Face to face.
Isn't it horrible when you are finally face to face with the truth of why you were pushing away? I knew it all along, but I just knew I wasn't supposed to. I'm one of those girls little boys are told about during their youth. You know, the one that is extra mean to you because the truth is that she probably likes you. That is me, now. You can't keep saying bad things about someone...when there is nothing bad about them. They're great, actually. He's great. A group of us went out to eat pho last night and he came along. I finally saw it yesterday while I was just standing there, in the middle of a room full of people. What was so bad about him? He was too nice? He wanted to sit with me in physics? He stubbornly wanted to study with me? He was younger? He had braces? He wanted to help me? Tricked me into dinner? He wanted to strengthen his faith for his mom? He's too attractive & intellectual? Starring at what a great guy he really is, what a kind heart he has. But there I also was, realizing how I had shut him down for the past 2 weeks with every little nice thing he would do or say to me. Huuuuuy. I'm horrible. I know. Not to mention what a nice body he has...lol! Lulu kept saying it over and over last night, "You guys are SO alike!" And we are, our personalities are very much alike. It's kinda scary... lol. He's very innocent & such a gentleman. Why did I not see this before? I guess for the first time yesterday, with him, I put my guard down & just enjoyed myself. It was so much fun, to say the least. It was great. :)
Anyways, back to studying.