after an arguement with your boyfriend, clark kent does the unthinkable. he doesn't come home, doesn't kiss you goodbye and doesn't return until its midnight and you've fallen asleep on your sofa. good job, clark still has the goodnight kiss to redeem himself.
clark kent x fem! reader
themes: accusation of cheating, lack of trust in this relationship (on both ways- also wrong, reader and clark are just miscommunicating idiots) jealous clark, angst, mainly angst, but fluff ending! (inspired by this request)
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it starts with a sandwich- well, two of them.
jimmy had caught you standing in line at the cafe, smiled a sweet tune and before you could stop him, his phone had pinged with that familiar apple pay notification that caused you to awkwardly blush, thank him appropriately and then proceed to run away.
you were just on a quick lunch break, heading out to pick up something for you and clark when your co-worker cornered you. jimmy is nice, he's friendly- a little bit weird sometimes but you've never felt afraid of him- this little crush he has on you just seems very sweet and that's all it is. a little crush.
and all seems well enough when you return back to the daily planet. you find clark still hunched in the same position you left him in, head buried into the glare of the computer screen. and when he feels your fingers run through his hair, tugging at the sensitive spots he loves, he lifts his head upwards and shoots you a look of pure adoration and it melts right through you.
"hey baby," he murmurs fondly, and from where you're perched up on the side of his desk, he drags you straight into his lap. you've never been big on pda but something about clark kent- your 6'4, 200lb hot nerd of a boyfriend has you doing a lot of things you usually wouldn't do. you lean into his embrace for a second before placing your hands on his chest, patting him gently.
"come on, munch time- you need to get something in you or you'll crash out," and you make work of unwrapping his sandwich. and when he sends you that lazy smirk, like he's biting back his laughter at his own joke, your eyes widen and clamp his mouth shut with a hand over it swiftly.
"do not," you whisper, blushing a violent red, "say what i think you're about to say," and he muffles an innuendo against the back of your fingertips before pressing a kiss to the hand smothering him. you let go when it looks like he's going to behave himself and make a move to stand.
"eat," you pat his shoulders gently, "i'll swing by when you're done," and he furrows his brows, gripping your waist and drawing you to him.
"stay," he mumbles into your stomach, hugging you as he's still seated in his chair. you slide your fingers through the soft curls of his hair again and he leans back, sighing in bliss.
your sweet sweet moment is cut in half- literally sliced when the voice of jimmy olsen grates at your ears and you wince as you feel your boyfriend tense below you.
"hey kent! you should join us next time, enjoy the sandwiches- my treat!" he hollers as he strolls past clark's desk, sending you the biggest grin you've ever seen stretched on his small face and you groan. when he disappears from view, you open your eyes at clark, hoping to find a teasing grin but there's nothing there. literally nothing, just a glare of pure steel focused on the mark where jimmy has left, scorching the spot with a burning disdain.
"clark," you start slowly, grabbing his chin to face you upwards again. he looks away begrudgingly and into your nervous eyes. "we've been over this, jimmy is a friend- our friend!" and part of you feels annoyed that this isn't the first time you've had to remind him.
"friend is a stretch, i hate the way he looks at you," he grumbles, swiftly moving the sandwich with his pen- not even his finger as though it would kill him to touch it- and straight into the bin. a startled gasp leaves you as your eyes widen in shock at the outright revenge and you tap his chest lightly.
"clark!"
"what?" he stares at you and you cross your arms in a protective stance.
"jimmy is just a friend- we've been over this!" you whisper exasperated, aware that you're still at work and in public.
"he's a boy," clark rolls his eyes, "and he looks at you like i look at you," he growls with a pointed glare. you scoff, it's just a crush! a silly crush jimmy olsen has that you liken to a puppy love, knowing damn well that no one on planet earth would dare make a move on you with your absolute hulk of a boyfriend by your side.
"i don't get this way about lois and you spend a lot of your time with her," you counteract, you've abandoned that bit of jealousy long ago but in this moment, right here and now it feels only right to throw something back in his face- give you some bit of stance to face clark on with.
"that's different- you love lois!" you do, she's one of your best friends and an incredible journalist.
"and you like jimmy-"
"no i don't- i tolerate him and he's a fucking loser if he thinks he's got a shot with you, so no."
"clark," you moan, this all feels really childish and a waste of your short unpaid lunch break that could spend just eating a sandwich and kissing your boyfriend silly, "are you really jealous right now?"
"no," and he's stubborn with it, "i just think he's disrespectful like i'm right fucking here," he rolls his eyes, and when you take a step back out of his hold, he doesn't exactly reach for you- which hurts even more.
"clark, we've been over this and i'm getting real sick of repeating myself, there's nothing between us," you complain, "do you not trust me?" it's a light-hearted remark, sarcastic as it leaves your lips but you wish you could take it back once you see your boyfriend's reaction- or lack of thereof
he stills, frozen in his seat. it takes him a beat longer to reply but that beat is all you need to scoff, you detach yourself from him completely, mouth gaping open. "you really don't fucking trust me?" and it's a little louder than you'd like as the betrayal drums along your chest, matching the erratic beat on your heat and pounding in your head. there's just too much going on, too much to feel.
you're sure you've caught a few stares because clark is up in a second, gripping your wrist as he leads you to the privacy of the stairwell. you snatch your wrist back when the door slams and face him with a quiet fury, "oh my god, you've got some fucking nerve, huh?" you spit back, the anger at not being trusted pound in your veins.
"what?" he raises his voice back, he's tried to contain himself but it's too late- the stress of this article, the slimy look jimmy olsen sends your way and the betrayed glare you slice him with is overstimulating, he's loosing control.
"you don't trust me, i fucking knew it," you heave a heavy breath to yourself and his nostrils flare out air in annoyance. you've not let him speak this entire time but maybe that's the problem- he's not exactly composed himself to reassure you that this has all just spiralled out of control. but the fire you spit carries a heavier heat and clark detects this immediately.
"that sounds like you've got something to get off your chest, go on," he pushes, "lay it on me huh?" and you scoff at how big of a delusional idiot he's being, careless of your feelings and how he makes you feel so small, like you're the one with the problem. and the thing is, you can meet his fire immediately, if clark kent wants a problem- oh boy, you'll give him a problem.
you take the steps to close the distance, your fury fighting in the air as it wraps around him whole. you don't mean to increase the intensity but you need to make sure that this next sentence hits his ears and his ears alone,
"then why'd you tell lois about superman before me?" and its thundering how his heart roars in a panic.
"what?" he breathes, and you nod in fierce determination.
"you heard me," you return without skipping a beat, "you can accuse me of cosying up to jimmy- a baseless accusation by the way- for a good journalist that you are, you are a fucking idiot," you roll your eyes, "but lets talk about trust huh, why did lois know before me?"
"because she was smart enough to figure it out! we've been over this!" his restrained shout is met with a click of your tongue as you take a step back, sizing him up with a look. its also an echo of your earlier defense- you've been over the jimmy crush saga plenty and clark still worms it back up
"are you saying i'm not smart enough?" you drawl, annoyance bubbling in you and burning you whole. "first i give some loser the time of the day and now i'm too dumb, you're really winning boyfriend of the year, kent," and it should stop him at how you've addressed him by his surname. he's never been kent, he's always been clark- your clark.
but he's stubborn as he is tall and pushes back, cornering you into the wall, "you are twisting my words," he hisses, "and it's not like i wasn't going to tell you eventually."
you place a hand on his chest, not lovingly like you usually do but to stop him. you're not about to be backed up against the wall for a fight you did not start.
"and how was i supposed to know that?" you speak, "am i supposed to just what-" and the glint in your eyes is murderous, "trust you?" you squint and clark knows there's no way out of this for now.
he stands, feet apart holding his head high, and you scoff knowing you're the one who's going to have to break, to level this or you won't come out of this alive.
"look," you breathe but he still hasn't looked at you, "we're going to go back inside, we're going to carry on our day like the professional working colleagues that we are, then we are going to go home and you're going to tell me what the fuck is really going on, because this has spiralled out of control," you wait to hear clark's stoic murmur of approval, like he usually does when you reach the height of an arguement but it doesn't come.
"clark?" you pull him out of his thoughts and force him to look at you. "look honey, i'm sorry, i've said some nasty things in the moment and i know we've been over the lois drama- i shouldn't have brought it up again," and it's true, part of you is over it- you argued over it back months ago where you didn't take clark back after weeks of grovelling. it was petty you know, but you just needed some ammunition with all the jimmy nonsense he was gunning at you.
your phone lights up with an alarm, signalling the end of your lunch break and your stomach cries at the wasted time which you've not even had the chance to eat yet. "listen baby, we'll talk about this at home, yeah?" when you realise he's not going to give you a reply other than a singular nod, you plant a kiss on his cheek, heading back onto the floor and straight to your desk.
you don't miss the small smile lois lane sends your way and you return it back. this isn't her fault in the slightest and she's been nothing but the best of friends to both you and clark. you almost hate yourself the tiniest for dragging her into that ugly arguement in the stairwell, but being accused by your boyfriend after dating him for an entire year for being untruthful wasn't exactly on the board for your tuesday lunch time plans.
the rest of the day ends in a blur, you focus on your article and at how your grumpy lover sits a few desks away, hardly looking in your direction. five o'clock hits and you get ready to pack up all your things in your bag, the still packaged sandwich from earlier sits there like a painful reminder and you stick it in the small fridge under your desk for tomorrow's lunch. in this economy, you're not about to lose your boyfriend and your lunch, god what a wreck.
and when you walk past your boyfriend's desk you're met with pure emptiness. your tote slouches in a growing fatigue on your shoulder, already carrying the weight of tonight and then your eyes settle on a yellow post it, blinding in your vision.
"needed some space. you take the car, drive safe."
and you scoff, crumple it up between your fists and dump it in his bin alongside the pesto and mozzerella sandwich from earlier. the keys are hidden in his top drawer and you snatch them in a wave of annoyance- less anger than before and make your way to the parking lot.
the drive home feels a lot slower without your boyfriend humming along to the songs, interlocking your hands across the control panel and telling you off handed comments about his day. you sit in silence, unbothered to connect your phone to the bluetooth mode and just drive and drive and drive.
you don't go home immediately, choosing to clear your head and his fuel tank before you land at your apartment door.
it's seven pm and the house is untouched, you got off work two hours ago and there's still no sign of clark. as soon as you've set foot through the door you drop your tote to the floor and shrug off your coat, letting it land wherever next to your bag before dragging yourself to the sofa.
there's no messages on your phone, no inkling of where your other half is and it hurts you. this is classic clark behaviour, clark who runs away when things get hard and he doesn't know what to do- the only difference is, and you feel it with every tick of the clock hands that warn your ears, he's never not come home like this.
seven pm turns to eight pm and then to nine, and somewhere along the lines where you try to sit up and wait for him, sleep decides to take you in an easier feat and when you close your eyes, clark is still the one you see and call home.
. . .
you don't hear the turn of locks, or even the soft sound of shoes shuffling at the door. sleep has been kind on you and taken the exhausation out of your system, gently lulling you to a clearer conscious and its only when your airborne you begin to stir.
"clark?" you murmur, the sleep heavy in your voice it kind of comes out as a grunt.
"hi, honey," he whispers, careful not to be too loud. his body is warm against yours, he carries you like a baby, your head is up against his chest as your legs have wrapped around his waist. one of his arms comes across your back and the other just at the back of your thighs. your body could remember every single sensation he's ever sent you by heart, that you relax into his touch, melt into the warmth because in his arms you've never felt safer.
he takes you into your bedroom and lies you on top of the bed, onto your side before he leaves to change and joins you on the other side. the lights are off, and there's something unresolved in the air- clark hoped to apologise tonight for being the biggest idiot on the planet but seeing you asleep on the sofa? waiting for him? god he deserves longer to wallow in his regret and pity.
"clark?" you call out for him in a mumble and he softens, guilt filling his blood in every vessel, pumping like its trying to break free.
"babydoll, i'm sorry," he breathes, the apology lingers in the air before you speak again, slightly more awake but still tired.
"you didn't come home," you whisper, rolling over to face him, "you've never done that before," and the silence that follows is thick. he reaches out to brush a rogue tendril of hair out from your face and behind your ear. your mouth parts open at the touch, a look of sadness wavering over your features and he closes his eyes, wincing.
"i needed some space," he starts and you interrupt him.
"you couldn't have called? or texted? or passed by my desk and just let me know? i'm your girlfriend clark, if you need space you can just trust me to respect it," and its that damn finnicky word all over again. trust. clark does trust you more than anything, than anyone, he was just a gigantic jealous idiot who let his mouth run quicker than his brain could catch up and reprimand him.
" you're right," he speaks low, "you're right. i should've let you known but a large part of me was fucking embarrassed of how i acted. i'm ashamed i even implied the worst of you," he closes his eyes, hiding from his earlier regret, "i do trust you, with my whole life i just- oh god, i'm just a dick and i'm sorry, i'm sorry for even raising my voice at you earlier god, who does that? and the jimmy thing was immature, i know you'd never be dishonest with me i just got wrapped up in it and unfairly took it out on you," somewhere during his spiel, you've lifted a hand to his cheek, cupping it softly.
"thank you for being honest with me now," you mumble and he takes the cue to move closer to you, bodies almost touching.
"and you have every right to still bring up lois- if it bothers you still, we can talk through it again and again if that's what you need then that's something i'll keep being sorry for," his reply is earnest, he mustve practised it on the way home, you think and you nod slowly, sleep creeping in on you.
"clark honey, couples fight-"
"i don't want to," he counteracts immediately and you just start groaning until he gets the hint to stop speaking and let you finish.
"i said couples fight," you repeat yourself firmly, "i said some mean things to, like i didn't mean to call you an idiot but i did, so i'm sorry-"
"i believe you called me a fucking idiot," he teases and you level him with a stony look.
"okay wise guy, you also tried to call me a cheater,"
"which i apologise profusely for, it was incredibly disgusting of me to even insinuate that-"
"and then i forgive you," you lazily return, "we'll talk more on this tomorrow i'm tired, clark."
"okay," he surrenders, he can wait for the morning to come and make it up to you properly, apologise and grovel when you're alert enough to understand the weight he's trying to lift from you. "you know that i do trust you though right? i didn't mean-"
"clark," you whine, throwing your leg over his and borderline climbing on him, using him as your pillow and trying to find a good spot for you to fall back asleep. "i know that and i said we'll talk about this tomorrow, go to sleep," you beg.
he lands a kiss to your temple and murmurs a goodnight and you pause with a frown.
"kiss me goodnight properly," you moan and he does, letting his lips press to yours a moment longer than usual, melting in all the words he doesn't know to formulate but hopes you can feel it burn through him and you hum in approval.
you nestle into his hold, he wraps you up tighter, putting you in your favourite position which is having your ear pressed up against his heartbeat as your body rises and falls with the soft breaths of his chest. he thinks you've finally fallen back asleep again before he lets out a final sigh, but then you're mumbling- to yourself more likely and clark tries to bite back the laugh this time.
"jimmy olsen, you know," and it comes out as a sleep filled, drooling mumbling scoff, "couldn't have at least given me more credit and said bruce wayne." the chuckles escape him and he knows you're not even going to remember that you believe you could've bagged batman tomorrow- but hey, you managed to get superman on his knees so there's real strong potential.
tomorrow comes and clark is going to do everything he can to make it up to you, and that includes secretly killing jimmy olsen before breakfast.
riya saying hi: hii 🥺 my sole purpose in life feels like its to provide clark angst and when its requested- i fear i may have to step up and prove myself LOL anyways, i hope you enjoyed this, it was based off a request i linked at the top if you want a little more context. to op, i hope this is similar to how you expected it- again, i don't really take requests i get nervous and overthink everything and think im a piece of shit, but i did like this idea so didn't mind it. hope you liked & as always please let me know what you think! if you ever wanna say hi, come say hi- my inbox is always open! except to those loser anons who correct my grammar and try and remind me to include "x reader" as a tag; here's your reminder to actually check my tags because i do!!! get off my page!!! ugh sorry for the rant, enjoy the clark! because i dont actually have anything planned for him next so who knows where the wind will take me, love ya!!! xxx
summary: what was supposed to be a simple no-strings hookup between best friends turns complicated when feelings inevitably get involved. huh. who would've thought?
wc: 11.4k (i'm just as shocked as you)
genre/tags: fluff/minor angst (miscommunication trope tbh)/smut (TWO smut scenes woohoo!), best friends to lovers, protected sex (condom/bc), p in v sex, oral (fem & male receiving), size kink (clark has a huge dick, but y’all know that 😝), slight praise kink
"just one night," you had said. "no strings. no feelings." you liar.
you were the one who proposed it – all cool and casual, as if it wouldn't ruin you. and now? you can't even get through a bowl of cereal without thinking about the way clark kent sounded when he moaned your name.
it's been a week. one whole week since he wrecked you and then kissed your forehead like it was nothing.
(it was something. it was everything and you hate him for it.)
because now? you know no one else will ever come close.
you scroll through tinder like a bitter old woman; this guy's too short. that one uses the wrong "your." one says their most irrational fear is "women." (kill me.)
all the while, a tiny voice in your brain that you wish would just shut up whispers: clark would never.
and thanks to that voice, you end up mentally replaying that night for the thousandth time – back when it all started. back when it was just popcorn, a movie and a stupid, stupid idea.
– thursday, 9:42 P.M.
it had started the way movies nights at your apartment always did: clark stretched out on one end of your couch, his arm over the back of it, a bowl of popcorn sitting between you, and you on the other end, your socked foot tucked under his thigh, claiming the space like it was normal (which it was). you're halfway through some cheesy drama neither of you were really watching, spending most of the time catching up on life other than the daily planet.
you lean over, tossing your half eaten dragon roll from the takeout sushi platter onto the coffee table, before returning back to slumping against the couch, eyes scrutinizing the t.v.
then came that scene – hot and heavy kitchen counter action, complete with frantic kissing and someone getting hoisted onto the marble and you can tell it's a scene the actors had to practice at least three times by how seamless and graceful it seems.
you scoff, reaching for popcorn from the bowl between the two of you. "god, i miss that."
clark glances over at you, a brow quirking upward. "being thrown onto a kitchen counter?"
you popped a kernel into your mouth. "being kissed like that. hell, being touched like that. my last date ended with a side hug and apple cash request for half the appetizer."
clark winces, face visually contorting. "ouch."
you sigh dramatically, leaning your head back against the couch. "i'm in a dry spell so bad, it's actually concerning."
clark laughs. your transparence was something he had to get used to at first but over time, he realized that's just how you were. unfiltered. bold. honest in a way most people weren't. it didn't scare him. if anything, it made talking to you easy.
he nudges your leg. "join the club. last girl i dated told me i was 'too polite to be hot.' whatever that means."
your brows furrow, internally scolding the woman for ever saying a thing. "it means she had no taste, clark. trust me, you're hot and polite. some of us are into that, y'know."
clark flushes a little at that, lowering his head to conceal his shy smile but you see it anyway.
maybe that's why you said the thing. because of his dumb, stupid, clark smile.
you reach for another handful of popcorn, keeping your eyes fixed on the movie screen even though you've completely lost the plot. you may be blunt at the best of times, but even you have a little shame, so you cover it up well. "you know," you begin, tone softening considerably enough for clark to look over at you again, "we could fix that."
clark tilts his head, confused. "fix what?"
