does anyone feel this weird, self-sabotaging feeling of 'oh shit i sound so stupid' whenever you start saying something with a group of people's attention on you or even here when you start typing and yk this is a safespace to rant but still you cannot help but feel embarrassed and feel as if whatever you voice out/type smth it always feels like complete piece of bs and a waste of time?
anyways my real question which i was obv hesitating to ask was gonna be about mommy and/or daddy issues. am i only one whose drowned in the sadness and felt unlovable by their own birthgivers? istg all i ever want is some parental validation but ik i'll never get it and THE MAIN THING IS MY PARENTS KNOW I WANT TO HEAR THOSE WORDS OF LOVE AND ADORATION FROM THEM SO BADLY BUT THEY WOULD NEVER SAYIT COZ THEY THEMSELVES HAD TO BEG FOR LOVE AND VALIDATION FROM THEIR PARENTS AND SO THE CYCLE OF GENERATIONAL TRAUMA HAS BEEN CONTINUED BY THEM UGH I HATE THIS. sorry for the rant and all the caps.
top 3 needs in life: (yall tell me yours too)
money
parental validation
soulmate/some sort of romantic interest (18 yrs gone living like a hermit without a single teeny tiny trace of romance in my life ifstg)
