#stupidvent

[rizuluv]

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[pandaseoulparadise]

Little reminders I need to work on:

1. Stop skipping or taking medication late

2. If I have an idea or thought to do something: Go through with it.

3. Stop ruining friendships because I distance myself from being around them because of certain reasons. Such as; cannot talk to people because of the environment I'm in.

4. Try to keep looking for a job even though no ones hiring because no one wants to hire someone in their 20s who never had a job.

5. Try to remember why I used to love art and drawing when I was younger. I no longer have the motivation to even finish a drawing. I bring a tablet almost everywhere with me and yet nothing is productive with it.

6. Stop worrying what others think

7. Want to play a game? Play it. Quit being scared and upset when you can't get something right.

8. Trying to trick oneself with positivity doesnt seem to work. Only negative results. Negativity seems to get results..

9. Get as life. Stop living at home with dad and step family. Everyone else seems to be living with friends or siblings. Doesn't seem to be an option.

10. All else fails,( more than likely) plan B.

[pandaseoulparadise]

All those years of loving to draw just to forget everything and have no motivation or talent for it in the end. Should've not wasted the years and actually practiced more on it. Now I have nothing to fall back on. Nothing to vent through. No one even believes me when I said I forgot what I knew when I was younger. I'm always trying to draw then give up because no patience or motivation to finish anything

[angrypuppy666]

So I go out and ask Mum if she wants to come and draw with me, and it's like...midnight, and I asked her at Nine o'clock...and now she's just sitting out there reading. She totally forgot. Or she is just pretending... And I'm just...I... Why doesn't anyone want to be around me any more?  I just can't...