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[runicsurvivorfissure]

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[hurtramblings]

Gonna use this blog for what I originally intended it to be used to for in the first place and that's venting.

So, I'm being friendly with my ex and we're texting back and forth... The one thing that will chap my ass anytime I see it is when she sends me a screenshot of whatever and in the top right corner I see the face of her street urchin (new boo) with a little #1 beside it... Which means they are texting.

I know it shouldn't bother me but I can't stand his dumbass smug face. It's stupid ass smug grinning profile, every time I see it it makes me want to gas up my car and drive to Indiana and just punch him in it.

I also can't stand how she pays more attention to his damn text messages in my presence and yet I can't be afforded the same courtesy. I pay attention to every word she says but let me start talking and her attention and focus goes to his ass and her damn phone... Which I f*cking paid for!!!!

But alas, being in love with someone from a distance is about letting them live their lives and seeing them happy (which she most certainly is NOT and it's incredibly noticeable.) So, that's what I will do and that's suffer in silence and you guys will get to hear all about it.

[aloneandastray]

Smug Facade

A lot of people always say that I don't get to show who I really am nor my real attitude is. They say that I hide things and thinks I am not the kind of person who anyone can trust because I am not fully honest nor anyone can rely on because some says I am not loyal. Partially, it is true. Most of the time I am like that. But hey! I think everyone is like that. We show our different sides to different people depending on who we are with as well as where we are. We can never really tell everything to a person since there will always be things that are going to be left unsaid and sealed. Some truth you cannot tell to a person because you don't want them to get hurt. We act accordingly to situations. It is just really sad of how anyone can really say these things to me and I felt the hurt. The pain of the words are so strong that in still stings up to now. They can say all these things and yes, I will accept them because it is partially true. But, beyond those things that they have observed, beyond those thing they think are my "wrong-doing, even if they think I am acting. Well, I am not! But, I will still remain loyal to them. And I hope someday, they can fully understand me. I hope they will know. I will still remain loyal despite of how they said it. It hurts but I know, even words can be healed by time. In time, I will forget.