"the dry spell." you glance at him now, meeting his eyes. "you and me. just one night. a mutual exchange."
his mouth parts, just slightly, and then it opens and closes like a blubbering fish. you can practically see the gears turning in his head, the way his jaw flexes before he clears his throat. "are you serious?"
you shrug like it's no big deal, like your heart isn't hammering against your ribcage. "sure. we're both adults. good friends. we trust each other. and we're both painfully single. why not?"
he says nothing for a moment. you can see him doing that thing that he always does: thinking it through, being careful, considering every angle, every potential consequence.
your nails dig into the rough fabric of your couch, dwelling on the proposition you just made. with every second that passes, regret sinks heavy in your stomach.
you open your mouth, ready to backpedal and make a joke of it. you'll laugh it off, blame the movie or your hellish dating era–
clark cuts you off before you get the chance, his voice low. firm. certain.
"okay."
your breath catches, brows lifting slightly.
his eyes are on you now, his expression steady, unreadable but darkened in a way that makes your skin prickles and goosebumps rise on your arms. "if you're sure," he adds, softer this time. "i'm in."
you blink. "yeah?"
he nods. "yeah. just two pals keening for mutual relief." despite the joke in his words, he delivers it a little more seriously.
you nod along. "exactly. just sex. no strings. no feelings. we're still friends after this."
"right," he agrees sharply, adjusting the black frames on his nose. there's something different in his expression now, something unreadable. it's times like these when you wish you could read his mind. you share a planet with a superalien and yet, there's no accessible device you can use to know exactly what clark kent is thinking. pity.
"okay," he says again, resting his palms against his thighs. one of his thighs presses to yours. did he scoot over? "so, when do we start?"
your eyes flutter, startled at the sudden shift.
"um... now?"
and then he looks at you, really looks at you in a way that sucks the breath from your lungs, his gaze drags across your face like he's memorizing every detail he's never let himself linger on too long.
a beat passes.
"now works," he murmurs, nodding to himself and you're unsure if you're seeing things but you think you catch his adam's apple bob in this throat.
he turns to face you and there's another moment of silence between you, darting eyes looking into each other's with neither of you sure how to make the first mood. the tense air falters slightly when you both laugh, visibly shaking as if trying to fray the nerves you feel.
"you're allowed to kiss me, clark." you crack a smile, further easing the tension and giving him the go-ahead.
clark nods, reaching his arm up. his hand comes up gently, fingers brushing along your jaw, like he's hesitant in case you pull away. but you don't. you can't. you're frozen in place, heart pounding in your ears as clark kent, your best friend, your coworker and lunch break buddy, closes the distance and kisses you.
it starts slow and you shouldn't be surprised.
he's soft, tentative, like he's testing the waters, but the second your lips part and your hands slides up the back of his neck, feeling the curls at the nape of his neck, it's like a dam breaks.
the kiss soon turns hungry, almost desperate in a way that makes you feel dizzy.
he groans into your mouth, deep and guttural, the sound vibrating through your chest when you gently tug at his hair, pulling him closer to you. his hands find your hips and he grips them tightly as he sits beside you.
your free hand trails down to tug at his shirt. he's quick to lift it off, breaking the kiss for a mere second, tossing the fabric somewhere behind the sofa.
you don't remember how you ended up in his lap, only that you're straddling him now, grinding down over the thickening length pressed against his jeans.
your hands aren't shy in the way they glide across the newly discovered fair skin of his torso. he's on the fairer side but you can imagine the farmer's tan he'd probably sport had he stayed home and not moved to metropolis.
you knew clark was a big guy. everyone did. he's a tower of a man, standing over you at six-foot four-inches, yet with the most gentlest of demeanors.
there's nothing gentle about clark's body though. you have half the mind to ask him when he finds time to go to the gym consistently but the other voice in your head tells you it'd ruin the moment.
clark's hands travel everywhere, too: up your thighs, your waist, your back. he touches you like he's been waiting for this. starving for this.
he hides pent up energy a lot better than i do, you think to yourself.
your teeth scrape against his bottom lip, holding the soft flesh between them and he exhales sharply, like you've knocked the wind out of him.
"bedroom?" he pants against your mouth when you release his lip.
you nod breathlessly. "please."
he stands with you still clinging to him, lifting you like it's nothing (seriously, what can this man bench?), and in a matter of seconds, you're in your room.
it's not the first time he's been in your room. it's not even the tenth. he's helped you assemble ikea furniture in here. he's helped you hang picture frames and fix a broken drawer. he's sat on your bed, fully clothed, eating pad thai while you struggled to find what to wear for a particular date.
but this...
this is different.
this time you're underneath him, flat on your back, watching as he looks at you like he's never really seen you before. granted, he hasn't. not like this.
his hands smooth under your shirt, eyes trained on the faded material. you're about to ask what he's staring at when he murmurs softly, "this is mine."
you glance down, eyeing the oversized fabric plastered with the logo of an indie band you know nothing about. a distant memory flashes in your eyes. "y'gave it me after that big storm," you remind him, your tone matches his. "never asked for it back."
"so you decided to steal it?" he asks, eyes flitting up to yours, a hint of amused challenge in his eyes.
"more like long-term borrowing," you correct him firmly. "i was going to return it eventually," you add.
"eventually," he echoes, like he doesn't believe you for a second.
his fingers toy with the hem of the shirt, brushing along the bare skin of your navel. it sends a shiver across your body, not only by his touch alone, but how he looks at you.
you swallow. "you want it back?"
clark hums, leaning in, nose brushing against yours. "eventually," he teases.
he kisses you again.
it's slower this time, like he has all the time in the world to taste you. his hands skim your sides, pushing the shirt up gradually, savoring each inch of skin he reveals. your arch to help him, letting the fabric slide up off your arms, over your head and get tossed somewhere beside your bed.
clark sits back just enough to look at you, really look at you, and the look on his face makes goosebumps raise your skin. his eyes drag down your chest, still clad in a bra.
"um, may i?" he asks, voice strained.
a smile cracks your features, warmth blooming in your chest at the his display of shyness during your moment of intimacy. you nod with a hum of approval, grateful that the bra you decided to wear today had the clasp at the front between the two cups.
clark breathes out a quiet sound of relief, like he's also grateful for the simplicity. his fingers find the clasp easily, but he doesn't rush. he hesitates for just a second, giving you one last chance to change your mind, even though your body is already arching toward him in invitation.
the clasp clicks open with a soft snap and you bra loosens against your skin.
with a bated breath, you feel clark slide the straps from your shoulders carefully, until the bra has been tossed aside to join your – his – shirt on the floor. you blink up at him as he finally takes you in fully, his breath catches.
"you're beautiful," he says simply, like it's a fact. not a line, not flattery. just the truth.
you swallow hard, unable to speak, so you reach for him instead, pulling him down into another kiss, your hands wrapped around the back of his neck. this one is deeper, messier. your tongue slide together, desperate and hot enough to make your thighs press together.
clark groans into your mouth, feeling the movement of your legs, as if he knows exactly what it means. his hands slide down your sides, settling on your hips, thumbs tracing slow circles, just under the waistband of your sweatshorts.
then he shifts, dragging his mouth along your jaw, down your neck, pressing slow kisses to every inch of skin he can reach. you gasp when his lips find the sensitive spot below the corner your jaw, your fingers tightening in his hair as he sucks softly.
"clark," you whisper, barely able to get the word out.
he lifts his head slightly, eyes searching yours. "tell me what you want," he murmurs.
you bite the inside of your lower lip, feeling the heat pool in your lower belly. "i want you to touch me. really touch me."
he lets out a breath, nodding.
clark moves lower, trailing kisses down your chest, pausing to mouth at your breast, his tongue flicking over your nipple until you arch beneath him with a croon. you moan softly when his lips close over your nipple, sucking at the stiffened flesh. your eyes flutter shut as his large hand gropes the breast that's not in his mouth, before it begins to trail down.
his hand coasts down your stomach, slipping beneath the waistband of your shorts, and then he goes lower, beneath the cotton of your underwear.
your breath hitches when his fingers brush over your slit, already soaked and his breath stutters against your skin. he releases from your nipple with a soft 'pop,' eyes meeting yours.
"oh my," he groans, "you're so wet."
you whimper, half-embarrassed, half-desperate. "yeah, well... you're kind of hot."
he huffs to himself – maybe a laugh, maybe it's out of disbelief – and presses a kiss to the slope of your breast before slipping a finger between your folds, circling your clit with a precision you don't want to know from where he learned. your body jerks at the contact, a soft moan leaving your lips.
clark watches your expression closely, trying to read your pleasure.
"like this?" he asks lowly, swallowing the lump in his throat.
you nod frantically, your fingers tangling into his hair as you pull him closer. "mhm... just like that."
his touch grows more confident, smiling to himself as he coaxes another croon from you when he pushes the finger inside your velvet walls.
you gasp, hands moving to clutch his shoulders, eyes fluttering shut at the slow and deliberate stretch of his digit inside you.
he hums in approval at the feel, like the warmth of you is enough to drive him crazy. his thumb moved to your clit, circling in tandem with the curl of his finger, drawing sounds from your lips he's never heard before. now that he has, he doesn't think he'll ever forget them.
your hips buck up to meet his hand, your breath hitching as his finger begins to move faster and with more purpose. he carefully adds a second finger, watching your reaction closely.
"oh, clark," you pant, voice breaking.
"does it feel good?" he checks in softly, continuing to crook his fingers inside your gummy walls.
"y-yeah, real good," you nod, lashes batting.
your body burns and your pulse pounds in your ears, thighs trembling as he works you closer and closer to the edge with just his fingers.
"clark, i'm– oh my god–"
you're at the precipice. he can feel it, too.
"mhm, go ahead, sweetheart," he hums against your temple, his thumb circling faster over your clit.
you're unsure if it's his fingers or the pet name that triggers your orgasm but you cum with a sharp cry, legs tensing and back arching as waves of pleasure roll through your body. he doesn't pull his fingers out until you're gasping, twitching and whimpering from the overstimulation.
when you finally open your eyes, you look at his expression: tender. a littler in awe.
you pull him into a kiss before you can overthink it, your lips a 'thank you' for the orgasm he gave you. one of your hands drift down and feel how hard he his through the denim of his jeans.
"your turn," you murmur against his lips.
clark shakes his head slightly, kissing your jaw. "we're not playing a board game."
you arch a brow, still catching your breath. "clark."
he grins softly. "okay, fine. 'm not going to argue with you."
you laugh breathlessly tugging at the loops of his jeans before your reach the button of them. he lets you unbutton his jeans, finding the zipper and pulling it down.
clark hisses when the zipper comes in contact with his bulge, separated by the cotton of his boxers. you glance up at him, eyes flitting to his face, just in time to see him bite down on his lower lip and knit his brows together.
you push the denim down his hips and he helps, standing off the bed momentarily to tug the rest of them down his legs and kicking them aside.
"those, too," you murmur, eyes zeroing on his boxers, more specifically the hard outline behind them.
clark exhales sharply, his cheeks tinting a faint pink as he hooks his thumbs into the waistband of his boxers and leans over to slide them to his legs before stepping out of them and leaving them in the pile on the floor.
your breath catches as he straightens again, fully bare now and yeah... you're in awe.
your eyes roam over him and he shifts slightly under the weight of your gaze. he's not bashful per se, but he's something close to it.
"jesus, clark," you whisper.
"what?" his ears flush a darker pink and that makes you grin because of course he's shy about it. it's so him, it almost makes your chest ache.
"you, clark," you smile, chuckling through your nose. "that," you add, nodding toward his cock, hanging thick and heavy between his legs.
he sucks in a breath and you find his reaction dear. of course the guy with the biggest dick you've ever seen is modest about it. and of course it's clark kent of all men.
"c'mere," you beckon him over, sitting up in your bed. "wanna make you feel good."
he kneels at the edge of your bed, voice strained, raspy with want. "you don't have to," he murmurs but the twitch of his cock says otherwise.
"i want to," you answer softly, gently tugging him by the arm until he's settled against your headboard.
"sweetheart..." he trails off.
there it is again. that damn pet name.
"let me," you ask, practically beg, eyes boring into his with desperation. "please."
his lips purse as if he's holding something in and then he's nodding. "okay."
you wrap your fingers around him, heat returning to your belly when you realize your hand barely encircles his entire circumference. you stroke him once slowly, and clark's eyes flutter shut. his jaw tenses, tossing his head back against the headboard.
"god," he breathes, the sound low and guttural, like the air's been vacuumed from his lungs.
you smirk a little to yourself, tucking the moment away in your memory.
your hand moves again, slow and steady, watching his every reaction. you watch the way his chest rises and falls a little faster now, and the way his brows scrunch together while his lips part with a groan when you twist your wrist just the right way.
"feel good?" you ask.
clark's eyes flutter open, glassy and dark with heat. "yeah," he rasps. "feels... feels great."
you beam at his words, pride filling your chest.
you shift lower on the bed, settling between his legs and placing a hand on his thigh for support. his breath catches when he realizes where this is going and you don't give him a chance to overthink it.
you run your tongue along the underside of his cock, slow and deliberate. he lets out a sound that's part groan and part whimper, hips twitching up instinctively.
he moans your name softly, pressing the back of his head harder against the headboard. part of you wishes you could take a picture.
you hum around the thick head of him as you take him into your mouth, swirling your tongue and easing forward until you feel the weight of him on your tongue, nearly overwhelming in girth. his hands twitch at his sides before one reluctantly moves up to your hair.
clark doesn't push. doesn't guide. he just holds, like he needs something to ground him.
you set a rhythm, bobbing your head and stroking him with one hand what you can't take. you relish in the way his moans grow louder, more broken, a sound you want etched into your mind forever.
"sweetheart," he calls, voice tense with strain. "you have to wait– i'm–"
you glance up at him, eyes wide and pupils blown, trying to read his expression.
"you're going to make me cum," he warns, voice cracking.
why does he say that like it's such a bad thing?
you double-down, sucking harder in response, flattening your tongue along the underside of his cock again, and that's it.
clark groans, loud and low and helpless, as he comes, hips bucking once before he stills them. his hand fists your hair while the other attempts to cover his mouth as if he's afraid of waking the whole building (too late, you think).
you ease off him slowly when his thigh trembles beneath your hand, lifting your head up and wiping your mouth with the back of your hand as you look up at him.
he looks completely and utterly wrecked. his hair is mussed, his skin is flushed pink and damp with sweat. his eyes are still dazed, slowly blinking at you as he comes down from his high. he looks... so pretty.
"jesus," he pants softly. "you really didn't have to do that."
"i know," you murmur with a small smile, crawling up his body until you're in front of his face. "i wanted to."
and then he smiles at you, a dazed one that sucks the breath from your lungs that you cant help but lean in to kiss him. he reaches up to cradle your jaw, uncaring at the fact that he can taste himself on you. his other hand drifts to your waist, pulling you closer and against him.
your tongues meet each other's, gliding together in almost a lazy manner. his kiss is languid, almost reverent, like he's trying to memorize the inside of your mouth.
you sigh into it, boneless and content as your body arches into his, bare chests pressing against each other's.
his hand drifts to your hip, toying with the hem of your shorts. "can't believe these are still on," he murmurs against your lips.
"you're the one who fingered me without taking them off first," you remind him with a chuckle.
"mm, my fault," he muses, beginning to tug down the material. you let him, allowing him to slide down your shorts until they're low enough for you to kick off and off the bed. "and these?" he asks, fingers playing with the lacy hem of your cotton panties.
you pull your head back slightly, eyes darting between his. "you want to?" you ask softly.
he swallows as he looks at your face in the dim light, just as flushed as his. "if you want," he answers, fingers still idly pinching the lacy fabric between his fingers.
you nod once with certainty. "yeah," you answer in a breath. "i do."
clark leans in to kiss you again, hands gripping your waist to flip you and ease you onto your back. he pulls away, his hands skimming your sides as he hooks his thumbs into the waistband of your underwear. his eyes meet yours once more, another silent check.
you lift your hips up in answer.
he slides your panties, soiled from your first orgasm, down slowly, tossing them aside into the growing pile on the floor.
you let him pull your thighs apart, exposing your core to the air and his gaze.
"you're so..." he trails off, but he doesn't finish, like the words fail him.
you look up at him, curious despite feeling so vulnerable before him. "so what?"
he smiles softly as if he's amazed. "just... beautiful."
your breath hitches at his words. it's so clark for him to say; it's so earnest and devastating at the same time, it makes your heart stutter in your chest.
he takes another glance down at your pussy before he snaps out of it, scooting away to reach for something on the floor. "i think i've got a condom in my wallet," he murmurs, a little hurried.
you choose not to dwell on wondering how often clark gets propositioned with sex to regularly carry a condom in his wallet.
it's clark after all.
any woman would be lucky to be with him.
you stop him, your voice calling out, "i've got a box somewhere in my nightstand."
the look on his face as he turns to look at you is boyishly flustered and adorable. you watch him crawl back over to you, hovering over you as he reaches in your nightstand drawer and retrieves a foil packet.
clark kneels up on the bed, leaning back against the back of his calves and carefully opens the packet. he rolls it on his hardened cock and you swear your brain circuits watching him do something so mundane and yet so intimate.
is this how you usually reacted to a date rolling on a condom?
then, he's hovering over you and his hand moves between you both, wrapping around himself and dragging the head of his cock slowly throughout your folds, gathering slick.
you whimper softly, hips twitching instinctively.
"you're sure about this?" he asks through gritted teeth, like he's not pressing his tip against your entrance, his restrain a hairline away from snapping. his glasses are already fogged and you hate to admit to yourself that it's one of the hottest things you've ever seen.
"yeah," you nod, letting out a breath.
he nods back at you, maybe to himself, before pushing inside you.
you cry out softly at the invasion, the head of his cock stretching your walls as he sinks into you. your hands scramble to find something, anything, to hold on to. they end up gripping his shoulders, nails digging into his warm skin as your breath stutters.
clark is big. thick. huge as he fills you in a way that feels overwhelming yet perfect at the same time.
"'s tight," he rasps, staying still as your walls flutter around the two inches he has inside you. "'m sorry."
"don't apologize," you pant, your eyes fluttering. of course he's apologizing for being too big. "i can take it."
he groans at your words, unable to resist pushing deeper inside you, another inch entering your tight walls. "sweetheart, y'sure? i don't have to go in all the way–"
how sweet.
"please," you whine, legs wrapping around his waist and pulling his hips closer to you, not letting him pull out.
he grunts at your eagerness as you urge him in closer, deeper as he sinks another inch into you, the stretch burning just enough to make your toes curl.
"fuck," he breathes, like the sound is punched from his lungs. is this the first time you've ever heard him swear? you think stars form your pupils just because he sounds so pretty when he curses.
you feel so full, so deliciously and impossibly full and yet you still want more, knowing there's a little more of him to go. you babbles something along the lines of 'more' and 'please' and who is clark kent but the man who'd grant your every wish?
with one final roll of his hips, he bottoms out, cock fully seated inside you. he lets out a low groan, feeling his pelvis press against your slick fold. the breath in your throat hitches at the pressure, the fullness you feel.
for a moment, the two of you stay sill like that, bodies locked together and foreheads touching. clark removes a hand from your hips to gently brush your jaw with the pad of his thumb.
