Y’all. I did it. I wrote something that wasn’t fluff. I’m patting myself on the back. I hope you all enjoy 😌
Warnings: 🥵 18+, nsfw, dd/lg leanings (if you feel I’m missing one shoot me a message and I’ll get it sorted -- safe space, y’all!)
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Look, relinquishing control was not something Addi was good at. Nor was it something she liked or preferred to do. She had spent the better part of her young adult years keeping a firm grasp on control so she could dictate when, why, and how things would happen in her life. Get into a good university? Check. Because that year, she was the only student to fill out a paper application and walk it right into the dean’s office of the film school. She vouched for her immediately. Get a job, post-grad, at a prestigious production company? Check. Because she had done enough research and had randomly bumped into the SVP at a swanky downtown bar. She had the job within three days. Write and sell a movie? Check. Because she worked her ass off and got into a lot of rooms she’d rather not be in until she could get into the room of her choice.
And then came Alex.
She was already kneeling on a pillow in front of him; her clothes making up a trail behind her. She flicked her eyes up to his and parted her lips slightly when he lowered a hand and dragged his thumb across her bottom lip. As she waited for his next direction, she thought about all the subtle things she’d picked up on that indicated to her what kind of night she was in for.
1. His eyes were a dead giveaway. The usually pale blue orbs that penetrated her soul, were much darker when he came home today. A storm was brewing in them. A mix between frustration and lust, and by this point, Addi knew it well.
2. The way he grabbed at the knob on the front door… the refrigerator… the chair at the kitchen table. The force sent a ripple of tension through his whole body; the tendon in his forearm constricted and flexed. She knew it’d be doing the same thing on her hair soon enough.
3. The silence he moved with while deep in thought. This wasn’t the sort of silence that occurred when he was working. That silence, of running lines, and hashing out his character, was riddled with slight mumblings and whispers. This was a stone, cold silence that would've creeped out the most hardened of people. It was calculated, and Addi knew he’d have a short fuse tonight.
“Hm?”
She blinked, pulling herself out of her thoughts, and focused on Alex at the sound of his soft, inquisitive hum. She’d missed what he had said and knew that was wholly apparent to him.
“It’s going to be a long night for you if don’t listen.” Knowing he had her full attention now, he tried again. “Don’t move,”
Addi nodded. Alex quickly broke away from his spot in front of her. She turned her head to watch him walk away, towards the bedroom, leaving her left behind. A soft whine passed her lips in slight protest.
“Oh hush,”
She watched him until he was no longer in sight, but even then kept her eyes glued on the hallway to await his return. When she heard his footsteps coming back, she turned back around and faced forward, waiting as he wanted her to.
“We’re gonna play a game tonight,” he smiled to himself, seeing her right where he left her. How far she had come from the little spitfire who was ready to fight him at every turn. And she had done so of her own volition. “Every time you’re a good girl, you’ll get a reward. If not, a punishment. Got it?”
“Got it—” It started off strong, but the moment he stepped back in front of her, now clutching onto her vibrator, she had less of an idea of what was going on.
“Safe words?”
He wasn’t asking as if they had changed and he was unaware of them. He was asking her to recite them. Addi nearly rolled her eyes, but it was like Alex could tell what was going through her mind and he cocked an eyebrow at her, daring her to be sassy with him. She opted not to. This was par for the course; he checked in with her like this every time they were about to embark on a wild night.
“Yellow, for pause. Red, for stop…”
“And if you’re not in the position to be speaking?”
“I tap your foot,”
Her answer earned a grin from Alex. He crouched down in front of her, maintaining eye contact as he turned on the vibrator and cycled through the settings until he found the one he knew she had little control with. “Good girl.” He placed the vibrator on the pillow, between her legs. “Down,”
Addi was quick to obey. It took a stronger woman than she to deny the quick opportunity for pleasure. She knew it would also be short lived. A quick, breathy moan passed her lips at her body’s first contact with the toy. It spurred Alex to stand back up. She forced herself to maintain eye contact, knowing that’s what he wanted, but found it increasingly hard to do so the longer the toy vibrated against her sensitive core.
Alex took a small step towards her, his crotch within reach of her mouth. The bulge in his pants already visible. “Up,” he growled. With this, Addi was far less quick to obey. Alex wasn’t impressed. “Up,” he barked louder. The sheer volume of it was enough to startle her off the vibrator, hovering above it. “I won’t ask twice. You’ll just get a punishment. Understand?”
