i saw this guy that looked like christopher today, and i couldn't stop sneaking looks at him every chance i got. not because i thought he had that irresistible attractive quality that christopher had (still has? idk for sure), but because this is the first time in 6 years since christopher has been out of my life that someone generally reminded me of him. and i just wanted to hop in the car, or on a train, or even fucking walk to christopher and just ask him how he's been these past 6 years. i want to ask him if he misses everything, everyone, me. i want to ask him what the fuck happened. i want to ask him if he ever thinks about me. you don't forget your firsts, no matter what they were. you don't forget the person that was there when no one else was. "you were there through everything." i was just returning the favor.