"you okay?" he murmurs, voice so soft it makes your chest ache.
you nod, nails pressing into his back, but your grip loosens slightly. "yeah," you manage to say, a little breathless. "just... give me a second."
clark kisses your cheek, then your temple. "take all the time you need."
and so you do. you catch your breath. you adjust, the dull ache between your legs slowly becoming one of pleasure. you give him a nod, tilting your hips, silently inviting him to move and he takes the cue.
he starts the thrust, slowly at first but it's deep. so deep. every movement is unhurried and almost reverent. his gaze remain on you, maintaining an intense eye contact through every thrust, his lips parted as soft groans leave his lips.
"i can feel you everywhere," you whisper, half-dazed. "you're everywhere."
his pace stutters for a beat at your words. he lifts his head to look at you, to really look at them. you think you see a flicker of something raw in his gaze but you can't be sure.
he leans down to kiss you and it's messy, deep, and needy, while his hips roll into yours with a growing urgency. his hips pick up their pace, moving harder and faster now, each thurst enough to make your vision blur with pleasure.
you clutch his back tighter as the coil in your belly gets tighter. your walls flutter wildly around him, desperate for release.
"sweetheart," clark pants, his voice ragged. "i'm so close."
you nod, voice barely a whisper, "me, too."
clark buries his face in the crook of your neck, breath stuttering as his body tenses. you feel him twitch inside you, his release crashing through you like a tidal wave, your own orgasm ripping through your core in response.
you cling to each other as your breathing slows, skin slick with sweat and hearts pounding in your chests. clark stays inside you for a moment, catching his breath, and you’re both too dazed to say anything.
then he presses a kiss to your forehead.
and that’s when you know.
you’re fucked.
totally, completely, emotionally fucked.
the next morning, you blink awake to an empty bed.
the sheets are cold and tangled where he was only hours ago. the faint scent of his cologne lingers, but the warmth is gone – vanished with him.
your hand instinctively reaches out, only to find the space beside you painfully vacant. no familiar weight. no slow morning breath against your skin.
you sit up slowly, heart hammering in your chest, eyes scanning the room. you notice the faint imprint on the mattress where he had lain, and your hands brushes over the cold sheets.
his clothes are missing too. no sign he'd ever been there.
you swallow the lump in your throat, running a hang through your messy hair and check the clock on your nightstand: 7:02 A.M.
how could he just... leave? no goodbye?
your mind races but you push down the swirl of panic, reminding yourself: no strings. no feelings.
you shake your head bitterly.
but the ache in your chest says another story.
your morning routine is quiet, your mind muddled with the memories of the night prior: the way clark's hands skimmed your skin, leaving goosebumps in their wake, the way his mouth moved so smoothly against yours, the way he practically engraved himself in your gummy walls.
you expected some form of conversation when you woke up that morning. then again, what would you even say? good job, clark! maybe too good of a job haha... ha.
maybe not.
but still!
a text. a note. something.
you keep glancing at your phone like it'll buzz with a text from him. but your screen stays blank. almost mockingly silent.
it was supposed to be uncomplicated. it was to just be physical. fun, even. and that's all it was – right? so why does it feel like he permanently carved himself into you and then disappeared, making you feel hollow?
you try not to spiral, really. but it's hard when your body still aches from how he held you, how he was inside you. you continue relaying the night like a film reel with a stuck stop button.
within an hour, you arrive at the daily planet still shaken, though you pat yourself on the back for looking otherwise; your hair is neatly done, lip gloss on and blazer crisp over your shoulders. your stomach is still in knots but you're hoping the distraction of news will take your mind off it.
you half expect clark to avoid you completely, given how he left your apartment. instead, he's there, at his desk (early for once) and as chipper as ever.
"morning," he greets, offering that charming grin that usually makes your chest warm. today, it makes you want to scream.
you manage a polite smile, your throat dry. "morning."
he holds up a to-go tray, offering you the contents in it. "got your usual. extra shot of espresso. thought you might need it – perry's been on edge all morning."
your fingers wrap around the warm cup, but your heart twists at the casual way he says it. thought you might need it. not because of perry, but maybe because he spent the night buried inside you.
he moves on, heading over to jimmy's desk to talk about the recent superman sighting.
apparently there'd been some alien creature on the clinton bridge – some grotesque, hulking thing with four arms and acidic spit, according to eyewitnesses. superman had swooped in early enough before any casualties were made, defeating the alien. you suspect clark is the key reporter on the case, given his connection to the superhero.
still, since when did clark go to jimmy first about stories?
you stare down at the coffee in your cup as if it'd give you an answer.
the morning drones on. perry barks headlines across the office, jimmy's frantically pacing the tiled floors while chewing a pen cap and clark... clark is perfectly normal. he's chatting with interns, bouncing article ideas off perry, tossing you a smile when he passes your desk.
around noon, you're about to get up for lunch when he beats you to it, strolling over with a brown paper bag and a casual, "hey, got you that turkey pesto you like. hope that's okay."
you blink at him, startles as you crane your neck up to look at him. "oh. yeah. thanks." you glance toward the break room. "are you...?"
"nah," he cuts in, shaking his head. "swamped with edits. gonna eat while i finish the luthor piece."
and just like that, without waiting for you to respond, he's gone.
you try to not let it bother you. you try to convince yourself that this is how it was always supposed to be. always supposed to be before your big mouth ruined it.
but all you can think about is how warm he was in your bed. how soft his eyes were in the dark. how different he felt.
and how different everything is now.
what you don't see is the way clark watches you from his desk. how he catches every flicker of confusion on your face, every little sigh when you assume no one's listening.
the weekend creeps by in slow and dragged hours.
with no deadlines hanging over your head (no perry yelling in your ear about headlines), nothing to dive into, nothing to keep your brain from looping over every moment of that night – the silence is so loud.
you try to distract yourself. you do laundry, you achieve some cleaning, all while some old rom-com plays in the background – which just makes matters worse because even that couple seemed to check in on each other the morning after.
clark hadn't.
by sunday evening, you're mostly numb to it. not okay, but dulled around the edges. detached.
if clark could carry on so easily, so seamlessly (as if sleeping with your best friend was no big deal), then so could you. you'd have to.
monday rolls in with a dreary drizzle and a headache you can't shake, despite the two aspirin you'd taken already. when you step into the planet, clark is already at his desk, tapping away at his keyboard with the same focused expression he always wears.
he looks up when you enter, lifts a hand in greeting and gives one of his clark boyish smiles. "hey," he says, like nothing is different. "usual on your desk."
you blink. "thanks," you murmur.
the coffee cup is still warm when you pick it up. the lid has your name scribbled on it in his handwriting – something he does when he picks up coffee for everyone else in order to remember whose is who. your lid was always different – special – though. a smiley face is scrawled beside your name, just like always.
now, the smile seems like it's mocking you.
you shuffle into the morning meeting and take the seat farthest from him. clark barely notices. he doesn't even look at you.
at least not that you can tell.
lunchtime comes and goes. he stops by your desk with a neatly packed container of leftovers. "made extra this weekend. figured you wouldn't say no to pasta."
you look up at him, then the container in his hand. you can smell it from here. you love his cooking and you can feel your stomach rumble at the sight of it.
"thanks, but i brought mine." you give him a pressed smile, pulling out your own container from home. it's got a sad excuse of a sandwich in there but still, you're too proud to accept his.
you see something flicker across his face, so subtle and brief you're not sure if it was ever there at all, but he recovers fast. "oh. okay. cool." clark pats your desk softly before walking away.
by wednesday, your strategy of coping has been reduced to silence and sidestepping. an absolute shutdown.
you haven't looked clark in the eye once.
not really.
you pretend he's not there, except when you have to acknowledge him. and when you do, you do it with the same kind of politeness you'd give a coworker you don't really know.
you've been packing your own lunch consistently now, every day. it's not because you're being petty, but because you can't keep accepting his gracious offers.
today, he hovers by your desk with a paper bag and a hopeful smile. "brought you that chicken teriyaki over rice you like," he says. "figured you might not have had time–"
"i packed something," you cut in, before he can finish. you plaster a polite smile on your face. "but thank you."
you don't wait for his reply, turning back to your computer and after a moment too long, he sets the bag down and walks off.
you don't touch it.
today 7:15 P.M.
and that leads you to where you are now, scrolling on tinder in hopes – desperate hopes – for something, anything to distract you from your mood.
but there's a knock at the door.
you thought, no, you hoped clark would skip movie night. you really did. after days of keeping your head down, of ducking out of rooms the moment he walked in, of dodging any and every attempt at closeness, you figured he'd get the hint.
you freeze on the couch, bowl of half-eaten cereal in your lap and an oversized hoodie swallowing you whole, phone in the other hand, screen still showing off a man’s dating profile. you consider ignoring the door. you could pretend you're asleep, or not home, or–
"hey," clark calls from the other side of the door, his tone gentle. "i brought thai. they were out of the dumplings you like so i got extra spring rolls."
your stomach flips.
you set the bowl down on the coffee table, standing from your seat and slowly pad over to the door, hesitating for a moment before you open the door.
there he is.
normal as anything. stupidly handsome in a soft blue henley and worn jeans, his hair a little messy from the breeze. he holds up the takeout bag with a hopeful little smile.
you can't believe it took you sleeping with him to realize just how handsome clark kent is.
"movie night," he says simply, raising the bag for emphasis.
you blink, mouth opening and then shutting.
"i'm... not really feeling up to it tonight," you say, pulling the sleeves of your hoodie over your hands. "sorry. kinda under the weather."
it's a decent lie. passable. you even sniff for good measure, eyes avoiding his.
clark doesn't say anything right away.
behind his glasses, his gaze dips over you, scanning the faintest tension in your shoulder, the steadiness of your pulse, the evenness of your breath, the warmth of your skin. they're all signs that your body is just fine. signs that you're lying.
he doesn't call you out on it. he just lets a slow nod carry his chin. "okay..." he murmurs quietly, frowning. he hands you the bag of takeout anyway. "you can text me if you need anything, alright?"
you nod and start the shut the door.
he turns to leave, letting the door shut behind him and you move to place the bag on the coffee table.
but then clark stops. you don't even hear his footsteps on the stairs before they pause and double back to your door. the knock is softer this time.
you open the door again, brows furrowed in confusion.
clark stands before you, his own brows knitted. "did i... do something wrong?" he asks, his voice careful.
you freeze.
"what?"
"you've been avoiding me," he reveals gently. "not just today. all week."
your mouth is dry and it takes a second for you to swallow. "i've just been busy. tired," you answer weakly.
clark exhales through his noise, eyes narrowing slightly. he doesn't buy it. you can feel him not buying it. the air between you tenses but he still doesn't push you.
you sigh and rub your hand over your forehead in attempt to buy time and think of some excuse for your detached behavior that doesn't make you seem pathetic.
"i just needed space," you say finally, eyes still averted.
clark shifts his weight. "so i did do something."
"no!" you manage, too fast. too loud. then softer, you force calm into your tone. "no. you didn't... not really."
clark waits. patient. unmoving.
the silence is long enough that your embarrassment starts to rise hot in your cheeks. you should shut the door. thank him for the food. tell him you'll see him at work tomorrow and crawl back into the shell you've spent the last week building around yourself.
but you don't.
you lean your shoulder against the doorframe, staring off to the side.
"i just thought it'd feel different," you admit, voice so quiet and just above a whisper, you're unsure if he hears it.
clark's brow creases. "different?"
"afterward," you clarify. "i thought..." you sigh. "i don't know what i thought." your words trail off and clark doesn't rush you to elaborate.
he waits.
"i guess i didn't expect you to act so normal," you finally settle on. "and then i didn't expect me to care so much that you acted so normal."
clark's eyes darken, and something in his jaw tightens. "i wasn't trying to brush you off."
"you didn't," you say quickly. "that's the worst part, clark. you didn't do anything wrong. you were just... being you. sweet and thoughtful and friendly and perfect."
with a calm tone, he murmurs, "well, apparently not if you're not okay."
you finally meet his gaze, though your head remains slightly tilted downward, looking up at him through your lashes.
"i was the one who said it'd just be physical. i made a whole thing of it. i joked about it. and then i–" you catch yourself. the words tremble on your tongue, about to slip.
clark doesn't look away, his gaze settled heavily on you. "you what?"
you hesitate, swallowing the lump in your throat.
"i caught feelings," you admit, the confession dragging out of you like you're wincing. "i said no strings but i lied. not on purpose, but... i did."
a beat passes.
you avert your gaze, too afraid to see his expression.
here's where your mouth moves before your brain can compute, attempting to fill in the excruciating silence.
"i didn't expect to feel this way," you say, quieter now. "but i do. and i just... i don't know how to be your friend and pretend like that night didn't change anything for me. i... i'm just sorry."
clark's eyes search your face, his face unreadable for long second.
then, he finally says your name. and the way he says it is so soft, so full of emotion, it feels like a kiss. he takes a step closer to you, crossing the threshold into your apartment.
"i didn't want to leave that morning," he says suddenly, voice low. "i had to."
that makes your head shoot up. you blink, head shaking slightly. "had to?" you echo.
his eyes flicker, almost like he regrets saying it, but he nods. "there was something... urgent. i should've left a note. i thought i could just... make it up to you. you know, the coffee, lunch, the usual clark stuff."
"i didn't know how to act," he continues, his head tilting down as he looks at you. "i didn't want to assume what that night meant to you since you brought it up in the first place... hell, i even asked steve about hookup culture and what was the appropriate thing to–"
"clark." you snap your head up to meet his eyes with incredulity. "you asked steve? for dating advice?"
clark huffs, shaking his head. "no, not dating advice. hookup advice," he corrects, matter-of-fact-ly.
"oh my god," you mumble to yourself. "you asked steve, the guy who has a horrible track record when it comes to woman for advice."
"well, i couldn't ask jimmy. he'd know it was about you and then i'd never hear the end of it."
you blink, stunned, your mouth opening slightly before you let out a short, surprised laugh. "you are so bad at this."
clark shrugs sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck. "yeah, well. sue me for trying to respect your boundaries while quietly losing my mind."
you're taken aback. "you were losing your mind?"
his hand drops, and he takes another step closer to you. "you seriously can't believe i just walked away from that night and felt nothing," he murmurs, voice quiet and earnest. "i've been thinking about you nonstop. i couldn't be around you for more than a few minutes because every time i see you i..." he trails off, gulping.
"you what?" you ask softly, your breath halting.
"every time i see you, i want to touch you," he says, voice low, almost like he's confessing a sin. "i want to pull you into the nearest room and kiss you. touch you. hold you. have you."
your breath hitches in your throat.
clark takes another step forward, so close now you have to tilt your chin to meet his eyes. "and it's not just physical. i think about how you laugh when you're half-asleep. how you hum when you're focused. i think about things i shouldn't know after one night."
you swallow hard, your throat suddenly dry. "clark..."
"let me be clear," he says quickly. "i do feel the same. maybe – probably more."
you glance up at him, noting the sincerity in his expression, the barely restrained tension in his frame.
"i'm not going to pretend it was just sex," he says. "not when every second of it felt like something i didn't want to end. not when i still think about the way you sounded – how you looked under me."
your breath stutters, legs nearly giving out at the memory alone.
his voice dips even lower, if that's possible. "not when i've had to physically stop myself from calling you every night since, just to hear your voice while i–" he cuts himself off, swallowing the words.
your stomach drops and a familiar heat grows. "while you what?"
"i think you know."
"every night?" you ask, your voice a small murmur.
he exhales sharply, face flushing but his eyes are still as darkened as ever. "yeah."
your chest tightens at the confession. there's a beat of silence where the air between you feels heavier than ever, thick with things you never thought he'd say. never thought he felt.
"i tried to respect the line you drew," he says softly, almost apologetically. "but i crossed it the second i touched you and i haven't been able to stop wanting you since."
your heart pounds in your ears. you want to speak, say something, but your throat is dry and your mind is racing too fast to catch a single coherent thought.
so you choose to act instead.
you surge up, gripping the collar of his henley, and kiss him.
it's clumsy at first, all heat and urgency and too many feelings shoved into the kiss. his hands immediately find your waist, anchoring you as your fingers tangle in his shirt, wrinkling the blue material between your fingertips. you're already tugging at him. tugging him further into your apartment – he takes the hint and kicks the door behind him.
he groans into your mouth when your hands slide uo under his shirt, palms brushing over warm skin. his muscles twitch beneath your touch, like he's been waiting for this.
he lifts you effortlessly – god, you missed his strength – and your legs wrap around his waist like it's second nature. your back meets the wall with a soft thud, and his mouth never leaves your. it's greedy, relentless. it's like he's making up for lost time. granted, he is.
his hands roam with a desperate urgency, memorizing every curve and contour of you with free reign. the heat between you is palpable, a built up tension bursting at the seams. you cling to him, breath hitching as his lips trail down your jaw to your neck, nipping softly.
"you don't know how much i've missed this," he murmur against your skin, voice rough with need.
you shiver, fingers threading into his hair as he kisses lower, just beneath your ear, along the line of your throat. his breath fans hot against your skin. you're practically melting into him, undone by the weight and warmth of his body.
"i thought about you every night," he confesses, his pressing forward, still hoisting you up against the wall, making your breath hitch. all the while he presses open mouthed kisses to your skin. "your laugh." kiss. "your face." kiss. "your body." kiss.
you whimper, the memory of it rushing back all at once. you feel yourself clench around nothing, the heat in your belly pooling.
the words are stuck in your throat. you're too embarrassed to admit what he already seems to know: it was supposed to be just a hookup and you thought you could keep your heart out of it. but you failed. spectacularly.
so, instead, you lean in, teeth catching his bottom lip in a kiss that's filthy. needy. his groan rumbles against your chest, hand squeezing at the flesh beneath your thighs as he carries you, sliding up to your ass.
"i need you," you whisper finally.
his eyes darken at your words. "you have me," he rasps, and then his mouth is back on yours.
he carries you with effortless strength toward the bedroom, only breaking the kiss to make sure he's not bumping into anything in your hallway. your legs still stay locked around him, arms around his shoulders, fingers still tangled in his hair like you're afraid this moment isn't real. like he actually isn't here.
when his knees hit the edge of the side of your bed, he lowers you onto the mattress with a care that contradicts the heat in his gaze.
"tell me to stop," he murmurs against your lips, his forehead brushing nose, voice barely holding back restraint. "and i will."
you shake your head. "please don't."
and that's his green light.
his mouth is back on yours as his hands trail down your body. they slide along the curve of your waist, the dip of your hips until they find the hem of your hoodie. you easily slip out of it as he helps pull it over your head, tossing it aside. he pulls away for a moment glancing down at the shirt your wearing.
"what?" your question cuts through the tense air.
"you look better in my shirts," he murmurs, pinching the material between his fingertips.
you smile – grin, really – finding amusement in his words. "you should give me some more then," you answer, arms hooking around his neck. he lets you pull him in, smiling against your mouth as you attempt to press another kiss.
his hands grow more eager, tugging the shirt up and over your head in one swift motion.
he lets out a sigh, eyes raking over your chest with reverence and hunger all tangled together. his large hands cup you through your bralette, thumbs brushing over the lace.
you whimper beneath him, fingers tugging at his henley until he stands over you, yanks it over his head. that was hot.
you'd forgotten just how solid he was. all broad chest, sculpted arms. smooth skin over muscle. the kind of body that made you ache.
your hands glide over his chest, fingertips trailing down the dip of his sternum to the line of his abs. his muscles twitch under your touch, and then he's lowering again, mouth hot and wet against the swell of your breast as he works your bra off.
he mouths at you, tongue flicking and teeth scraping enough to make you gasp, "clark." your lashes flutter, fingers reaching to tangle in his curls. one of his hands stay at your chest while the other slips between your thighs, cupping you through your shorts, your heat unmistakable.
he groans, like it hurts. "oh my," he breathes, pressing his forehead between the valley of your breasts for a moment, like he's taking a moment to pull himself together. but then his fingers are moving again, sliding beneath the waistband of your shorts and underwear in one slow motion. he drags them down legs, eyes never leaving your center.
you're wet. he sees it. you feel it.
