Blog Update: 2026 - The Struggle.
Hello audience -
I know we don’t know each other very well, if at all, but I feel like I owe you (the follower, consumer of my thoughts) an introduction… Or whatever this post becomes, I think you found me because of any of the number of explicit pieces I have written on this blog and if that’s the case, thank you!
If you found me and read any of my posts about my ex-wife… I’m not really sure how to feel about that, um… I wrote those when I was in the darkest parts of my depression regarding my divorce and so if you identify with any of that, I hope that you are in a much better place mentally because darkness is temporary.
My life is somewhat different now, I have new struggles that don’t deal with my ex, after all she’s with someone else and they’re married now… My struggles are my health and life or is it lifestyle? Whatever the case, my life got incredibly complicated in September of last year (2025) when I had gain a ridiculous amount of weight that no one should ever gain and I was informed that because of my incredibly stupid choices regarding the lifestyle I have chosen to live following my divorce that I have acquired (On top of lymphedema in my left leg) the early stages of heart failure with a high ejection fraction.
😱 Uh oh! Is probably what you're thinking right now, huh? If something else crossed your mind like it did mine (Uh, Doc… What does that mean?) as he was explaining it to me… Basically, it’s a genetic condition that I couldn’t have known I would ever come across but because of the lack of care I showed my body, it’s manifest but the good news (Yay for silver linings!!!) They caught mine early enough that with a complete lifestyle change and taking the meds that I’m supposed to I can reverse this whole thing.
That was the idea.
I got a cardiologist and we started trying to get this whole deal reversed… And I played along for a good little bit, see in June of 2025 I lost my job which gave me my insurance so while doing all of this I was flat broke… Okay, that’s a lie because I was getting unemployment but all that money was going to bills and my apartment. Any how, I started taking the meds and then my doctor changed one of them and out of no where I get a reaction to a new medication (Which has NEVER happened before) and I wind up in the hospital in early December for about few hours getting fluids and learning that the reaction I had kickstarted some cellulitis (You DO NOT WANT this bullshit) which was so painful but we got me some meds and we continue on.
While I was in the hospital I got a temporary job that had a hard end date to it, that being 12/31… Yup, 1/1/2026 I was unemployed once again this time however, I was going to learn just how much of a pain dealing with unemployment could truly be. Around Thanksgiving, unemployment notified me that they had overpaid me and that to satisfy the overpayment they were coming to collect $385 from me because my previous employer sent them the wrong info and course corrected at the end of the year…Bur even before that, somehow unemployment got the impression that I wasn’t able to work, like AT ALL, and so they put kabosh on my benefits for like a month.
With my last paychecks I was able to pay my bills up through the end of January. Dealing with unemployment took me until Mid-February to get straightened out… The only problem is that I was back from the unemployment claim I filed in June and that was going to run out with the second payment request in April leaving me without an income unless I was able to locate a new job. I’ve also had to count on family to help me out and that’s getting to be a pain in the ass because when I'm ready to pay whatever bill, the other party isn’t and that causes late fees. We’ve been struggling since February and it’s about to get a whole lot harder when my income goes away.
I’m about 90% certain that I’m going to get evicted and be homeless before my lease is up in July and all because I can’t seem to get a job to save my life. It doesn’t matter how many times I fix my resume I just can’t seem to get an interview or hired.
So that’s my new struggle folks! I’m gonna try to keep posting updates if I can maybe I’ll get something at the last minute… That would be awesome, just hope it’s not at the last minute.
