Throwback Thursday to “Astral Angel”, oil n acrylic, from 2003. This is an image based on the tarot card of Temperance: “Recovering from feelings of loss at last, the Fool begins to wonder if he will finally find the new spirituality he's after. It occurs to him that so far, he's been dealing with opposites: the two opposing sides of the scales (Justice), the material and spiritual, death and birth (the one leading into the other). Does one always have to be surrendered to get the other? he wonders.” Resonates with me today. The reference for this painting was an old girlfriend of mine, Caroline (aka Eva La Hoba, as seen in my #sunlightchronicles ). We joined hearts for a beautiful year and a half in my early 20s, hitchhiking across Canada n the US, treeplanting, meditating a lot and sharing mushy voyages. The Love affair sadly ended when she was wanting to have kids, but I was fresh out of college and just trying to figure out how to live off my art. We tried to stay friends, but her new boyfriend was jealous n blocked me plenty. Years later I invited her to my wedding, and when she finally replied she said she was too busy to attend (with her 3 kids). That hurt me so I never spoke to her again.. I hope I bump into her on the street one day and we can be friends again. So yeah, I’ve been meditating on all my past partnerships these days, girls who hurt me, girls I hurt too. Forgiving them, forgiving myself, releasing guilt. I still miss my last girlfriend, Arianne, and have moments of sadness as I continue to turn the page of that beautiful chapter. Breakups can be really hard, but also have so many reflections and lessons. A great opportunity for growth. All I know is that I will always be there for myself and never breakup with my own love for me. That lesson is why I placed myself in this period of aloneness. Slowly feeling better and stronger on my own, through the shifts of human emotion, and having patience with the process. #temperance #tarot #tarotcards #tarotcard #evalahoba #astralangel #painting #oilpainting #girlfriends #breakup (at Montreal, Quebec)