"sweetheart," he murmurs like a prayer.
that damn pet name.
he knows you like it, he can tell by the way it makes your heart stutter in your chest. clark makes a mental note to continuing calling you it.
then he sinks to his knees on your floor between your spread legs, your calves dangling off the edge of your bed. his hands grip your thighs, thumbs brushing reverently along the inside, like he's committing this to memory.
you're also committing the sight to memory. despite the obsceneness of clark kent kneeling between your les, there's still something so pure in his face: the adoration shining in his ocean eyes behind those glasses.
he presses a kiss to the inside of your knee, then higher and higher.
you suck in a breath when his lips ghost over the skin of your inner thigh and his glasses nudge you slightly. it unintentionally reminds you that it's him, still him, still the clark who holds open doors open and rambles about his dorky interests.
except now his hands are parting your thighs further, spreading you open.
"d'you wanna take off your glasses?" you murmur softly, swallowing thick.
he's quick – almost too quick – to shake his head. "mn-hm, wanna see you clearly," he answers, not revealing the real reason. he exhales shakily, seeing you up closes and the sound alone makes your core throb.
"so, so pretty," he says, almost to himself. he drags his thumbs along your folds, gentle at first. "
you drape your arm over your eyes, too flustered to answer and he smile – you can hear it in his voice, "don't hide from me now."
before you have a chance to answer, his mouth on you.
you gasp as his tongue licks a slow, careful stripe through your slick. when you whimper, hips shifting, his hands tighten on your thighs to hold you steady.
he eats you like he's starving, like you're the only thing he's allowed himself to have after months of being denied. his tongue flicks, circles, presses just right against you and he groans every time your body jerks against his face.
"been wanting to do this," he grumbles against your clit, pressing a chaste kiss to the sensitive bundle of nerves. "thought about it for days."
you gasp, back arching when his tongue plunges into your center, nose rubbing between your folds.
"clark," you whine, nails digging into his scalp as you push him closer to you, keening at the sheer pleasure from his nose and tongue. you don't know how long he's pressed to you like that but you're sure it's longer than a person can be before they need air.
he finally pulls away. "dunno why i didn't last week," he huffs to himself, as if he's scolding himself, breathing a puff against your twitching core, making your walls flutter.
he dives back in. he works you open with patience and purpose, like he wants to unravel you right here, right now, just with his mouth.
and you do start to unravel, your hips rolling and thighs tensing around his shoulders, his name slipping past your lips in broken gasps. you're close.
so, so close.
he pulls back.
your protest is immediate, a whimpering sound of frustration leaving your lips, but he's already climbing up over you, kissing your jaw, your cheek, your lips and murmuring softly, "i know, sweetheart."
you eagerly reach between your bodies, palming his through his jeans. he's already hard, straining, almost painfully so, and the sound he makes is low and guttural.
"clark," you pant, squeezing him through his jeans.
"yeah," he hisses, sucking his lower lip between his teeth. "yeah." he repeats with a nod, reaching down to unbutton his jeans with one hand, the other braced beside your head. you hear the rasp of the zipper being pulled down and then he's fumbling to shove them down just enough to kick off. his boxers follow and you can feel the weight of him slap against your thigh.
"normally, i'd want you to cum before i get inside you," he murmurs through a breath, swallowing hard. "but i just can't wait."
"it's okay," you say quickly, looking into his eyes, heat filling your gaze.
he glances around, reaching for your nightstand drawer and you stop him, grabbing his wrist.
with furrowed brows, he turns to look at you.
"i'm on the pill." you whisper, "and i promise i'm clean."
clark's jaw ticks and then he nods, only once, before you feel the deliberate roll of his hips as he lines himself up.
"you sure?" he asks, voice rough like gravel, like he's barely holding himself back.
you roll your hips back against him, nodding with a soft croon as the head of his cock glides between your slick folds. "y-yes," you breathe out.
"i'll have to go slow because..." he starts.
"–you're huge," you answer for him, a ghost of a smile on your face.
his face flushes. "i was going to say i had little time to properly prep you but i guess that also works."
you giggle, the sound a little breathless, a little wrecked as you lay plaint beneath him as he stands before you. "i mean... both are true."
clark huffs a quiet laugh through his nose but there's a brewing darkness in his eyes. "okay, sweetheart," he murmurs, lowering his voice. "deep breath."
you inhale and then he starts to push inside. the head of him prods against your velvet walls, barely squeezing through your entrance. the stretch is instant. it's hot, thick, overwhelming, just like you remember it but it's oh, so different now without the barriers of latex between you. you feel him more than ever, the bare skin of his cock sliding and rubbing against your walls.
"f-fuck," you whisper, fingers clutching the sheets.
"i know, i know," he pants, lifting the underside of your thighs up to anchor him as he struggles not to shove himself in in one push. "god, you're–" the glasses on his nose, fog up as he pants and slowly sinks another inch into you.
"so good," you whisper, your words a little slurred as you blink ip at him.
clark's jaw is clenched, tendons straining in his neck as he watches your face with utmost focus. it's like he's mapping your pleasure in real time.
"you're doing so good, sweetheart," he croons, squeezing the fat of your thighs. "so tight, warm... christ–"
you whimper, overwhelmed by the stretch and the praise. the way he's only barely in but you already feel full.
it takes a while for him to push himself in, whispering praises and sweet words your way all the while.
then, finally, he bottoms out.
a shaky sound spills from your lips as he buries himself to the hilt, pressing against a spot inside you that has you cumming in seconds without warning.
clark feels your walls spasm around him and he groans, throwing his head back. "shit, baby," he rasps, voice trembling. (mentally, you add another tick to how many times you've made clark swear). "did you just–?"
you nod, dazed, still catching your breath, your whole body twitching from the aftershocks as he stays buried inside you. "i... i didn't mean to," you mumble, blinking up at him, lashes wet.
his smile is crooked and fond as he looks down at you, pupils blown wide. "oh, that's alright sweetheart," he says, leaning down to press a kiss to your temple. "you okay?"
you hum, looping your arm around his shoulders, keeping him close. your legs wrap around his waist, making his arms move from holding your thighs up to brace beside either side of your body. "better than okay."
he grunts at your closeness, rolling his hips just a fraction. "sweetheart, you're squeezing me s'tight."
"sorry," you whimper, attempting to unclench around him. "y'can move," you add softly.
his eyes soften as he looks down at you. "you're not overstimulated?" he asks.
you must have the kindest man inside you right now.
"i need you more than that," you answer, looking into his eyes with determination.
he sucks in a breath at that, experimentally bringing his hips back slightly before pushing back in. your walls are slick with your orgasm so it becomes easier for him to slide between your walls. at your soft moan and fluttering lashes, he starts to move.
clark pulls out a few inches and thrusts back in with a slow, deliberate snap of his hips. you gasp, nails digging into his back and he hisses softly.
the rhythm he sets is measured and patient, but every stroke presses right against that devastating spot inside you that made you fall apart the first time. he doesn't look away from your face, like every flutter of your lashes, every gasp and tremble is something sacred.
"you feed so good, sweetheart," he mumbles, dipping his head to kiss along your jaw. "could stay here all night. buried inside you. just like this."
you shudder from beneath him, his words sending another wave of heart in your belly. "you can," you murmur.
"yeah, you'd let me?" he grunts against your neck, needing the confirmation between every slow roll of his hips. his glasses press against your cheek to the point you're worried they might snap.
"mhm, we could'a been doing this every night since last week," you whimper, squealing when he deliberately snaps his hips against yours out of rhythm.
"then, i guess i have to make up for lost time," he murmurs against your skin, picking up his pace.
you cry out, legs tightening around his waist as he begins to fuck you harder. it's still tender but it's deeper now. it's more insistent, like he's trying to imprint himself inside you (you think he already has from the week prior).
“fuck,” you breathe, wrapping your legs tighter around his waist, anchoring him to you. “clark—”
he groans at the sound of his name, mouth trailing hot, open-mouthed kisses along your throat. “say it again,” he pants. “say my name like that.”
“clark,” you whisper, and he gives a sharp thrust in return that has your back arching, the pleasure overwhelming. you whine when he pulls his torso away from you, leaving your hands to grip the sheets beside you instead.
his fingers curl under your knees, pressing them up toward your chest to angle you open for him. the new angle has him hitting that spot with merciless precision, and your moans dissolve into something breathless and high-pitched.
“look at me,” he murmurs, brushing your hair from your face with a tenderness that contrasts how deep he’s fucking you. “wanna see your eyes when I make you cum again.”
your eyes flutter open, teary and half-lidded, and the moment they lock with his, noticing his blue eyes blown behind his fogged-up glasses, you shatter.
your walls clench around him, your cry muffled by the way he kisses you through your orgasm. it's the kind of kiss that feels like everything. it feels like home.
“that’s it,” he whispers against your lips. “good girl. you’re perfect. perfect.”
your body trembles under him, but he doesn't stop. not yet. he keeps thrusting through your aftershocks, voice low and ragged. “can I cum inside, sweetheart? please... need to feel it. need to feel you.”
you nod, dazed and desperate. “please, clark. want it.”
with a strangled groan, he pushes deep one final time, hips stuttering as he spills white ropes of cum inside you. he holds you tight, face buried in the crook of your neck, catching his breath.
you don’t say anything for a while, your limbs heavy and boneless as his weight settles over you. clark’s still inside, still pulsing faintly, and your body feels like it’s humming, buzzing with the aftershocks. he carefully pulls your legs back down from your chest, letting them dangle off the bed again.
"you okay?" he asks softly.
you nod, a dazed smile on your face as you look up at him. "yeah."
he cups your jaw, thumb caressing your flushed skin softly. "sorry if i went too hard at the end," he murmurs.
"it's okay," you quickly reassure him, turning your cheek to kiss the palm of his hand.
clark smiles at the gesture, basking in the warmth of you and being inside you. "can i stay over?" he asks, breaking the silence that falls between you.
the way your eyes narrow makes his heart stutter in his chest, second guessing everything that just happened prior. but then you speak.
"are you going to leave in the morning like i was some dirty mistress?" you ask, tone mostly teasing.
his shoulders relax and he laughs through his nose, leaning down to kiss your cheek. "sweetheart, i'm sorry," he apologizes, smiling against your skin. "i swear it was urgent. i didn't mean to do a walk-of-shame on you."
"mm, yeah okay," you hum along as if you don't believe him.
he pulls back to look down at you. "i'll spend the rest of forever apologizing to you for it," he promises.
"you better."
sure, tonight he won't tell you the real reason he left in a scramble and without a word that morning was because of the alien monster wreaking havoc on the clinton bridge that he had to deal with as his alien superhero counterpart, but until then, clark will do whatever it takes to make it up to you.
for now, he'll be right here and by your side until morning light.
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summary: what was supposed to be a gentle evening exposes Clark’s deepest fear: that someone else could give you the life he can’t
warnings: 18+ smut, graphic depictions of sex, f oral receiving, p in v, porn with plot, needy! clark, clark is sad and just wants to make you feel good :(, insecurities, anxiety?
It wasn’t often that Clark made it home before you.
Most nights, you beat him there by hours, the space already warm. Your shoes by the door, the soft light from the kitchen, the sound of you moving around in clothes far more comfortable than those you’d worn to work.
He knew the routine by heart. You’d change the second you got in, slipping out of your work things and into something soft—fluffy socks, an old robe if it was cold, or, his personal weakness, one of his shirts that you found in the back of your wardrobe.
If he was being honest with himself, he’d started leaving them behind on purpose, just for the chance of coming home and finding you wrapped up in something that still smelled faintly like him.
Worth it, he could always buy more shirts.
Worth it every single time.
It wasn’t that he didn’t want to get home sooner. God, he did. Most days he was already thinking about you before he’d even finished his first coffee at the Planet. Wondering if you were thinking the same thing. Wondering what you were doing, if you’d eaten, if you’d remembered to take your coat when it got cold.
But articles ran long, deadlines moved, and sometimes the sound of something breaking three streets away would reach him through the windows before he even realised he was listening for it.
He hated that the world always seemed to need him most when you were waiting so patiently for him. Hated it even more because you never made him feel bad about it.
But the moment he finally walked through the door always made it worth it.
The hum of your voice from the kitchen, something soft playing through your speakers.
You said you liked to cook for him.
He’d offered a hundred times to pick something up on the way, to make up for his punctuality. To make it easier, faster, less work after your own long day, but you always waved him off like the suggestion was ridiculous.
You said it relaxed you. Said you liked knowing he was eating something you made.
Said it like it was the most normal thing in the world to take care of him like that.
He never quite knew what to do with all your kindness. The small things still caught him off guard, made the warmth creep up the back of his neck before he could stop it.
He wasn’t sure he’d ever stop feeling that way.
He wasn’t sure he wanted to.
Tonight, though, the flat was quiet when he opened the door.
Clark let himself in with the spare key you’d pressed into his hand months ago. The lock clicked softly behind him, and he closed the door gently.
It felt strange, walking into the empty space first. Everything looked the same.
Your books stacked unevenly on the shelf, the plants you swore you remembered to water—even the ones he secretly helped along when you forgot. Your mug from that morning in the sink.
All the usual things. All the proof that this was your place.
And still, without you in it, the space felt incomplete.
If this was how it felt when he got home first, he suddenly wished he’d made it home sooner a lot more often.
He shrugged off his suit jacket and folded it neatly over the back of the chair. You’d texted him a few hours earlier, telling him you were running late, promising you’d make it up to him when you got home.
He’d smiled at the message when he read it. You really didn’t have to make anything up to him. You never did. Just coming home was enough.
If anything, this just meant he had time to do something for you for a change.
Clark made his way over to the fridge, pulling the door open and leaning down slightly as he looked through the shelves, taking stock the way he’d seen you do a hundred times before.
He was careful about it; he didn’t want to use the wrong thing, didn’t want to mess up whatever plan you might’ve had for the week.
He reached for the container of leftovers first, then paused, putting it back exactly where he found it.
Absolutely not.
You’d probably pack that for lunch tomorrow, and he liked the idea of you walking in to the smell of something cooking a lot more than the sound of a microwave.
He shifted things around instead, scanning the drawers until he spotted what he was looking for—a few stray cloves of garlic tucked down at the back of the vegetable drawer, half a bunch of basil wrapped in a paper towel, a lone chilli pepper rolling slightly when he moved the onions.
That would work. That would work just fine.
You always said the simple ones were your favourite anyway.
He straightened up, already thinking it through. There’d be tomatoes in the cupboard. Pasta too, somewhere on the second shelf, the one you kept meaning to organise but never quite got around to.
Perfect. Simple.
Something warm for you to come home to.
And he knew he could make a darn good pasta.
It was one of the first things his ma had ever taught him, standing beside her in the kitchen back home, listening to her explain that good food didn’t have to be complicated, just made with care. He could still hear her voice sometimes when he cooked, telling him to taste as he went, to trust himself, and to always make enough for everyone at the table.
He liked to think she’d smile if she could see him now, standing in a kitchen that wasn’t hers, cooking for someone who had somehow become just as much home. He was pretty sure she’d tell him he’d done well for himself. Say she was proud he had someone at his table worth making dinner for.
He liked to think she’d say he picked right.
That he’d found someone good.
Someone she’d love too.
He set the garlic down on the counter and reached for the chopping board, rolling his sleeves up to his elbows without thinking. His eyes flicked to the clock on the wall to his left.
Plenty of time.
He let himself smile a little, picking up the knife. Might as well give you something good to come home to.
You always did the same for him.
Clark was stirring the sauce when he heard the front door open. The tomatoes had burst and cooked down just right, the garlic mellow, the basil already starting to sweeten the air. Another five minutes, maybe less, and it would be perfect.
“Clark?” You call out, tired. Soft, but still tired. “You in here?”
Right on time.
“In the kitchen!” he called back, setting the spoon down and stepping away from the stove. He wiped his hands on the dish towel slung over his shoulder, already turning toward the doorway before you even appeared.
He could hear you coming closer, the shuffle of your steps, the soft thud of your bag hitting the chair in the other room.
Your head peeked around the doorframe, and the second he saw the look on your face—apologetic, tired, a little sheepish, a small smile you wore when you thought you’d disappointed him—his chest tightened.
“Sorry I’m late,” you said, stepping into the kitchen.
He shook his head immediately, already moving toward you without thinking about it; the distance between you needed fixing as fast as possible.
“Hey, no—don’t do that,” he said with a soft smile. One hand coming up automatically to rest on your arms when you got close enough.
You don’t have to apologise to him. Not for anything out of your control.
You gave him that look again, like you still weren’t convinced.
“I said I’d be back earlier,” you murmured.
He let out a breath through his nose, shaking his head as he looked down at you, his thumb brushing absent-mindedly against your sleeve.
“Hey,” he said again, waiting until you actually looked up at him. “It’s okay. Really. You’re here now. That’s all I wanted.”
You nodded, then glanced past him toward the stove, nose twitching slightly as the smell hit you, and your eyes widened just a little.
“…Did you cook?”
He felt the back of his neck warm instantly, that bashful heat creeping up before he could stop it. He rubbed the side of his jaw with his thumb.
“Well… yeah,” he admitted. “You said you were gonna be late. Figured I could manage dinner for once.”
It’s the least he could do.
You stepped past him toward the stove before he could say anything else, leaning over the pot with a small sigh, breathing in the scent like it was the best thing you’d smelled all day.
“That smells amazing,” you groaned, glancing back at him over your shoulder with a grin.
He huffed out a quiet laugh.
“It’s pasta,” he shrugged humbly. “Kinda hard to mess up.”
You turned, still smiling, and before he could stop himself, he was already moving closer, drawn in by your grateful expression. The domesticity of the moment.
He needed to cook more often.
He closed the distance in two easy steps, one hand finding your waist on instinct, the other brushing down your arm as he leaned in and pressed his lips to yours in a familiar kiss.
You let out a sigh against his mouth, warm and tired and relieved, and it went straight through him.
It was ridiculous, the way one small sound from you could undo him like that.
Gosh, he missed you today.
He smiled against your mouth, one arm tightening around your waist as he lifted you, setting you up on the counter beside the stove as he’d done it a hundred times before.
“Careful,” he murmured, still smiling against your lips, one hand lingering a bit longer than it needed to, just to make sure you were steady.
Not that you ever weren’t. He just liked the excuse.
You let out a small giggle, bumping your knee lightly against his side.
“You’re in a good mood.”
How couldn’t he be?
He shrugged, glancing back at the pot before turning the heat down another notch.
“Got home early,” he said with a shrug. “Felt like my turn to do something for you.”
You gazed at him, smiling at his words.
“So you made dinner for me?”
He rubbed the back of his neck, proud but slightly embarrassed at the acknowledgement of his hard work.
He’d had strangers thank him before, whole crowds even, but nothing ever made him feel this awkwardly pleased the way you did when you looked at him like that.
“Well… yeah. Didn’t seem fair you always do it.”
“You’re trying to spoil me.”
He snorted softly under his breath.
“Pretty sure that’s my job.”
His favourite job.
You laughed at that, and he ducked his head again, turning and stirring the sauce just to give himself something to focus on.
