#stupid scared

[theicemelts]

Scared

Tomorrow is our 6/7 week scan and I’m so nervous and worried. I’m trying to remain calm. It’s not going well. I’ve not felt that sick the last couple of days and that’s worrying me which is crazy. It’s early days.

Please let everything be ok and there be a teeny smudge in there with a beating heart. Please.

So you stay in there my little one, stay safe. Cause this team is pretty awesome and we do so desperately want you to be part of it.

[theicemelts]

Note to self

Don't watch programs about ivf before bed. It's a stupid idea, stupid stupid idea. Just makes your brain spin into far too many spirals of fear and worry. On a positive note if I ever doubted how much I wanted it this time. It's hammered home how much I do.