Dear Tumblr,
Shall I call you my “friend”?
Hello friend. It’s been a while since the last time that I was able to sleep soundly. To take a rest. It’s not because of insomnia, it is not because of my current addiction to an Anime series (Haikyu). The only reason is this: For 4 consecutive days, I wake up immediately a few minutes after sleeping, simply because I cannot breathe. Me waking up is like my brain’s telling me that I am not breathing. Indeed, I’m not. I always find myself catching my breath afterwards, it was suffocating. It made me afraid. Now even falling asleep scares me. That happened four times while I was in the room alone. Up until now I do not know the reason why that happens.
It happened again, but now I was able to somehow think about the reasons why. I came up with two:
1. Because I am alone.
2. It’s because I am too tired
Still, I am not sure what the reasons are.
Still, I cannot sleep early at night. Do they even know that I sleep at 3am? No one knows. No one asks. Of course, I did tell someone... but it seems like no one cared.