“So,” he added, “What about you, huh? What’d you get up to today?”
You swung your feet lightly against the cabinet, completely relaxed.
Good.
“Nothing exciting,” you said. “Work, mostly. Had lunch with one of the new guys though.”
Clark’s hand paused for just a second.
“Yeah?” he said, keeping his voice easy. “New guy?”
You nodded.
“Yeah, Daniel. He started a few weeks ago. We ended up grabbing lunch together after a meeting.”
Daniel.
The name settling somewhere in the back of his mind, whether he wanted it to or not.
“…Daniel?” he repeated, voice slightly higher. He glanced over his shoulder at you, trying very hard to sound like he was just making conversation.
You tilted your head, thinking.
“I think I mentioned him before? Maybe?”
Your brows pulled together as you tried to remember, then you shrugged.
“We’re the only ones around the same age in the department,” you said with a small chuckle. “Kind of felt natural we got paired up. We’ve been grabbing lunch together the last few days.”
The spoon dragged a little slower through the sauce.
Last few days.
Did you mention that before?
“Oh yeah?” he said, keeping his tone light.
“Yeah,” you went on, still talking easily. “You’d like him, actually. He’s kind of similar to you.”
He glanced back at you.
“…Similar how?”
You smiled, completely genuine.
“He’s just… nice. You know? Always the one who remembers people’s birthdays, makes sure everyone’s got what they need. Stayed late the other night to help one of the interns finish something.”
Clark looked back at the pot, the corner of his mouth twitching faintly, though it didn’t quite make it into a smile.
“Sounds like a real hero,” he said quietly.
You laughed, missing the way his shoulders had gone just a little stiff.
“No, he’s just… thoughtful,” you said. “He actually hung around after work the other night too, when you got held up. I didn’t even realise how late it was until we were the only ones left in the office.”
The other night.
The night he’d been halfway across the city instead of walking through the door with you.
He swallowed, eyes fixed on dinner, which now felt slightly inadequate as the guilt began to gnaw at him.
“…That so,” he said, voice steady, even if his chest felt a little tighter.
You nodded, still oblivious.
“Yeah, he was waiting on some notes from his boss, I was finishing up my draft, so we just… talked for a bit. He’s easy to talk to.”
Easy to talk to.
Clark let out a quiet hum, forcing himself to place the spoon down before he bent the handle clean in half.
Of course he was.
Normal hours. Normal life.
No disappearing mid-sentence because someone somewhere needed saving.
“Sounds like you two are getting along.”
“Yeah,” you said, smiling. “He’s been having a bit of a rough time, though.”
He glanced back at you again.
“What happened?”
You frowned slightly.
“His girlfriend broke up with him a couple weeks ago. Knocked his confidence a bit, I think.”
His expression softened automatically. He couldn’t help it.
“Poor guy,” he murmured.
“I know,” you agreed. “I don’t know all the details, but he seemed really upset about it. We ended up talking about it for ages the other day. He just needed someone to listen, I think.”
Clark nodded slowly. Of course you listened, and that was the thing.
You made people feel better just by being there.
Made him feel better just by being there.
He reached across to turn the stove on the lowest setting before facing you once more, slotting himself between your knees. His free hand reached out without him thinking, settling lightly against your thigh where you sat on the counter, thumb brushing once.
“That’s good, honey,” he smiles down at you. “I’m glad you’re not stuck over there on your own.”
Without him.
The words came out quieter than he meant. His tone was small and honest, slipping out before he could stop it.
You didn’t seem to notice anything in his voice, just shuffled a little.
“Yeah. He’s easy to be around,” you said. “And he’s opposite me, you know? Same mornings. We end up hanging out without really planning to.”
He nodded slowly.
Same routine. Same life.
Didn’t have to disappear halfway through dinner. Didn’t have to text apologies from five blocks away. Didn’t have to leave you sitting alone at a table because someone somewhere needed him.
You kept talking.
“He stayed late the other night too. When you got held up? We were the last ones in the office. He didn’t want me walking back to the station on my own.”
It shouldn’t have bothered him.
Honestly, he was glad someone stayed with you. It was a kind gesture by a coworker that stopped you from being alone that late.
He was grateful, but there was something else there too.
His mind immediately pictured you sitting in that office after hours, laughing at something some other guy said, walking out together side by side…
“Clark?” you said, tilting your head a little.
Your voice gently shook him back into the room, blue eyes catching yours as they focused. He didn’t answer right away. Just stood there for a moment, hands resting on your legs, like he was trying to settle his stomach that wouldn’t quite sit still.
He knew it was stupid.
You hadn’t done anything wrong. You were just talking about your day. But all he could think about was how easy it sounded. How much of your time happened in places he couldn’t always be.
He swallowed, glancing down at the counter while his mind kept circling the same thought.
He couldn’t always be there when you stayed late. Couldn’t always walk you home, couldn’t always make dinner, couldn’t always give you the kind of normal time other people seemed to have without even trying.
His thoughts drifted for a moment.
Dinner suddenly felt almost juvenile compared to what he really wanted to do for you. Sweet, sure—but not enough. Not when you looked this tired.
There had to be something more. Something only he could give you.
He ran through the list in his head without thinking; every little thing he knew made you smile, until one idea settled in and stayed.
Oh.
Oh.
Yeah. That.
That he knew how to do.
He knew how to make you come undone after a long day without you even realising that was what you needed.
Knew the exact places to touch that made the tension leave your shoulders, the way your breath caught when his hands moved across your bare skin, the way you melted into him like your body already trusted him to take care of the rest.
He knew the sounds you made when he took his time.
Knew how your fingers curled into the sheets when he got it right.
Knew how to make you forget about work, about long days, about anyone else who’d had your attention before you walked through the door.
It’s not much, but it would work for now.
“You know,” he said quietly, voice low, a little rougher than before,
“I figure I owe you a better evening than just pasta.”
You blinked at him, caught off guard by the look on his face more than the words. He could hear your pulse quicken at his insinuation.
“Clark, we don’t have to—”
He was already moving before you finished the sentence.
He reached past you without breaking eye contact, turning the stove fully off, the soft click of the burner cutting through the quiet kitchen. He stepped in close again, coming to stand between your knees where you sat on the counter, his hands settling lightly on either side of you, not touching yet.
His blue eyes lifted to yours, soft and searching, asking without saying a word.
You looked tired.
He could see it now that he was close enough. The faint tension in your brow, the way your shoulders hadn’t fully relaxed since you walked in.
That he could fix.
His hand came up slowly, giving you plenty of time to pull away if you wanted to, his fingers brushing along your cheek, thumb tracing just under your eye like he could smooth the tiredness away if he was careful enough.
You let out a breathy sound at the touch, the sound soft and surprised, and the corner of his mouth lifted, the tension in his chest loosening just from hearing it.
There you were.
He leaned in then, slow, giving you time to meet him halfway, his lips finding yours in a soft kiss.
You melted into him almost immediately, arms coming up around his shoulders, and that was all it took for his hand to slide to your waist, pulling you a little closer on the counter without thinking about it.
He deepened the kiss carefully, listening more than leading; he felt your breath change, your fingers tightening slightly at the back of his shirt. He let his mouth drift from your lips to your cheek, then lower, pressing slow kisses along the side of your jaw, down to your neck, unhurried, patient, like he had nowhere else to be for once.
Your breath hitched under his mouth, just barely.
Gotcha.
His eyes closed for a second, forehead brushing your temple as he let out a sigh, one hand sliding around your back, his thumb moving in slow circles like he was trying to work the tension out of you one touch at a time.
“C’mon, sweetheart…” he murmured softly against your skin, almost pleading. “Dinner’s done… missed you all day…”
His lips brushed your neck again, slower this time, listening for every little change in your breathing.
“Can’t I make you feel good for a while?”
Please.
He pulled back to look at you, hands still warm at your sides, waiting.
Your cheeks were flushed now, eyes a little softer at the edges, heartbeat spiking slightly.
He didn’t move. Didn’t touch you again. Just waited until you gave him the permission he was almost desperate for.
“Yes,” you sighed with a nod, arms sliding around his shoulders again as you leaned into him. “Please…” you murmured against his lips.
Finally.
His whole face softened and he let out a sigh that almost sounded like a laugh before his arms wrapped around you properly.
“Okay,” he whispered, more to himself than to you.
He lifted you easily from the counter, holding you close against his chest, arms under your legs, careful even now.
Strong arms stayed steady beneath your thighs as he carried you down the short hallway, your legs tightening around his waist as you went, drawing him closer.
The bedroom door was already half-open; he nudged it wider with his shoulder and didn’t bother with the light switch. The city glow filtering through the curtains was enough—soft gold and silver across your skin.
The way he liked you best.
He lay you down in the middle of the bed like you were something delicate, straightening just long enough to pull his own shirt over his head in one smooth motion.
The fabric hit the floor. His eyes never left yours. You looked up at him with soft, half-lidded gaze, and that was all it took to undo him.
Gosh, how did he get so lucky?
He crawled over you slowly, caging you in with his forearms. One large hand brushed your hair back from your forehead tenderly.
“You gonna let me take care of you?” he murmured, voice low. Asking once again for your consent.
You nodded eagerly, already pawing at his bare shoulders to have his lips meet your own again. He obliged immediately, kissing you slow and deep, revelling in the way you gave yourself to him without hesitation.
When he pulled back, his thumb traced along your bottom lip.
“So pretty,” he whispered, the words impossibly softer than the touch.
You huffed out, slightly flustered by the praise. Your fingers tightened against his wrist as you looked up at him, eyes heavy.
“Please.” You asked from under him, doe eyes almost pleading for him to touch you more.
Oh, sweetheart.
Who was he not oblige such a sweet request?
His fingers were careful as they moved to your shirt, unfastening each button one at a time, slow enough that you could feel the warmth of his hands long before the fabric gave way. Goosebumps followed every small movement, your skin reacting to the light brush of his knuckles as much as the cool air hit your exposed flesh.
You were always so receptive to him, always so open. Taking everything he offered you and more. It made his mind dizzy.
Not that he thought he deserved it.
He shoved the thought to the back of his mind as he continued undressing you, not allowing your pleasure to be sidetracked by his own insecurities.
Tonight, he wanted you to forget everything else.
He pushed the shirt from your shoulders with such softness. One hand slid behind your back, fingers finding your bra clasp without looking. His hands moved lower next, sliding the rest of your clothes away until nothing was left but warm skin under his palms.
He leaned in again, lips brushing over the newly bared areas, kissing along your collarbone, your shoulder, the centre of your chest, taking his time with each touch like he was memorising you all over again.
“Beautiful.” He breathed against your neck as your face heated.
It really was the only way to describe you—soft and pliant, bare and so needy for him already.
He was going to give you everything tonight. Take his time until the only thing left in that sweet head of yours was him.
It felt like he owed you more than that anyway.
His hands settled on your thighs, spreading them gently.
“Need to taste you first, honey,” though it sounds more like a plea. “Just lie back for me, can you do that?”
Let him make you feel good.
Let him make it up to you.
You nodded eagerly, cheeks already warm, no convincing needed.
He lowered himself between your legs, pressing a slow, open-mouthed kiss to the inside of your thigh.
“Missed taking care of you like this,” he said, mainly to himself, fingers already spreading you open before any words could escape you.
He dipped his head down, mouth closing over your clit, tongue lapping in the rhythm he knew drove you wild.
A small whine pulled from your chest and he hummed in approval, the sound vibrating against your skin. One broad hand stayed splayed across your lower stomach, holding you down so you couldn’t chase his mouth even if you tried.
He needed you just like this, exactly where he could take care of you properly.
As he kept going, a gentle cry burst out of your mouth, your hands coming down to tangle in his hair, pulling him without thinking. He could only groan as he felt you tug him closer.
“Easy, sweetheart,” he soothed, pressing his lips against your thigh. “I’m not going anywhere.”
He truly wasn’t.
He was in heaven between your thighs. Your warmth, the softness of your skin as he pulled more sounds from you. The way you tensed, squeezing his head as he sucked harder.
He was taking his time, savouring you, stroking his tongue across every fold, every nerve ending, until he was sure you’d be seeing stars.
He owed you that.
Your moans got longer, the feeling of your body unwinding around him, letting him know that he was still good at this. Letting him know that it was only him who would make you come undone like this.
He pressed two fingers inside of you, humming in appreciation as you cried out.
“Ah, Clark—“
He curled his fingers, feeling your walls begin to tighten, throbbing as your sounds grew more desperate, more beautiful.
He swore his name had never sounded so sweet.
“That’s it, angel, almost there.”
Your back arched; he pressed you back down with that hand on your stomach, keeping you right where he wanted you.
Let go for him.
When you came, it was with a sound that made his entire body tingle. He stayed between your legs the whole time, licking you through every aftershock until you were whimpering beneath him.
Always the prettiest sight he could ask for.
When your shaking subsided, he kissed his way back up your body, careful not to overwhelm you just yet. He pressed his forehead to yours while you caught your breath.
He saw the blissed-out look in your eyes, the hazy smile, the sheepish look as you giggled at him, like he had just given you the world, and he couldn’t help but smile too.
Your hands shifted to the top of his slacks, giving them a small playful tug as you met his blue eyes again.
“Not fair,” you pouted. “Wanna see you too.”
He let out a small chuckle, but he was elated that you wanted more. Wanted more of him.
Always so eager.
“Yeah?” He asks as his nose nudges against your cheek, lips brushing your flushed skin. He smiles when he sees you nod, your face almost desperate.
He leans back to unbuckle his belt, trousers following quickly after as he pulls them down his hips. He can feel your eyes on him as he undresses, his muscles twisting in the dim light under your gaze.
He watches the way your eyes glaze over, your breath getting stuck in the back of your throat, the way your thighs rub together at the sight of him bare before you.
“You’re so handsome, Clark.”
The words stop him in his tracks.
Spilling from your mouth without thought. Like it was the simplest truth. It stuttered his movements as he could feel the heat bloom across his face.
The fact that you still say these things after all this time never fails to make the world tilt ever so slightly. It nearly knocks him off balance.
Focus.
He needs to make you feel good tonight, needs to make you feel good every night.
If making you come over and over was what it took to keep that soft look in your eyes, to keep you reaching for him instead of anyone else, he’d do it as many times as it took.
Gladly.
Every single night.
“Baby…” he breathes, pushing his hair back off his forehead. “You keep talking like that, I’m not gonna last five seconds.”
You glance up at him, a teasing glint in your eye.
“Then I guess I’d better keep talking, huh?”
You’ll be the death of him.
“Sweetheart…” he groans softly. “I’m hanging on by a thread here.”
You take mercy on him and bite your lip as he drops the last of his clothes aside and begins to crawl back over you, allowing his warm, solid body to wrap around you once more.
He breathes in deeply against the side of your neck, his breath tickling as he leaves soft, open-mouth kisses against your jaw.
The way he is positioned over you, caging you in, not allowing friction in the one place where you really want him.
“Please—“ you wrap your legs around his hips, trying so hard to get him closer. “Clark—fuck—I need more.”
“Language, baby,” he coos, pressing his lips once again on your flushed skin. “I got you, alright? Need you to relax for me.”
You nod, giving him a gentle peck as your hands slide up his bare back. His muscles flex under your palms, shivering like it’s the first time.
He was already hard—aching, really—his cock heavy and flushed against your thigh. He’d barely been paying attention to himself tonight.
No—tonight was about you.
Reaching down between you, he guides himself to your entrance slowly, watching your reaction. The blunt head of him nudges against your slick folds.
So wet, so ready for him.
He pauses there, eyes locked on yours.
“Tell me if it’s too much,” he whispers against your lips. “I’ll stop, alright? just say the word.”
Just say, and he’ll stop.
“I need you, Clark,” you plead, “Please, I need you so bad.”
Every ounce of self-control he had went into holding himself together at the sound of your voice, his sweet girl begging him to make her feel good.
He feels you fluttering around his tip, walls trying to suck him in. His chest rumbles as he slowly pushes forward, rolling his hips gently so he fits with little resistance.
“God—“ you whine as your head hits the pillow behind you, nails digging into his shoulders.
“I know, baby—“ he soothes, almost fully inside you. “I know—”
He groans into your collarbone as he bottoms out, allowing himself to look between your bodies. Your arousal is coating the bottom of his shaft. It makes him nearly burst right then.
“So good for me, angel, so good—“
His praise has you clenching as he thrusts into you once more, mewling gently under him.
It begins lazily, savouring every twitch of your body. Long, deep strokes that drag against every sensitive spot inside you, his hips rolling again and again as his breaths get heavier.
Every breath that caught, every time your hands tightened around his shoulders, pulled his focus right back to you, even when his mind kept trying to wander somewhere it shouldn’t.
Gosh, he’d almost forgotten how you looked falling apart like this.
Soft under him, lips parted, trusting him completely.
How long had it been since he pleasured you like this? A week? Two?
Far too long.
His jaw tightened slightly as his hips faltered for half a second before he forced himself back.
“Feel good, honey?” he murmured against your temple, “Tell me I’m doing it right.”
He had to be.
He had to make this good for you.
He shifted his angle just slightly, the way he knew made your breath stutter, pressing his lips to your temple as he heard your sweet voice.
“So good—“ you breathe out. “Always feel so good.”
He really hopes so.
Superman could keep the whole city safe, sure. That was the easy part.
But this? This was the part that really mattered.
It was up to Clark to take care of you. Up to him to make sure you felt wanted, felt seen, felt good.
“Don’t get enough of you,” he admits, voice cracking slightly. “Not nearly enough—gosh—“
You moaned under him again, letting him know he was hitting your sweet spot when you arched up into him, chest brushing against his own.
Yes, just like that.
He needed to see this, to know that he could still do this for you.
“You’re mine, aren’t you?” he whimpers as he can feel you getting closer. “Say it—please angel—gotta hear you say it.”
Tears pricked at the corners of his eyes, both of pleasure and pure determination. The kind that made his vision blur just enough that he had to blink them away to focus.
He couldn’t be done with you yet.
He kept moving, steady and deep, listening to every single sound you made. When your nails scraped lightly down his back, he slowed even more, letting you feel every thick inch.
It was then that you looked up at him, concerned eyes completely filled with love.
“Clark… I love you.” You say slowly as you cup his face. “You don’t even have to ask.”
He lets out a choked sound as his movements still, breath catching in his throat.
His forehead drops against yours, eyes squeezing shut. One of his hands comes up to cover yours where it rests on his cheek, pressing into your palm.
“Say it again,” he asks softly. Needing to hear it once more.
There is no hesitation in your reply.
“I love you, Clark,” you say as you squeeze his hand gently. “I’m always yours.”
A soft moan escapes his throat as your words wash over him, the sweetness of your tone spurring him on.
He pulls back ever so slightly, searching your face for any sign of dishonesty. He finds none.
“I love you too,” he says, though his voice sounds sadder than he means. “Just… don’t stop saying that, please?”
He doesn’t give you time to question his statement before his lips are back on yours, hips rolling once again in steady movements, reassured somewhat by your gentle words.
The sweetness starts to fray at the edges as the pleasure builds. His thrusts stay deep but grow a fraction harder, a little more urgent, like the need to prove himself is winding tighter in his chest.
His dark curls begin to drift onto his forehead. His kisses are messier now, almost desperate, tongue sliding against yours as his hips snap forward with a little more force.
He could feel you getting close again, the way you tightened around him, the way your thighs started to tremble. He didn’t speed up. He just kept that same devastating rhythm, grinding deep on every stroke, one hand sliding between your bodies to circle your clit with two fingers.
