#sula talks

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

you gotta love intrusive thoughts, one second you're proud of yourself for remembering to take your meds, the next you're wondering "what if I take all my sleeping meds all at once?"

and it's not like I'm thinking about actually unaliving myself, it's just A Thought™

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

I may or may not have been listening to “Suicife Is Painless” on repeat for the past three hours

I may or may not have been crying

I may or may not have been writing things that I will never say or show to anyone because no one cares to ask

I’m a 30-something cliche of teenage depression. stuck in arrested development at age 16 and I’ll never change or grow up.

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

imagine being able to afford therapy

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

I find it suspicious that there are people who actually have good relationships with their parents.

my mom and I could easily just not talk for weeks and I don’t think she’d feel bad about it. and tbh neither would I.

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

why do I have these 2am feels rn like I could really go for a cry

it’s not even midnight yet, Sula

[futureperfectcontinuous]

Me at 2:42am, knowing I have to be at work around 9-10: it's out good friend, fucked up sleeping cycle, striking yet again!

[ifyouregoingthroughhell]

not being in with your emotions is sometimes getting teary-eyed at 3am and genuinely not knowing whether it's allergies or you're just experiencing emotion or sth

[feels-of-a-fangirl]

really annoyed at there not being any legal (or illegal, for that matter) way for me, a theatre nerd from the middle of Europe, to watch the Tonys