She nodded, mumbled a hum for verbal affirmation.
He smirked and took a piece of her hair between his fingertips, gently twisting and curling it around before tucking it behind her ear. She was already staring at the bulge in his pants, which only made him smile harder. “You want daddy’s cock down your throat?”
She switched her gaze up to his and nodded as she chewed on her bottom lip. “Please,”
A growl rumbled through his chest; this one out of pure frustration. Not at her, but at himself for this game he decided to play. Maybe she had more self-control than he did. “Take it out,” he smiled and watched her hands move to his belt instantly.
Knowing this would get her another chance to sit down on her vibrator, she pushed his pants away from his hips and down to his ankles with precision and skill like never before. Then the task for his boxer briefs. She untucked them over his length and pushed them down until they met with his pants. Just the sight of him like that made her want to melt. She lifted her hands to his shaft, but before she could make contact, Alex clicked his tongue and grabbed her attention.
“Down.” He snickered at the speed with which she obeyed and gave her another command as she was mid-moan. “Suck,”
She obeyed that order instantaneously and enthusiastically. All she wanted to do was please him and when she glanced up at him with her tongue circling the head, she knew she was doing just that. His breathing had grown heavier. He was staring at her as if it were impossible for him to look away. And when her vibrator hit a spot that felt particularly good, a deep groan reverberated from her throat, and Alex lurched forward at the feeling. She wasn’t going to be able to be at this for very long. On any given day, blowing him was enough to get her turned on and riled up. Now — with her vibrator — it wasn’t going to take long at all. Something in her knew that Alex knew that, too. And this was just the beginning. He wasn’t touching her yet; letting her bob her head as much as she wanted to, and take what she could for the time being. He was letting her get warmed up.
That would soon end.
“Up,”
Addi let out a frustrated growl for herself and lifted herself off the vibrator. Even with the separation, her body still shuttered, working through its own sensitivity. Her hands tightened around Alex’s shaft and she glared up at him. If looks could kill, he’d have been a dead man.
But upon her vocalization and stare, he raised his eyebrows and cocked his head to the side, “did you want to file a complaint?”
She snapped her head back and dragged her mouth off him teasingly. “No, daddy,”
“That’s what I thought,” he grinned. “Who told you to stop?”
Mostly annoyed that he made her sit up from her vibrator, she let out a quiet huff and continued to stare him down. “You asked me a question,”
Alex smirked. He bared his teeth and took his length in one hand and pressed his other against the back of her head, taking a fistful of her hair. “Open,”
She just glared at him, daring him to do his worst. If she goaded him into making a choice, it meant she’d get some solid time sitting on her vibrator, even if that meant she was at his mercy.
He shook his head and clicked his tongue. “Wrong choice,” an extra tug on her hair let her know that he wasn’t in the mood for any of her own games. He began stroking himself; his tip tapping her lips with each stroke. He pressed a bit harder, but when she pursed her lips and kept them shut, he about lost it. “Down. And you don’t come until I tell you to.”
She gladly sat back down on her vibrator, but opened her mouth and let out a small whine so Alex didn’t think she was too enthused about it. It didn’t fool him. Instead, he used her whine as an opportunity to stuff his length back into her mouth. She choked at first, the pushing of his hips forward stretching her mouth more than before. She glanced up at him, finding him already staring at her, smirking. An animalistic growl escaped from his throat. Addi set her hands on his thighs, nails curling into his skin when a strong shudder jolted through her body.
Alex reprimanded that response too by pushing on the back of her head harder. His jaw dropped, his own moans getting louder and louder… And then he felt it: her throat tightening around his shaft. He grumbled a profanity and pulled her head back for just a second. Just enough time for her to gasp in a breath of air. Then he pressed her head back down until her nose brushed against the base of his length. Her own mewls of pleasure were not lost on him. He was very aware of each of the twitches and shakes that overwhelmed her body. Despite her mouth being completely filled, he could tell she was close just by the frequency of her moans.
“Not yet,” he mumbled. It earned a quick glance from her. Again, Alex lurched forward upon feeling her tongue swipe along the underside of his length. He pulled her head back and let out a shaky breath, “goddamnit.” He stroked himself quickly, using his hold on her hair to keep her head still. A few tears had broken loose and fell down her cheeks. “You’re gonna be a good girl and come for me?”