“Come on, baby,” he coaxed, voice soft and pleading. “Let go for me, I got you—please—.”
“Clark—” It came out broken, desperate, and he felt it like a punch to the chest.
He groaned, hips stuttering for the first time, but he caught himself immediately, forcing the pace back to that slow, worshipful roll.
“Again,” he begs through gritted teeth.
Say his name again.
Tell him it’s only him.
“Clark… oh god, Clark—”
Your orgasm hit you like a wave—long and rolling and endless. He felt every pulse, every flutter, and he kept moving through it, fucking you gently through every aftershock, drawing it out until you were gasping and shaking beneath him.
Only then did he let himself chase his own release, but even that was careful. He buried his face in your neck, lips pressed to your pulse point, and came with a quiet, shattered groan of your name, hips pressing deep and still as he filled you.
For a long moment, the only sound in the room was your shared breathing, slow and heavy. Clark stayed buried inside you, arms lifting slightly as he held himself up so he wouldn’t crush you.
His chest rose and fell against yours, warm skin caught the faint city light filtering through the curtains. Dark curls messy, and when he finally lifted his head, his blue eyes were soft and a little glassy, still hazy with pleasure and something deeper.
You looked completely spent beneath him, hair a mess against the pillow, lips still parted from catching your breath.
He gently eased out of you, mindful of how sensitive you were. Then he shifted his weight, rolling to the side and lifting himself off you completely so you could breathe easier.
Immediately, he leaned back in, peppering the softest kisses all over your face—your forehead, your closed eyelids, the tip of your nose, each cheek, and finally your lips.
“You okay?” he murmured, voice still rough. “Did I—” he hesitated. “Did I do alright?”
You let out a tired laugh, reaching up to push his hair back.
“Clark, you know you did.”
His smile didn’t quite settle.
“Yeah?” he asked quietly, like he needed to hear it again. “You sure?”
You nodded, thumb brushing along his cheek.
“I promise.”
He held your gaze for a second longer, searching your face, checking for any cracks. When he didn’t find any, he leaned down to kiss you once more, softer this time.
“I’m gonna grab a towel,” he murmured against your lips, already starting to shift off the bed.
You let him move for half a second before your hand caught his wrist. fingers wrapping around it gently but firmly.
“Hey,” you said softly.
He paused immediately, turning back to you.
His kind eyes wide and vulnerable as they met yours, his lips slightly swollen from kissing you, and there was a faint pink still high on his cheeks.
“Yes?” he asked, voice attentive. Always ready to give you whatever you needed.
You sat up a little, the sheet shifting, and reached for him again, fingers brushing along his jaw.
“Clark…” you say as you hold his gaze. “Something’s on your mind, isn’t it?”
Darn it. He should have hidden it better.
“Huh?” he says quickly, like he’s been caught off guard. “Nah—no, nothing’s wrong, baby. Honest.”
He tries to smile, tries to make it sound easy, but he can already see the way your brow pulls together, the way you tilt your head just slightly.
“You sure?” you press gently. “I mean… you seemed… I don’t know. Different?”
Different.
He lets out a small huff, rubbing the back of his neck as he looks away.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he mutters, voice a little strained despite himself. “Was it… was it not good for you?”
He couldn’t stop himself from asking.
He could go again, if you needed him to. Could try harder, slower, whatever you wanted.
Do it better this time.
If you asked him to stay between your legs all night, making you forget, he would. Gladly.
“It was,” you say softly, before glancing down. “I just… I don’t know.”
He swallows, jaw tightening for a second.
He didn’t want this to turn into that kind of night.
Didn’t want you worrying about him or feeling like you had to fix something. He just wanted to give you a good evening. He wanted tonight to be special.
Or at least… as special as he could manage on short notice.
“I just missed you,” he says finally, forcing a small smile as he leans in and presses a gentle kiss to your cheek.
He bends to grab his clothes from the floor, shaking them out before pulling his briefs back on, then his shirt, movements a little quicker than usual, keeping that little bit busy to ignore any further questions.
“Besides, it’s getting late,” he adds with a shrug, dragging the shirt over his head, voice casual. “Figured I should probably—”
“You’re leaving?”
Your voice is quiet.
Oh, sweetheart, no.
It makes him freeze instantly, one arm still half through the sleeve. He turns around so fast he nearly trips over his own foot.
“No—I—” he blurts, eyes wide. “I’m not. I’m not leaving.”
He wouldn’t do that to you immediately after something like this. He didn’t think he could bear it.
You give him a small smile, already reaching over to the bedside drawer, pulling out one of his oversized t-shirts and slipping it over your head.
“It’s okay if you are,” you say gently, like you don’t want him to feel bad about it. “If you heard something or…”
The only thing he can hear is the tone of your voice. That tiny bit of disappointment you’re trying to hide. It hits him right in the chest.
“No, hey—no,” he says quickly, stepping closer, hands half-raised, not knowing whether to touch you or not. “That’s not what I meant. I wasn’t saying I had to go. I just—”
He stops and exhales hard, running a hand through his hair, cursing the words that don’t come out right.
“I meant it’s late,” he says, softer now. “Like… I should probably serve dinner. Or something. I mean, we haven’t eaten yet, so…”
You blink at him.
“Oh.”
He gives a sheepish shrug, suddenly feeling very big and very unsure, standing there before he sits down on the bed.
“I mean, it’s the least I can do.”
As the words leave him, your expression softens, understanding gracing your features. Everything suddenly clicked into place, understanding before he even said anything.
You stay silent as you look at him, vulnerable atop the mattress. He knows what that silence means, that you want him to say more. That you’re waiting for him to find the right words and talk to you, rather than pushing his own feelings down when they’re inconvenient.
You always make him talk more than he planned to.
He looks down at the floor, then back at you, then away again.
“I just—” he starts, then stops, shaking his head.
“It’s alright, we can—”
“No, it’s just—,” he tries again, a little too quickly. “I just… I don’t know.”
You don’t say anything.
For someone who writes for a living, he sure does struggle with finding the right words when you’re around.
You sit there, watching him, patient as ever, hands folded in your lap, waiting for him to get the rest out.
He lets out a quiet breath through his nose.
There’s no getting out of this.
“…Feels like I haven’t been around much,” he admits finally.
Your face softens even more.
“Clark—”
“I know, I know,” he says, holding up a hand, already rambling. “I know you don’t mind. You always say you don’t mind. You always tell me it’s fine, and I believe you, I do, I just—”
He rubs the back of his neck again, sighing.
“I just keep thinking one day you’re gonna…” he breathes in, not wanting to say the next words. “Maybe you’re gonna get tired of that,” he mutters.
You blink.
“What?”
He stills, not meeting your eyes.
“Waiting. Eating dinner by yourself. Me showing up late, or not at all. Falling asleep before I get back.” He lets out a humourless laugh. “Feels like that’s not exactly… boyfriend of the year material.”
You stare at him, completely melted already, but he keeps going, words spilling out faster now that he’s started.
“I mean, you could have somebody who’s actually around,” he continues. “Anybody, really. Somebody who doesn’t disappear in the middle of the night because the police scanner goes off.”
He finally looks at you, and his expression must be worse than he thought. The way your lips turn slightly downward, face looking that little bit sadder.
He never should have started.
This is exactly what he didn’t want.
“I just… I don’t know. Feels like I’m not doing enough for you lately,” he admits. “And I hate that. I hate feeling like you deserve more.”
Deserve more than him.
He hears the rustle of the sheets as you sit up on your knees. You go to wrap your arms around him, but he beats you to it, gathering you up on his lap on instinct. Holding you close to him, allowing him to hear your heartbeat soothes him slightly, but he still struggles to look at you after his admission.
“Clark,” you say softly, drawing him back.
He looks down at you, eyes still a little uncertain.
“You think I don’t know who I’m with?”
He goes to speak, but you beat him to it, silencing whatever argument he had formulated in his head.
“You think I’d trade you for someone who just… makes it home on time?”
“Yeah, but that’s not—“
“You’re the most attentive, patient, ridiculous man I’ve ever met,” you go on, thumb brushing over his cheek. “You take care of me better than anyone ever has.”
He still doesn’t seem convinced. It makes sense on paper—yes—but surely you’re just saying that to spare his feelings. Someone as special as you deserves far more than that, not stolen kisses before he has to take off through the open window.
He shakes his head faintly.
Surely that’s not true.
“I’m not always here to do that.”
“Yes, you are.”
He lets out a quiet scoff, looking away.
“Yeah, right.”
You tug his face again until he looks back at you.
“When you’re out there,” you say softly, “saving the world every day… you’re taking care of me.”
He goes still, trying to understand what you’re getting at.
“You make it safer for me to live here,” you continue, voice warm, smile returning. “For me to walk home. For me to sleep. For me to sit here and wait for you without being scared.”
“You think that doesn’t count?” you whisper.
He swallows hard, not quite knowing what to say, your words settling somewhere in his chest where all the doubts usually lived. He’s waiting for a sign that you’re being dishonest, or being just the right amount of honest to spare his feelings. But there isn’t any.
You just keep looking at him the same way you always do—like none of this is really that complicated at all. Like loving him is the most obvious thing in the world to you.
“…You really mean that?” though it’s more statement than question.
You smile, thumb still brushing along his cheek.
“I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t.”
He huffs out an almost a laugh, shaking his head as his eyes drop for a second.
“Honey…” he mutters, now embarrassed. “You always know the right thing to say, don’t you?”
Always know how to keep him steady.
You grin.
“Well, someone’s gotta look after the city’s Superman.”
He snorts softly at that, finally looking back at you, and there it is—that stupid, boyish smile he always gets when you call him that.
“I just…,” he says, rambling now, words coming easier now that he’s started. “Feels like I should be doing more.”
You shake your head immediately.
“I don’t want somebody else,” you say simply. “You’re the one I want. Even when you show up through the window instead of the door.”
That makes him laugh, a real one this time, head tipping forward as he presses his forehead against yours.
“Hey, that only happened twice.”
“Three,” you correct.
“…Okay, three.”
He sighs, eyes closing. He opens them, about to say something else when—
Your stomach growls.
He feels your heart beat speed up as you groan, immediately hiding your face in his shoulder.
“Oh my god.”
Clark stares at you, then lets out the softest, most offended little gasp.
“Well we can’t have that,” he says, like this is suddenly the most serious problem in the world.
You laugh into his chest.
“I’m fine.”
“Nope. Not happening.” He shakes his head firmly, already sliding one arm under your knees. “Absolutely not. I just gave you a whole speech about taking care of you, I can’t let you starve five minutes later.”
Before you can protest, he lifts you clean off the bed, settling you against his chest.
You let out a surprised laugh, grabbing his shoulders.
“Hey!”
“What?” he says, grinning, already heading toward the door. “Doctor’s orders. You need food.”
“I’m not a patient!”
“You are when you don’t eat.”
You roll your eyes, but you’re smiling, arms sliding around his neck as he carries you out of the bedroom.
Halfway down the hall you tilt your head at him.
“…Do I have time for a shower before dinner?”
He stops instantly.
“Of course you do,” he says. “You just say the word, I got all night.”
You raise an eyebrow.
“All night, huh?”
He grins, a little crooked, a little bashful.
You snort, and he laughs under his breath as he pushes the bathroom door open. He sets you down gently on your feet, hands lingering at your waist.
“You alright?” he asks softly.
You nod.
He leans in automatically, pressing a quick kiss to your cheek. Then another to your jaw. Then one to the corner of your mouth.
“Clark,” you laugh, pushing at his chest. “Go. I need to shower.”
“Right, right,” he says, but he’s still smiling.
He backs toward the door, hands up in surrender.
You point at him.
“Out.”
“Yes ma’am.”
He slips out into the hall, closing the door behind him, staring at the wood like an idiot.
You really love him.
I mean, he knew that, but the reassurance had eradicated any doubt he held in his chest. He rubs a hand over his face, shaking his head to himself as he walks back toward the kitchen.
He flicked the stove back on, checking the sauce he made earlier, giving it a slow stir.
Still good.
He smiles to himself, leaning one hip against the counter as the warmth fills the room again.
From down the hall, he can hear the shower start. A second later, soft humming.
He turns the tap on, filling a pot with water for the pasta, setting it on the stove, still listening to that faint little tune drifting down the hall.
Tonight was good. Better than good.
And as the water starts to heat, he finds himself smiling at absolutely nothing, already thinking about what else he can do.
Maybe garlic bread. You like the garlic bread. Maybe dessert if he can find something sweet in the cupboard.
He shakes his head, chuckling quietly to himself.
He needs to slow down. Step one: feed his girl.
He glances toward the hallway again when your humming gets a little louder, warmth settling right behind his ribs.
Yeah.
He thinks he can do that.
a/n: first clark fic wooo!
but no, i know im late but i immediately knew i had to write for him after seeing the movie. please let me know what you think, i havent written in months so i still feel im suuuper rusty
there will most certainly be more where this came from if people want so lmk ! <3
Pairing: Enemies-to-Lovers! Clark Kent x female reader, Superman x female reader
Summary: You’re not sure when the hating game between you and Clark Kent began, but you did know you were going to win it. He was unprofessional, perpetually late, blatantly disrespectful, and just too average to be promoted to senior journalist. So when you get an opportunity to interview Lex Luthor, you jump at the chance to drag Kent’s face through the mud with a high-profile article of your own. Too bad you both don’t seem to understand that love and hate are two sides of the same coin.
Word Count: 13.7K words (worth it, trust me), MDNI
Content: Enemies-to-lovers, Slow Burn, Hurt/comfort, Angst, Misunderstanding, Sexism in Work Place, Attempted Robbery with Weapon (Knife), Explicit Sexual Content, Explicit Language, Alcohol Consumption, Sexual Tension, Heavy petting, Dirty Talk, Oral sex (male and female receiving), Female fingering, P in V, Size kink, Creampie, Use of Nicknames, Clark Being His Own Enemy, Clark Can't Stop Rambling During Sex
Note: Felt like lin manuel miranda writing this. Added dialogue from the movie and the recently released audition tape. Hope you all love it as much as I did writing this.
You are not sure when you started to hate Clark Kent.
Maybe it was on your first day at the Daily Planet when he spilled his coffee down your blouse, and everyone rushed to reassure that bumbling idiot over the new hire. Or perhaps it was when you were berated in front of everyone by the editor-in-chief for not catching his typos while editing his mediocre drafts. It didn’t matter because by the time Clark started getting exclusive interviews with Superman, you were certain that you despised him.
You leaned into Lois’ desk with a cup of tea, arms crossed, watching her and Clark discuss Superman’s latest encounter with the Hammer of Boravia. “I don’t even think that guy is from Boravia,” Lois commented.
“What makes you think that?” Clark asked, spinning his chair around to face her. “His name is literally the Hammer of Boravia.”
“I doubt his parents named him that, Clark,” you stated, taking a sip.
“You know,” he began, loosening his necktie, “Superman thinks he was faking his accent.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Superman said that?”
“Yeah,” he smirked, fixing his glasses. “I interviewed him right after.”
“You know,” you quoted him, setting the cup down, “it’s funny how you keep getting all these interviews with Superman.”
“I don’t think there’s anything funny about good journalism,” he countered and circled back around to face his desk.
You fantasized about throwing your cup at his thick skull. It infuriated you that Clark could get away with so much without any consequences. He was perpetually late to work, couldn’t spell a four-syllable word to save his life, and always knocked things over on your desk when he rushed by. But none of that mattered to anyone when he had a direct hotline to a superhero. Sometimes you wondered why you even bothered trying.
“Relax, guys,” Lois held up her hands. “It’s only nine in the morning. We have all day for you two to go at it.”
You rolled your eyes and walked back to your desk. There was much work to do in the aftermath of Superman’s unsanctioned arrival in Boravia. You just knew that you would be working past your scheduled hours tonight.
You were an hour into your research when your Editor-in-Chief stormed out of his office and onto the bullpen. “Everyone,” he called out, "I have an announcement to make!”
Everyone paused and turned around to face him. “I’m going to be hiring a Senior Reporter of Investigations. Lois is doing a fantastic job,” Perry said, glancing at her, “but she can’t do it alone.”
“The job is, of course, open to external applicants,” he continued, “but I’d like to hire from within.”
From the corner of your eye, you saw Clark stiffen. You scoffed at the idea of him thinking he would be well-suited for the role.
“There will be no interviews for the internal candidates,” he continued. “The decision will be based on the candidate's performance from now till Christmas. May the best man win.”
Or woman, you smirked.
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You and Jimmy spoke to each other in a hushed tone as you made your way to the local pub at nine o’clock.
You desperately needed a drink after the gruelling day at work. “You definitely have a shot, too,” you told Jimmy, waiting for the pedestrian sign to come on.
“I don’t want it,” he replied, shaking his head. “Sounds like too much work. You, on the other hand, love to work. You’ll make a great senior reporter.”
You grinned as you both crossed the road and entered the restaurant. Clark and Lois were already inside, chatting away. You scowled at the sight of him. He was probably asking her to put in a good word for him with Perry. Your suspicions became true once you were within earshot. “—you know I would be great for it,” Clark said, sipping on his milkshake.
“Hey,” you greeted Lois, slipping into the booth across from her.
Jimmy took a seat next to you, playfully slapping Clark on the arm. “Already campaigning?”
He shrugged, sheepishly. “Just fishing for some advice from the great Lois Lane.”
Lois waved him off, chuckling. Jimmy hailed a server down to the table for you two to order. He asked for an Old Fashion, which Clark appeared to approve of. You ordered your usual: seasoned fries with tequila in some cherry coke.
“I don’t know how you drink that stuff,” Clark commented once the server departed from your side.
You grabbed a tater tot off Lois’ plate and threw it in your mouth. “You know when I’m your boss,” you started, chewing away, “I’m gonna’ replace the espresso machine in the break room with a cherry coke fountain.”
“Oh, but you’re forgetting one thing,” he replied, slurping loudly, “you’re never going to be my boss because Perry hates you.”
“No, he doesn’t!” you cried, turning to Jimmy for reassurance.
“Clark’s being a jerk,” he said. “Perry doesn’t just hate you, he hates everyone besides Lois.”
You elbowed him on the shoulder, irritated that he was playing along. “And me,” Clark smirked. “But don’t worry, when I’m your boss, I’ll make sure that you are given many opportunities to earn brownie points with Perry. I know you’re into that.”
“When I’m your boss,” you hissed, fists clenching under the table, “I’m going to make you come into work an hour before everyone else.”
“When I’m your boss,” he countered, slamming his glass down on the table, “I’ll work you so hard that you’ll practically be living out of the Daily Planet!”
“The joke's on you, I already do that!”
Both Clark and you were red in the face by the time the server came back with your orders. You snatched the drink off the table, bypassed the straw, and began chugging the contents. You didn’t miss the face that Clark made at your action.
What is your fucking problem! you screamed on the inside.
You hadn’t stopped frowning since you had sat down. Clark hadn’t given you a moment of peace since you had begun working at the Daily Planet. You hated him deeply. Sure, he was easy on the eyes, and even his hideous oversized clothes couldn’t hide that impressive, colossal size of his, yet you just couldn’t understand why your coworkers fawned over him.
He was mean, rude, and plain disrespectful. He reminded you of those mean boys back in elementary school who would pull at your pigtails for fun with a nasty look on their faces.
You watched him from across the table. Anger bubbled in your stomach at the sight of him chatting away with your friends, seemingly unbothered by your interaction.
