Warning: long text. You can ignore if you want. I also write this for myself.
I've realized:
1. I have a skin picking issue.
It's not big and it's better than it was before but... it's still quite present and I'd like to deal with the issue in details, so that by knowing the root of it, I can have a better chance (?) at successfully stopping.
It's a try. It has failed before. It might fail again. I also know that relapses are a part of many recoveries.
I'm gonna try. Any amount of time not doing [Insert negative issue] is better than the opposite.
tldr: I'm going to try stopping to pick my skin and dealing with why I do it as well.
2. I always feel like I'm in a hurry because, on the night shift, the slower you do things, the less sleep you have.
It probably doesn't help current state.
3. I'm always subconsciously putting my body in a way that's more or less inwards.
Ex. my right arm is usually across my stomach (when I don't have to pretend).
I think it's out of pain and being self conscious. Oh and always constantly being cold.
4. I miss being around horses (mostly), birds and dogs a lot.
I want to spend time around horses on a regular basis. I just have to figure out how.