She nodded eagerly, knowing it was fast upon her. Her hands curled into tight fists. The feeling of the vibrator was making her throb now; her stomach in knots as she fought every instinct to release. Alex guided her head back in, setting her lips on his balls while he continued to stroke himself. She cupped a hand around his balls and licked over his sensitive skin, letting out a quick moan when she gently took one into her mouth, danced her tongue over it, then did the same to the other.
“Fuck, I’m gonna… I’m gonna…” he seethed out. The muscles in his stomach clenched and released. “Go,”
She fought against the hand on her head, pleased when he allowed her to do so, and repositioned her mouth on his length, sucking and milking him for every last drop. She didn’t have to wait long. Triggered by her own climax ripping through her, her lips tightened around the head of his cock. Alex held her still and offered a deep groan as he released into her mouth. Addi lifted herself off the vibrator, her body twitching as she finished riding out her orgasm, and as soon as she swallowed and released Alex’s length, she let herself topple over onto the ground. She was panting, her throat already going sore from Alex’s treatment. Even when she saw him crouching down to turn off the vibrator and check in on her, she didn’t have the energy to turn over onto her back for him. He had already ditched his pants but had pulled his boxer briefs back up in place.
Alex planted a sloppy kiss to her cheek and ran his hand back through her hair, paying careful attention to be gentle with the part that had gotten knotted from his grasp. “You’re so good,”
A breathless smile passed over her lips. She looked up at him as best she could and reached out to touch his leg. “Not too bad yourself,” a quick wink paired with her comment.
He smiled and stroked her cheek with the back of his fingers. “Are you in pain?” He waited for the shake of her head, then continued. “You sure?”
“I’m okay,” she persisted and rolled onto her back. Her core was still throbbing and her legs still felt like they weren’t going to be able to support her weight. “Bed?”
“Bed,” he agreed. Alex leaned forward on his knees and hooked his arms beneath her knees and behind her shoulders. He lifted her like she was weightless and got up to his feet, striding into the bedroom with surprising ease.
She was cradled to his chest, her arms clasped around his neck, and even when he bent over to lay her onto the bed, she didn’t release him. He smiled at her and brushed his nose back and forth against hers. She was clouded by joy and pleasure. Her eyes drifted open and shut in a relaxed and unhurried way. Even with them closed, she lifted her head and pursed her lips, happy when she felt Alex give her a gentle kiss. She took a deep breath in and stretched her arms above her head. Alex took the opportunity to migrate his lips to her chest, kissing and licking each of her breasts. Addi watched him and lowered one hand to the back of his head. She was enjoying the feeling of his weight pressed on her. A level of safety that she wasn’t used to feeling with a man.
Alex lifted his head, a wide smile still spread across his lips. “I’m gonna get you water and a washcloth. Good?”
“Good,”
One more peck on her lips and he lifted himself off her and left the room. Addi smiled to herself. She ran her fingertips down the center of her chest and down to her stomach. Never would she have believed that a man would be able to get her to go so willingly to her knees, to be made to feel small by his hands, and ultimately, so protected and safe in her sexuality.
Alex came back into the room. Sometime in his absence, he ditched his shirt and was only left in his underwear. Truly a sight to behold. Upon reaching the bed, he pecked her lips quickly and handed her the glass of water, which she took with the utmost gratitude. She was even more thankful that he had been thoughtful enough to get her a glass of room temperature water, knowing that cold water would probably irritate her raw and sore throat.
Her eyes were closed, mid-sip, when she felt Alex tap her thigh. An indication that he wanted her to spread her legs apart so he could clean her up. She let out a soft moan and spread them. She watched him drag the warm cloth along her inner thighs. A small giggle escaped her lips when he passed over a ticklish spot. The sound made his cheeks turn a light shade of pink and as he finished up, he took the glass from her hand and set it aside to press another kiss to her lips.
“I love you, kid,” he whispered, leaning his forehead against hers.
She grinned, “I know.”
Alex attacked her neck with a barrage of kisses and love bites, earning more shrieks and giggles from her. He dug his fingers into her ribs, tickling her with reckless abandon, until he heard her gasping for breath. “Say it,” he halted his playful attack on her.
“Say what?” She pursed her lips. Before he could start another barrage on her, she wrapped her hands around his neck and played with the ends of his hair. “That I love you? That no one makes me feel the way you do? That I honestly can’t imagine what my life would look like right now if you weren’t in it?”
Alex paused. All he could pull himself to do for the moment was stare at her. When he gathered himself, he nodded and cupped his hands over her cheeks and gave her a kiss that Addi swore was making her knees weak all over again.
