence is what I claim outwardly all the while.
‘Ignorance’ is the burden that I bare,
To protect those for whom I really care.
Even in still silence my screams cannot be heard,
My conscience will not allow me to breathe one word.
Each step does twinge and each smile does tear,
My unwilling soul from my own despair .
Do you really hear my words and do you embrace my afflictions,
Or do you see my innocent face and see this as a distorted contradiction?