#sugarcubedthought

[optimisticforfun]

I guess I've been in a weird mood lately or a normal mood lately, which is weird. I feel like watching and being quiet. I'll contribute when I have something.

[optimisticforfun]

I’m just looking for a set off orange and blue license plates

[optimisticforfun]

My mind moves a million miles an hour no problem every second of the day but when my hands find the keyboard, everything stops. I’ve decided to try and open up and every time it’s the same. Type a few sentences and erase, type then erase, type then erase. Over and over it happens and I can tell when it starts to frustrate me. I can feel when the emotions come up behind my eyes, I can feel a hand reaching outside of the pit, grasping at nothing trying to find something stable. The frustration comes and I feel the air fill my lungs and exhale those frustrations. Maybe next time, there is an instance where I will be exposed completely but it will always be on my terms, maybe that’s the problem. 

The thought is sweet to have but ultimately it’s just a thought right? That’s the problem... they’re always just thoughts. 

[optimisticforfun]

The thoughts behind my tongue taste of madness, games we play to spell our intent but are lost in the depth of play. Cautiously picking how to approach it but never giving to much. There's always something hidden away waiting for a chance to come to light, bringing life to madness and finding that it's been my peace all along.

[optimisticforfun]

I had something deep to pour into the universe but I distracted myself instead, sorry universe.