im starting to fucking crack, i was bad enough before, in summer, but now it worse because school has started and my mom said that she expects me to do well this semester because she thinks like 4 of my classes are kind of "blow-off" and the others will require work but i cant even get the motivation to do my calc homework and just copy it off of slader so i dont fail and i got a D+ on the first quiz and god knows what on the test and i also have to do NHS and NHS volunteer hours and i cant and im the oldest in the house and have that responsibility and im supposed to be driving to get my hours and my license but driving is hard and terrifying and then i have drama which i do want to be a part of, if only to keep from thinking too much about other stuff, and band which is physically, mentally, emotionally exhausting and i feel horrible. i havent had a good day since before school started and it just keeps piling and im faltering and its only week 3. only week 3. i cant i ccnat i justajsapsfdkajasfdljkaghsj;flkd