#stupid note

[scribbledbyhand]

🍀💖Hellohellohelloooo💕🍀

I‘m here again. New game, new luck! 😁

[farewell-to-arms]

I changed my name back.

Sorry guys, callmeshoreline is a name that has such a hold and weight in my heart, but farewell-to-arms is me. It’s good to be back. It sounds so stupid because it’s just a name, but I changed it because I was running away from the person I used to be and everything that her life had/was. But no more. 

[carmillasleatherpants]

Quick note.

I've made myself busy with seriously planning out this other AU (that i'm not even sure is going to go up) so Family's update that's been set for Friday is only 1.2k ish words.

Aka, kinda short. And I want to apologize, but at the same time, the story have 9.1k words was giving bothering me so I want to just push it past 10k.

[indigorally]

Need to go van shopping. Need to get me a home of my own.

[somegrayvyperson]

note to self: Stay away from Serenes Forest's forums.

side note: Don't piss off this guy called Rey.

[miinamata]

I keep making mistakes omg *rolls* I really am a dump i supossed to click private answer butasdfghjkl

[martianlyfe]

Wow this note is really long and I'm really high

What is existance The little bit of hope you hold Why do you choose to fight With all this pressure Do you even take in the things that you are told Are you the one to drown? The pathetic can not swim Where do you seek the will to fight? When the walls of your life start to crumble how do you hold up? You search for a place to hide in the darkest of places It could be you, The one to win You could be the chosen one but when you face it all You know you cheated them A substance trick A crack in the mirror In the way you view it all I sick game we play, But why? A lost soul searching for vengeance The thought to bleed out Every cut seems to help me understand No matter how small A blade to your skin Or to you heart Who knows It’s the lonely ones who seek comfort in pain The lost love with no reason A poison slipped to the sane No remorse, a fatal attraction But yet we put so much trust in the unknown Forever searching for something we will never reach Why do I feel this in explained passion It’s Whispering come closer Take a step off the edge Who knows who it is I’ll listen later Come closer Let go Remember in the end none of this matters The never ending guilt Of the pointless existance Of our washed up fate Sick of wasting precious time On special powder With sleepless nights Just trying to find that power A way to speak To Open my mind To express myself and to the expression of others I know life’s a bitch so I try not to judge I try not to live my life like the rapture I’m nothing but another stage of being surrounded by demons I try not to question Because I don’t even know where to begin Where did all this start Why can’t I help but want it all to end But I can’t help but rep that this shit is dope You gotta put your own spin on it Because average joe Can’t blow yoo You gotta keep it fresh Maintain the blue Because the more you fight it The faker everything gets Endure what you have to Because at the of the day if your learning that’s all that matters Even if it means leaving a scar or two I can’t live my life hiding behind long sleeves I guess all I can do is keep sippin and raving Awkard white kid swaggin Fuck your bitch I’ll throw her in my trunk Pussy as hoe I’m not just some blue haired punk Slip it in her drink Now tell me what you think Haazy shit I bet she couldn’t even see Ignore the flash backs from last week Bitch your weak Your weak Get on your knees Beg for for the forgiveness that you seek Your a waste With all the potential that you held You lost the key Do you ever consider the things you could unlock You gave up You lost

you will never be the one who tried so hard to be accept it you failure But that part of you can’t You can not handle the truth You now realize You are no better then them The wasted youth The lowest stage of life The type to make you question reality To trigger the thought… To end it all It would be quite the tragedy yes But the burden eventually fades I mean a ghost forms for a reason Demons dwell in the dark we create We must see the light Even though we are blind The cursed Dammed to something That was to feared to be defined Push the unexplained to the unknown Because who knows what will happen What do you have to loose Place all your bets But remember what you have But when you look for reasons to stay You can’t seem to choose what to do Trying to blame your loneliness on everyone around you When you try and live your life like nothing You must stay true But how can you trust yourself When the “true you” is a stranger Waking up everyday feeling completely different But with the same hate The growing anger The feeling that seems to slow my pulse Sucking the life right out of me A slip in the knot The promise of life They have spoken Everything that ever mattered to you Has been proven false How are you supposed to take this What does this “higher power” expect of you When you are one choosing to seek spiritual satisfaction in a whole anti leadership kind of way 

With all the things you stand for When faced with real structure What will you do

When you face what you have become

will you be able to maintain your strength 

It’s Like your physical being isn’t a thing What you do in this life is nothing to what you face in the next With what everyone around is cured with I can’t help but have respect Who am I to say we are not worthy to live our lives the way we feel It’s people like you The ones that are missing out Scared of the things you could see Living your life in doubt Why are we here And why am I so scared But not of death.. But the world itself Death is the real promise The only thing The sick like me Can really put our trust in

[miinamata]

I don't believe in myself I took about 5 hours to finish Danchou's Happy birthday" drawing It's 4 AM now I won't have a good sleep ;v;