Yeah, you decided in that moment, I am going to win this hating game between us.
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The four of you spent the next two hours at the bar before parting.
You trudged to the bus stop, trying not to trip over your own feet. You swayed a little as the drinks began hitting your head. Upon your arrival, you noticed that the bus stand was empty. You slipped your hand in your purse to pull your phone out to check the time, but when your hand found nothing, you yanked the bag off your arm to check inside. The only things you saw within were your wallet, house keys, and a leftover sandwich.
Shit, I must have forgotten it in the pub.
You left out a frustrated groan and turned back around. This day couldn’t get any worse, you thought. You trekked back as the wind picked up. You suddenly remembered the special weather advisory out for tonight; a windstorm was about to hit Metropolis close to midnight. You sped up, eager to reach home, and soon the pub’s entrance came into view.
You were about to rush inside when you heard a loud noise coming from the alley next to the bar, followed by two men shouting. Curious, you altered your course to take a look; even intoxication couldn’t get the investigative journalist out of you. Hiding behind a dumpster, you peeked out and saw a familiar face.
Clark was cornered against a chain-link fence by a man holding a knife. “You can’t hurt me, sir,” you heard him say, “and I really don’t want to hurt you.”
You almost didn’t recognize his voice. He sounded stern, and that was surprising. He didn’t even speak to you in that manner. “Shut the fuck up and give me that phone!” the man spat, stepping closer.
Your stomach tightened. You knew Clark couldn’t survive a knife-fight; that man walked into door frames despite trying not to on a daily basis. You had to do something. Before your liquid courage could slip away, you heaved the closest thing you could find— a broken chair leg off the garbage can— and charged at the man.
“Hey, buddy!” you called out. “Eyes up here!”
The man spun around just as you brought down the wooden scrap against his shoulder. He cried out, stunned, and that gave Clark enough time to snatch the knife out of his hand and throw it over the fence. The man staggered, eyeing you with rage. Realizing that he was outnumbered and freshly out of weapons, he shoved you to the ground. “Bitch!”
You landed on the concrete, your arms painfully breaking your fall. Clark made an attempt to grab the man, but he took off running. You groaned, struggling to get up as pain radiated up your limbs.
Clark rushed to you on the ground. “Why did you do that?” he exclaimed, eyes blown wide.
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“I was trying to help,” you grunted, pushing yourself up with your elbows. “He was going to stab you.”
He wrapped his large hand around your upper arms and helped you stand. “I had it under control.”
You scoffed, stumbling. “Yeah, right.”
He caught you again. “You could have gotten hurt,” he argued, jaw clenching. “Who do you think you are? Superman?”
You slapped his hand off you. “I’m so sorry for saving you, Clark,” you spat, limping away from him. “Next time I’ll just leave you alone to die!”
He strode up to you in seconds. “You’re hurt,” he said. “Let me see.”
The wind picked up, painfully brushing against the scrapes and cuts littering your arms. He seized your wrist, gently. You turned to yell at him to let go, but the look in his face made you freeze. His normally bright blue eyes were icy cold, nostrils flared, and a slight tremor ran down his body. You realized that he was angry. “A-Are you seriously upset with me for saving your life?” you stuttered in disbelief.
“You could have gotten seriously hurt,” he repeated, eyebrows furrowing.
“Why the fuck do you even care?” you asked, scowling.
When he didn’t answer and just stood there, seething in place, you rolled your eyes. You yanked your hand back and moved ahead. “Whatever.”
You had walked a few meters away when he called out, “I have your phone!”
You spun on your heels, pushing past the affliction. “Give it back, Kent!”
“No,” he shook his head, sauntering your way.
Your frown deepened. “What do you mean by ‘no’?”
“‘No,’ as in a negative response,” he clarified, condescendingly. “As in, ‘No, I’m not going to give it back unless you let me see how badly you’re hurt’.”
Your jaw went slack. Your head spun, and it wasn’t because of the alcohol swimming in your belly. You just couldn’t understand why Clark was being so persistent in not leaving you alone. Maybe he was finally realizing what an asshole he had been to you all these months, or maybe he was just embarrassed that you had to come save him like a damsel in distress. “Fine,” you hissed, sticking your arms out. “Have a look!”
He stepped into you, quickly. You scent of his pleasant aftershave invaded your nose. He took your hand in his and turned it around to see where the concrete had cut you. His fingers slipped up, and his thumb traced the skin underneath a scrape that ran diagonally. “This needs to be disinfected,” he whispered under his breath.
Your mouth went dry. “It will be,” you croaked, licking your lips, “as soon as I get home, but I can only do that if I have my phone.”
He nodded, still not moving away. “Yeah, you’re right.”
He peeled off his coat and draped it over your shoulder. “What are you doing?” you asked, jerking underneath the material.
“I’m getting you home, cherry coke.”
“Absolutely not,” you stated, shrugging his fabric off, “I can get home by myself.”
He pulled the collars of his coat together, pinning you in place. “You can hardly walk, and the bus stop is at least fifteen minutes away from here,” he said, bending down to meet your eyes. “What are you going to do if that man is waiting for you around the corner?”
You gulped. You hadn’t thought of that. “I can fight him,” you mumbled, shrugging again.
“Yeah, you probably can,” he sighed, his warm breath fogging his glasses. “I don’t want you, though.”
“Why?”
His hands tightened around the fabric, swaying you forward. “Because you saved me,” he answered. “And as stupid as that was, I am very thankful. I don’t want to see you getting hurt for it.”
Your cheeks grew warm in the cold. Clark Kent apparently had a heart, and you weren’t sure if you liked that revelation; it made your hating game harder.
“So let me repay you,” he continued, “Let me walk you to the bus stop, give you your phone back, and then we’ll be even.”
Those waves of pain hitting your ankle made the idea sound appealing. Repentantly, you nodded. Clark swept down and hooked his arm behind the back of your knee and hoisted you up. You yelped in surprise, clinging to him for support. “Don’t start,” he warned before you could object.
If someone had told you earlier in the day that your night would end with you being carried away by Clark, you would have laughed yourself to death. This makes no sense, you thought. You had spent every waking moment basking in the heat of your resentment of him, and this moment made you numb. You recalled your argument in the pub to ground yourself in that feeling again. You weren’t going to let one kind gesture sweep you off your feet.
Your head dropped down to your lap, and all you could focus on was how easily Clark supported you in his arms. He didn’t appear to be breaking a sweat. A chill ran down your spine, and you told yourself it was the gusts of wind making you shiver and not him.
The stop came into sight with the bus already waiting for you. Clark carried you until the steps leading up to the vehicle were almost under you. He set you down carefully, and the pain in your ankle returned as your feet touched the ground. “I’ll see you tomorrow,” he said, meeting your eyes. “Get home safe.”
You nodded, not trusting your voice. You stepped onto the bus and then paused. You turned your head and asked, “My phone?”
“Inside pocket,” he answered, slipping his wallet out.
You watched him pay for your fare as you moved to take his coat off. He stopped you. “Keep it. It’s cold outside.”
Without another word, you walked inside. You refused to look out at him as the bus’s engine came to life, but you knew he was waiting on the sidewalk. The bus had pulled away from the curb and onto the street when you finally allowed yourself to look out the window. The street behind you was desolate except for a flash of red and blue zooming across the sky.
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That night, you dreamt of Superman.
Rain thundered down on your room’s windows in the wee hours. You were laying down in bed, cuddling a pillow as a movie played on the television. You heard movement behind you, and then the mattress dipped under you. His hand wrapped around your waist, pulling you into his hard torso.
His nose buried itself into your hair, breathing in your scent. You hummed, sagging against him. His hand moved up to cup your breast over your shirt as your eyes fluttered shut. “When I’m your boss,” a familiar voice whispered, slipping your nipple between fingers and squeezing, “I’m going to work you so hard, cherry coke.”
Your eyes shot open. You whipped your head around. Clark lay behind you, head resting on an arm folded over a pillow, smiling lazily.
You woke up in the dark with a thundering heart. You were alone in your apartment with only the sounds of your laboured breaths echoing through the space. You reached under the covers, slick with sweat, yanked Clark’s coat off from over your legs, and threw it across your room in the dark.
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The next morning, Clark brought you a cup of coffee.
You eyed it suspiciously, resting on your desk. You clicked the back of your pen, glancing back and forth between the cup and him. Remnants of your dream last night played in your head, heating up your face. “Why are you bringing me coffee, Kent?”
“I heard it boosts subordinates’ morale when management brings in treats,” he grinned. “I thought about bringing some cherry coke instead, but I couldn’t bring myself to stoop that low.”
Your jaw clenched. He was still mistaken that Perry would promote him. You reached behind your chair and swung his coat out from under your back. “I’ll trade you,” you huffed, holding it out to him.
He accepted it without much issue. You heard the door swing open, and Perry strode in. His gaze landed on you as he crossed the floor. “Great! I was looking for you two.”
You scrambled to your feet. “Yes, Mr. White?”
“You are going to be interviewing Lex Luthor,” he shared, “and Clark is going to help you prepare for it. You will need his expertise in dealing with a high-profile figure. Luthor has declined all prior requests for an interview until now. I don’t know what changed his mind, and frankly, I don’t care.”
Your eyes nearly bugged out of your head. This was exactly what you needed to show your boss that you were the best candidate for the role.
“Why her?” you heard Clark inquire.
“Luthor has been soft-launching an anti-Superman campaign, and I’ll be damned if I let any other paper sit down with him,” he continued, ignoring him. “You will interview him at the New York Correspondent’s Dinner this Friday. Luthor requested that we send someone ‘pleasing on the eyes,’ and normally I’d ask Lois, but since she’s working on the Luthor Corp’ expose, that wouldn’t end well. Bottom line, don’t embarrass yourself, the paper, or me, kid.”
Your ears were ringing. The universe had just presented you the perfect opportunity: an interview to rival Clark’s own. “Yes, sir,” you replied, enthusiastically bobbing your head. “You can count on me.”
Perry nodded curtly and disappeared back into his office.
Lois whistled. “Hell yeah, darling!”
You mimed a silent scream at her, jumping in place. You spun around, grabbed your laptop and the coffee off your desk, and rushed past Clark. “Let’s go to the conference room, Kent.”
He followed at your heels to an inhabited room one floor up. You set your things down on the long table and sat on the seat closest to the door. He slipped into the empty seat next to you.
You buzzed with energy as you opened your device and opened a new document. “Are you seriously this excited for Lex Luthor?” Clark asked, glaring at you.
“Duh,” you made a face. “Why? Are only you allowed to do impactful things here?”
“Lex Luthor is a real jerk,” he frowned, displeased. “Aren’t you bothered by the fact that he asked for someone hot to interview him?”
You smirked. “Are you calling me hot?”
He ran a hand over his face and exhaled into his palm. “I just find it surprising that you’re all right with Perry sending you in as a honey pot.”
“Don’t lecture me on sexism, Clark,” you scowled, deeply. “I’m not stupid. I have dealt with that shit my entire life. I know exactly why Perry picked me, and no, I’m not ‘all right’ with it, but I’m going to make the best out of every chance I get. I’m tired of seeing others get opportunities that should be mine. ”
Clark watched you, lips turned downward. “Others?”
“You,” you answered, plainly. “Do you think Cat, or Lois, or I would last a week here if we started showing up late at work? If we began handing in final drafts with improper grammar? If we—”
“You are this upset over Perry being soft on me, cherry coke?” he asked, tilting his head.
Pure rage began to bubble in your stomach. “Soft,” you hissed, “is an understatement. He is lenient beyond what’s acceptable.”
“And you hate me for that?”
“Clark,” you spoke through clenched teeth, slamming your hands down on the table. “I hate that you are inconsiderate of other people’s time. I hate that you don’t let any opportunity to go by to undermine me. And I hate that there are no consequences for your actions.”
He had the audacity to appear offended. “You have no idea what my life is like,” he spat. “I deal with things beyond your imagination. You have all these nonsense assumptions about me, and have turned me into this bad guy in your head—”
“I know exactly what you’re up to! And don’t act like you don’t benefit from—”
“Let me finish!” he raised his voice. “I—”
“Did you just fucking yell at me?” you cried out, baffled.
“Don’t cuss!” he exclaimed. “I don’t like—”
“I don’t give a shit whether you like it or not, Kent—”
A knock interrupted your screaming match. The door creaked open, and Jimmy’s head popped in through the gap. “We can hear you both downstairs,” he shared apologetically.
Your head dropped your head in your lap, embarrassed. “Sorry,” you heard Clark say. “My fault. We’ll keep it down.”
The door closed, and you both sat in silence. The clock on the wall ticked away, and you counted the seconds and found them in sync with your thudding heartbeat.
Get it under control, you told yourself. Don’t let your anger overpower you.
You sighed and then looked back at your screen. “This is really important to me, Clark,” you said, forcing a polite smile. “I’m asking you, in the name of journalistic pursuit, to work with me. Can we call a truce and get started on this interview?”
You waited for his reply, keeping your eyes fixed ahead. “Yeah,” he answered, some painfully quiet moments later. “I can do that.”
You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. Relieved, you smile. “Great. Let’s start.”
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Perry sprinted out of his office to you as you clipped your earring in.
“Change of plans,” he huffed, stopping at your desk. “You’re not going to ask him the questions you submitted.”
The news of Superman being evil incarnate had just been released by Luthor Corporation, creating a frenzy at the Daily Planet. You stood up and gathered your belongings: a tape recorder, a notepad, pens, and your invitation to the charity dinner. “I-I know, Mr. White. I will focus on the recording instead,” you told him, shoving them into your purse.
“I have emailed you some notes,” he said, walking with you to the elevator, “if you stick to them, things should go well.”
“Yes, of course,” you replied, pressing the button to call the cart up. “I will do that.”
You were absolutely not going to do that. You knew that you had one chance to make an impression, and you weren’t going to do it by playing it safe.
The elevator came up and you stepped inside. “Good luck, kid,” Perry wished and then spun around. “SOMEONE GET ME CLARK KENT!”
The doors slid closed as you observed Jimmy scramble to pick up the phone resting on his desk. After begrudgingly working with you on the interview for days, he didn’t show up on zero hour. In fact, no one had heard from him ever since the world had heard of Superman’s supposed harem.
Maybe he’s sad that the world thinks Superman’s a monster?
You made a face at the thought of feeling bad for Clark Kent as you smoothed a hand over your silk dress. You just knew that when Perry got him on the phone, they’d have a nice chat and smooth everything over. It would be as if he had never abandoned work to begin with.
The elevator pinged and opened itself up to the main floor. You stepped outside and walked up to a car that the Daily Planet had arranged for you. You slipped inside, and the driver pulled into traffic immediately.
A pit had begun forming in your stomach. Trying not to focus on it, you pulled out your phone from your bag and began reading through Perry’s notes. They were good. Great, even. It just bothered you that he didn’t think you could do this without being micromanaged by him or Clark as a proxy.
You turned your phone off and tossed it away. It bounced off the seat and landed inside the door pocket on the other side. You groaned, reaching over to retrieve it. Your fingers caught a stack of folded papers, and you pulled them out. You saw that you were holding a copy of the Daily Planet’s newspaper.
The headline read: THE MAKINGS OF OUR NEWEST SUPERHERO.
Followed by the words, ‘by Clark Kent’. You scoffed. Even leading up to one of the most pivotal moments of your career, he somehow managed to haunt you.
You imagined your name on the front page instead. You had to nail this. You had to do good. So good that everyone at work would think twice before speaking down to you—
Why aren’t you here, Clark?
The car skidded to a stop, and you looked out the window. You had arrived at the venue of for the New York Correspondent’s Dinner. You thanked the driver and took a deep breath to ready yourself to step out. Before you could reach for the door handle, someone yanked it open from the outside.
A face framed with two familiar dimples poked in. “Hey, cherry coke.”
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You stepped out of the car, and Clark offered you his arm.
You didn’t have time to adjust to his unexpected arrival before he began leading you up the stairs to the venue. Clark had dressed up to the nines. You were amazed that he even owned a tuxedo.
You wondered if you had accidentally manifested him tonight. Next time I’ll ask for a million dollars, you thought.
“What are you doing here?” you asked, handing the invite to a staff member at the entrance.
“Couldn’t miss your big day,” he answered, looking ahead. “I’m her plus one. Clark Kent from the Daily Planet.”
The staff member nodded and pulled the velvet rope aside to let you both through. “Why didn’t you come into work? Were you with Superman today?”
“Are you supposed to be interviewing me or Lex Luthor?”
You grabbed onto his arm tighter. “I’m being serious,” you said. “Are you okay?”
He wouldn’t meet your eyes. “Yeah,” he shrugged. “Just a little under the weather.”
You knew he was lying, but you didn’t push further. The heat on Superman probably wasn’t sitting well with him. You both walked inside, and your eyes immediately landed on Lex Luthor speaking to some men across a crowd of people. He towered a foot above everyone else, just like Clark. Your stomach tightened at the sight. There was something strange about that man. His presence didn’t make you feel warm all over like Clark’s did.
You bit the inside of your cheek. That was twice within seconds that you had compared someone to Clark Kent. You shook your head to clear any thoughts of the field reporter.
You need to lock in, you told yourself.
You squeezed Clark’s arm and stepped away from him to make your way toward Lex. You saw him see you approach from the corner of his eye, but he made no attempt to cut his conversation short with the men surrounding him. You patiently waited, the back of your neck heating up, for him to finish before speaking. “Hello, Mr. Luthor,” you greeted, before anyone else, you claimed his attention.
He raised an eyebrow. “You are?”
You gave him your name. “Ah,” he recalled. “You’re that reporter from the Daily Planet.”
He snapped his fingers, and a waiter rushed to his side. He ordered you both a drink without asking whether you’d even like one to begin with. “I’m terribly sorry,” he said, flatly, “I don’t think I have time today for an interview. We can reschedule at my earliest convenience.”
Shit. Shit. Shit.
You had to come up with something quick to hook him in. You knew that you wouldn’t be getting another opportunity in this lifetime. “Oh,” you blinked, furrowing your eyebrows. “I was really hoping to get your opinion on the Superman tape released earlier today.”
Lex’s left eye twitched at your words. You fought back a smirk; you knew you had him then. He cleared his throat. “What would you like to know, miss?”
“I guess,” you started, curling a strand of hair behind your ear, “I wanted to know what your first impression was after finding the video?”
“I will admit that I was scared,” he answered, lips turning downward, “about learning that alien’s true mission.”
You nodded animatedly, trying to mimic empathy. “I’m sure many agree with you today. But what about all the kind acts Superman has performed over the years? The countless lives he has saved?” you inquired, shifting in place. “I mean, just today, he saved a squirrel from being crushed under debris. Some would argue that those acts define his true character rather than the orders given by his parents.”
Lex’s frown deepened. Behind his bald head, you saw Clark move into your line of vision a few feet away. He gave you a reassuring nod.
“I believe he is grooming us,” Lex responded, picking up a drink off the tray the waiter had returned with, “lulling us into complacency so he can dominate without resistance.”
You struggled to keep your face neutral. You collected your own glass and held it so tightly that you were afraid it was going to crack in your grip. “And why would he—”
“He is forging a path for his super-powered descendants to rule the Earth,” he continued, cutting you off. “Who knows how many children he has growing in his harem?”
Hatred rolled off the man in waves. Your forehead began to dampen at the change in his tone, yet you couldn’t help but challenge him. “You’re positive that the video is authentic and not some deepfake?”
