#sunlit star

[ruinedprocyon]

i wanna be your dog, your dumb mutt, your favorite puppy :((

i wanna wear a collar and crawl around on all fours and sleep in a dog bed on the floor and be fed my food in a dog bowl. i wanna be a dumb dog who gets in trouble and muzzled when i bite and snap. i wanna be chained up in the backyard when i accidentally destroy your stuff. i wanna get super sad when you leave me in a crate while you to go to work. and i wanna get super excited when you come home and let me out. i wanna hump your leg until you have to kick me off and call me a bad dog. i wanna be forced to take whatever you give me without being able to complain other than barking and whining and trying to squirm away. i wanna be told what to do all the time. i wanna be taught silly tricks. i wanna be shown off to all your friends when they come visit.

i just wanna be your puppy :((

[ruinedprocyon]

there's just something about completely giving up your religion for someone that i can't explain. letting them pull you out of your dumb delusions thinking false gods could ever answer your prayers. turning your altar into one for only them. letting them pick and choose how you pray and dedicate yourself to them. letting them defile your sacred items. getting blindfolded by the scarf you used to use to veil when you'd pray to a false god. getting burned by the candles you used to light for every prayer. watching as they destroy your prayer beads. replacing your anointing oil for one they specifically approve of. kneeling in front of your new God praying exactly how they demand while they tell you how lucky you are to have been given the opportunity to repent. <3

[ruinedprocyon]

desperately need to go to a park and swing on the swings in the middle of the night with my big bro so we can kiss and hold hands and stuff without our parents throwing a fit or forcing us to separate :3

[ruinedprocyon]

big bro telling me it's okay and perfectly normal for him to crawl into my bed and touch me while I'm too sleepy to really understand them or push them off

[ruinedprocyon]

thinking about being forced to grind on my big brother's lap until all i can do is paw at his chest and whine like a dumb mutt :3

[ruinedprocyon]

my thighs are so pretty rn but i don't wanna risk getting terminated for posting them soooo I'm gonna tell you what @devotiondivine did to me :3

my left thigh has my big brother's name that they cut into me last night, one kinda deep cut, and the huge bruise from them biting me

my right thigh has 5 huge cuts from my big brother and they cut a heart and "big bro" super high on my thigh before they fucked me stupid

and then my neck is covered in marks from them

and yk he hit me a bunch cuz i was being kinda bratty and I'm not the right person to ask about what happened because I'm just their pretty and dumb puppy :3

[ruinedprocyon]

thinkin about my owner clicker training me :3

hehehe my owner trainin me to be the bestest most perfect doggy ever!! every time they prsise me they click the clicker nd thrn i get more puppy brained. snd whnever I'm being too human or too smart they jus gonna click the clicker and then i forget whatever i was doing cause suddenly I'm just their silly dumb puppy again!! :3

[ruinedprocyon]

doggy who's never disobedient but still gets punished routinely by his big brother :3

big brother who swings between being really really mean and hitting me and making me sleep on the floor like a bad mutt and being really sweet and loving and calling me a good boy for never getting upset or talking back and lets me curl up in his human bed with him

big brother who makes up fake rules and never tells me them so i always end up messing up even though i didn't know i wasn't supposed to do something, he just needs an excuse to kick me in the ribs until I'm sobbing and apologizing for being a bad puppy

big brother who rewards me for something one day then punishes me for that exact same thing the day after just to watch my face as i look at him confused as he hits me for not being a good boy