“Twenty-eight of the world's top linguists have confirmed the translation,” he spoke through clenched teeth, “and thirty of the top forensic computer techs have confirmed the validity of the footage itself. Unfortunately, and much to your dismay, I’m sure, the video is real. But do tell me, miss, are you by any chance a fan of Superman?”
You froze, not expecting him to turn the tables. You had hoped he’d be self-obsessed enough to rant on. “I think he is doing some important work,” you answered, gulping a mouthful of your drink. “I always thought of Superman as a kind man, and I respect the work he does. He stands for hope and helping those in need. When I look at his actions, his choices, I find it very hard to rebuke him simply because his parents were horrible people.”
“Aliens,” Lex corrected sharply. “They were aliens. And that makes Superman not a man, but also an alien, sent from Krypton to rule over us humans with no mercy. It’s disappointing to see we are too busy fawning over a creature catapulted onto this planet to recognize that his strength illuminates how weak we all really are.”
A lump began to form in your throat. You could see that you had angered him. This was not how you had planned for this conversation to go. A woman in a gorgeous purple floor-length gown stepped into Lex, curling an arm around his torso. “Lex,” she called out, “Are you done? This party is very boring.”
He rolled his eyes and pulled his arm away from the woman to reach inside his coat pocket. He pulled out a card in between his fingers and handed it to you. “Feel free to reach me if you’d like an in-depth interview at a later time. I’d love to correct that opinion of yours regarding Superman.”
You took the card from him, his fingers brushing yours. You thanked him profusely as he walked away. Once alone, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. Your eyes began to water. You recalled your encounter with Lex Luthor, replaying each mistake you had made on a loop. You had missed your chance.
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Clark caught you crossing through the crowd just as the first tears fell.
You had crashed right into his broad chest with your head hanging low. He grabbed onto your arms to steady you straight as you wobbled on your heels. “What’s wrong, cherry coke?” he asked, distressed.
“I-I,” you stuttered, “I made a mistake, C-Clark. I didn’t turn my tape recorder on, and I didn’t stick to the questions Perry sent. I ruined it!”
“That’s okay,” he reassured, slipping his hand down to the small of your back. “You’re okay. Let’s step outside for a bit, yeah?”
You let him guide you up the stairs to the empty terrace. Cold air bit your bare arms as you made your way closer to the railing. Your sobs echoed through the space. “I-I panicked b-because he wanted to cancel t-the interview, and I r-ruined everything,” you hiccuped and bit the back of your hand to stop the tremors. “He was s-so angry—I felt it.”
Clark did the last thing you expected him to do— he wrapped his large hand around your wrist and pulled you into a hug. “I heard everything,” he said, resting his chin on top of your head. “You challenged him and that was brave. A man like Lex Luthor needs that. He is so used to being surrounded by yes-men that I bet meeting you was a breath of fresh air. He gave you his card, didn’t he?”
You inhaled deeply. The scent of his familiar cologne settled your nerves. “I know that you can remember every word that left his mouth without relying on a tape recorder,” he continued. “And if he wants to see you again, then you didn’t put him off that badly. Have some faith in yourself, cherry coke.”
You nodded, shaking in his embrace. His gentle words carved a space for himself within your heart. You tried to remember all those times you had argued, but their memory was already fading. “Although you probably shouldn’t see him again,” you heard him say.
You leaned back to look at him. His hands moved up to cup your cheeks, and his thumbs wiped the tears streaming down. “Why?”
Clark didn’t answer you. His gaze shifted back and forth between your eyes, lips, and neck. He dropped his hand and stepped away from you. “I don’t know,” he sighed, spinning around. “He just gives me the creeps.”
He strode to the railing and leaned against it. You sniffled and gingerly walked up to him. “Do you not like him because he’s mean to Superman?” you asked, stopping a few paces behind him. “Have you spoken to him recently? Is he doing all right?”
Clark stared off into the distance for a few moments. “No,” he answered sombrely. “He’s not doing well. He just found out that his own existence is a lie, that his parents sent him down to kill people, and that the whole world hates him. You know the DOJ has a warrant out for his arrest? He’s all alone now— even the Justice Gang won’t back him up.”
You didn’t know what to say. You had been so caught up in preparing for your interview that you had tuned everyone out. Except Clark. You were hyper aware of his presence and absence in every room you stepped in, and you despised that.
Before you could think your actions through, you closed the gap between you two. Your heart thundered in your chest so loudly that you knew he could hear it. “I don’t hate him,” you whispered in his back, your nose brushing against the dark fabric of his coat.
You felt him tense. “No,” he croaked. “You just hate me.”
You let out a laboured breath, your chest pressing into his back. “You just make me so angry,” you confessed, glad that he couldn’t see you. “Why can’t you be this nice all the time?”
Clark didn’t respond. Instead, he reached for your hand and brought it across his torso so you were hugging him from the back. “I thought about what you said to me in the conference room,” he said, his voice dropping. “You were right, Perry is soft on me—”
“No,” you started. “Clark I—”
He squeezed your hand tighter. “Let me finish, please. I have prepared a little speech.”
You couldn’t help but laugh. “Okay, sorry. Go on.”
“You were right,” he repeated, exhaling. “Perry is soft on me, and it’s not fair. I can see that you work harder than anyone, but it’s not recognized. It’s almost like the paper doesn’t feel the need to recognize your or Cat’s accomplishments because they have satisfied their quota with Lois. There is something horribly wrong with how things are set up in our workplace, and it wasn’t correct of me to pretend otherwise. You were correct about me benefiting from it. You know what Perry said when I finally answered his call tonight? Nothing! Just told me to get a hold of Superman and that he’ll see me on Monday. If you had done that, he would have chewed you out for hours.”
You chewed on your lip, unsure of what to say again. You had always wondered about what it would look like when Clark acknowledged things for what they truly were, but in this moment, you were drawing blanks.
“I didn’t mean to make you feel bad,” he sighed, rubbing circles on the back of your hand. “I realize now that the way I have been speaking to you has been awful. You were right about that, too. My choices and actions make me who I am— and I haven’t been doing a great job lately. You don’t deserve to be put down by anyone, least of all me. I can’t tell you why I behaved like that, I-I’m not sure anymore. All I know if that I regret it.”
It was nighttime, but you were sure the birds were singing. You wrapped your other arm around him and he turned around to face you in your embrace. Your lips stretched into a grin. “You know what this sounds like, right?”
“Sounds like I’m apologizing for being an ass,” he stated, smiling.
You gasped. “Clark, you just said a bad word!”
“I guess I’m a changed man,” he shrugged, curling your hair behind your ear. “Can this new man suggest calling off the hating game between?”
You pouted. “It’s no fun just playing by myself,” you sighed, leaning into him. “Yeah, we can make our truce permanent.”
“Great,” he grinned, making his dimples shine through. “Can I suggest one more thing?”
“Yeah.”
He lowered his face closer to your own. Your stomach tightened, and goosebumps littered up your arms. The world quieted around you two. “Clark,” you whispered.
His hand slipped to cup the nape of your neck to angle your mouth up to his. Your head was spinning. You thought back to your dream the other night and the way his hands had roamed over your skin.
“I have been thinking about you a lot since the day I spilled coffee down your shirt,” he revealed, grazing his lips against yours.
“That was the first time you saw me,” you recalled.
He had soaked your white blouse dark within minutes of you walking into the Daily Planet. That was where the game had started for you. “Probably,” he let out a shaky breath as you clung onto the sleeves of his coat. “But who’s counting?”
You moved up to his mouth just as a surge in noise from the floor below caught your attention, breaking the charge in the air. You glanced down at Clark’s wrist, hovering above your heaving chest, and read the time on his watch. “They are starting the speeches,” you realized.
You groaned, resting your forehead on his shoulder. “Shit, okay,” you mumbled, looking back up at him. “We should go downstairs.”
He didn’t make any attempts to hide his disappointment. “Monday,” he promised. “We will pick this right back up on Monday.”
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When you woke up the next morning, you thought you had imagined the whole encounter.
You had always hoped that you would eventually reach a point of indifference with Clark, but that day never came. As much as you tried to ignore it, something had changed between you two, like an atomic-level shift in the air right before lightning hits.
You just knew the next time you came into work, Jimmy and Lois would immediately pick up on it. Your phone buzzed under your pillow, and you reached for it blindly. Clark had sent you a text message.
Clark Kent Daily Planet: [photo]
You had received a photo of a ragged-looking dog. You tilted your head to the side in confusion; Clark had never mentioned being a pet owner before.
You: You have a dog?
Clark Kent Daily Planet: It’s more of a foster situation. His name is Krypto.
You: Hi, Krypto!!
You caught yourself grinning. Things were definitely different now. Your phone buzzed again.
Clark Kent Daily Planet: I can’t wait to see you on Monday.
You: What’s happening on Monday?
Clark Kent Daily Planet: You know precisely what’s going to happen, cherry coke.
He was right. You did know, and you couldn’t be more excited. The tide had definitely changed. Your phone buzzed again.
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When Monday came around, you almost skipped into work.
Lois and Jimmy immediately asked you about your interview with Lex Luthor. You described the disastrous events, omitting all encounters involving Clark. “Have you started writing the article?” Lois asked.
You slumped in your chair. “Not yet,” you answered. “I’m not sure if I even want to.”
“What does that mean?” Jimmy inquired, leaning his hip into the corner of your desk.
“Lex was really tough on Superman,” you explained, “and I’m not sure if I want to add on to the dumpster fire he’s dealing with by publishing my article.”
Lois frowned. “You know Perry won’t like that, right? Are you sure you want to do this while he’s looking for someone to promote?”
You sighed. “I don’t know,” you admitted. “I was going to talk to him about— has anyone seen Clark?”
“He’s been with Perry for the last hour,” Jimmy said. “He showed up an hour early. Can you believe that?”
You kept your face neutral to hide your approval of him taking the whole ‘changed man’ thing seriously. You stood up. “I’m just gonna’ go talk to them about this.”
You crossed the bullpen to Perry’s office. You held up your hand to knock, but froze at the voices coming through the door. “—you can’t just say that to her,” you heard Clark say.
“I told you a month ago that the position was yours,” Perry replied. “Why should I pretend otherwise?”
Your heart dropped down to your stomach and began thundering. Nausea built up in your throat. He knew. Clark knew that Perry had already given him the role, and he let you bend yourself backwards to try to prove yourself anyway.
“Because she is a good journalist,” Clark stated. “She deserves a chance.”
“I’m not saying she’s not,” he scoffed, “but you interview Superman and she writes about animal shelters seeking donations. I don’t understand your sudden change of heart. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to see you both get along, but I’m not running a charity here.”
Tears sprang in your eyes. You felt like a moron for believing that things could ever be good between the two of you. Clark began to speak again, but you knocked on the door. All conversation inside the room immediately ceased.
“Come in,” Perry called out.
You yanked the door open and stepped inside. Perry stood in front of his desk with his arms crossed, with Clark next to him. Your eyes met, and you saw the moment he realized that you had heard everything.
You cleared your throat, blinking the tears away. “I wanted to let you know, sir,” you croaked, not looking at Clark any longer, “that I won’t be writing an article about my interview with Lex Luthor.”
Perry’s arms fell to his side. He started to speak, but you cut him off.
“—and that I quit”
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You rushed to your desk, wrenching your name tag off your neck.
Fuck this. Fuck everything. Fuck the Daily Planet. Fuck Perry White. Fuck Clark!
Lois eyed you in shock as you threw it on the table and grabbed your work bag, slinging it over your shoulder. Clark was at your heels, calling out your name, as you dashed to the elevator. You called the cart up and quickly stepped inside. You punched the button for the main floor and spun around, rage flooding your veins.
Just as the door was about to slide shut, a hand shot in to stop it. Clark pulled it back and stepped in, wearing a painful expression. You let out a bitter laugh. “You have a lot of nerve, coming after me.”
He moved inside and let the doors close behind him. “I didn’t mean for this to happen,” he pleaded, eyes blown wide. “You have to believe me.”
“Believe you?” you echoed, scoffing. “I don’t trust a single thing that comes out of your lying mouth.”
He shook his head, stepping close to you. You held up your hands, pausing his stride. Your vision began blurring, and you decided that you weren’t above letting this man see you cry. You didn’t care. There was no need to hide your hurt anymore because this was the last time you’d ever speak to him. “You knew,” you spat. “You knew and you didn’t say a single thing. How could you do that? I would have never deceived you like that. I have never!”
He snatched your wrists, scorching you with his touch. “I wanted to tell you,” he blurted, breath hitching. “I wanted to tell you so bad. I just never found the right time.”
You yanked your arms out of his grip. “Really?” you asked, lips tugging down, “We work together day and night, and you want me to accept that you simply couldn’t find the ‘right time’?”
“No, no, no,” Clark repeated, grabbing onto his hair. “Cherry coke—”
“Don’t fucking call me that!” you yelled, throwing your bag on the floor.
He hit the emergency stop button on the elevator panel, and the cart skidded to a halt. “I won’t take the promotion,” he said, quickly. “Please don’t quit, okay? Just tell me what to do to fix this, and I will do it.”
“I don’t need you to fight my battles,” you hissed. “In fact, I don’t need anything from you. Just leave me alone!”
His eyebrows furrowed. “No,” he spoke softly, “not that. Anything but that.”
You took in a laboured breath, composing yourself. “I heard what Perry said about me, and I’m not going to stay in a place designed to keep me down,” you started. “I just won’t do it. You can have your Daily Planet and relish in the limelight with your exclusive interviews, but I will always remember you as a man who stepped on others to get ahead.”
I will remember you as the man who broke my heart.
He looked like you had slapped him. “T-that’s not who I am,” he stuttered, head dropping down. “I-I’m not a bad man.”
“No,” you frowned, “you are just the guy who does fake interviews of himself to get a promotion.”
His head jerked up, and his jaw fell open. “You knew?”
You scoffed again. “Of course, I did. I’m not an idiot.”
You had figured out months ago that Clark Kent was Superman. It wasn’t hard. Despite what senior management thought, you were a great journalist. You had never said anything because you believed that his work was important; a courtesy that he didn’t think to return to you. That was the main reason behind your decision against publishing Lex Luthor’s comments about the superhero.
It was also what made the whole thing more frustrating. Clark already had his own thing by being the most powerful creature to walk Earth. But that just wasn’t enough for him. He just had to take the one thing you cared about as well.
You could almost see the cogs in his brain turning at your revelation. “Why didn’t you ever . . . ”
“Because, unlike you, I have integrity,” you answered, coldly. “Don’t worry, I still won’t say anything. I also happen to be good at keeping secrets.”
He opened his mouth to speak, but the intercom buzzed. “Everything all right?”
You picked up your bag off the floor and slung it over your shoulder. “Yeah,” you said, clearing your throat. “Just bumped into the button. Mind letting us through?”
The elevator buzzed back to life and began lowering you to the lobby. Clark stood there, frozen in time, as the door pinged open. You moved around him.
“I never want to see you again,” you told him, walking out.
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The week following your resignation was quiet.
Lois and Jimmy met you after work every evening. You exchanged office gossip with the events leading up to your departure from the Daily Planet. Lois shared that she and Jimmy had ripped Clark a new one and that he looked like a lost, sad puppy at the office these days. Perry, on the other hand, was distressed because some journalists had threatened to unionize after the recent unfolding of events.
Good, you thought, they both deserve it!
Tonight, you found yourself staying in. You couldn’t keep yourself distracted forever. Sure, you were still healing from a broken heart, but that didn’t mean the world stopped spinning. The shadow of unemployment hung over you, heavy.
You were sitting down on a counter stool in your kitchen, stirring your hot chocolate with one hand and scrolling through LinkedIn with the other, when the reflection in your screen caught your attention. You jerked your head back to see a man in red and blue hovering outside your sixth-floor apartment balcony. “Holy shit!”
Superman offered you a sheepish wave through the glass. He glided over the railing and landed on the balcony with a small thud. “Sorry for scaring you,” Clark said, sliding the door open.
You regretted not locking your balcony doors. There was no need for I before. You didn’t think anyone could climb up that high to break into your home. Obviously, you hadn’t accounted for Superman to be the one making an attempt. “What are you doing here?” you demanded, shooting up to your feet.
“I know you don’t want to see me again,” he replied, moving through your living room, “but I just had to talk to you.”
Your heart thundered in your chest. “Ever notice how you completely ignore other people’s wishes and do what you want anyway?” you asked, scowling.
“Bad habit,” he answered, sitting down on your sofa. “I will work on it. Can we speak?”
You huffed in disbelief. You thought you would never see each other again, but here he was, dressed up in his Superman suit, sitting in your home.
Guess the cat’s out of the bag now, you thought.
“You have five minutes before I call the police,” you told him, taking a seat on the other side.
A coffee table separated you two, but even that felt too close. “Noted,” he said.
He reached into his collar and pulled out a neatly tucked-away yellow paper. “I wrote some notes down,” he explained, unfolding it.
“That’s extremely strange,” you remarked, crossing one leg over the other.
“I don’t want to mess up— have you started timing me already?
You glanced at the clock hanging on the wall. “You have four minutes and thirty five seconds, now thirty-four. . . thirty-three. . .”
“Okay, okay!” he exclaimed, and then turned his attention down to the thin paper in his large hands. “I wanted to start off by apologizing. I was wrong. I should have told you as soon as Perry let me know that he was going to promote me as a senior journalist.”
Your jaw tightened. “Then why didn’t you?” you questioned, taking a sip of your drink.
“Honestly?” he glanced up. “I was afraid. I didn’t want you getting angry with me.”
You blinked, confused. “Since when have you ever cared about making me upset?”
“I have always cared about you, cherry coke,” he stated. “How could you not know that?”
“Oh, I don’t know, Clark,” you started, sarcastically, “maybe the message got lost between all the betrayal?”
Clark sighed and looked back down at his notes. “You have to believe me when I say that I wanted to tell you so bad. Every day we worked on that Lex Luthor interview, I came close to telling you the truth,” he read. “But then I saw you passionately you were working, and I just couldn’t. I didn’t want to crush your spirits.”
You wanted to hurl your cup at him. “You are such an idiot,” you frowned. “I would have given it my all regardless of the decision. That’s just the kind of person I am. What hurt me was being deceived and believing that I had a chance to begin with.”
“I know that now,” he admitted sombrely. “I was being a coward.”
“You not saying anything was a thousand times worse,” you continued. “Me hearing your conversation with Perry was a million times worse.”
He nodded. You took a sip to steady yourself. “I handed in my formal resignation, by the way.”
“Was it because of me?” he asked, in a small voice.
“Partially,” you admitted, hiding your face behind the cup.
“I will quit,” he stated, putting the paper down on his lap, “if that’s what it takes to make things better between us.”
“No, you will not,” you replied, sternly. “Don’t misunderstand. Your contribution to my decision was minuscule at best. I don’t want to work at the Daily Planet anymore because of the disrespect. I’m making that choice for myself. You don’t need to lose sleep over it. I will find work somewhere else. You, on the other hand, need a secret identity to help you with all that Superman stuff.
He exhaled deeply and ran his hands over his face. “How did you even figure it out?”
“It wasn’t that difficult, Clark,” you answered, setting the cup down on the table. “You only do field work when Superman is involved, yet no one has ever seen you together. You show up late to work anytime a meta-villain attacks Metropolis. Your dog is literally named Kyrpto. Plus, when you take your glasses off, you look exactly like Superman.”
He peeked at you from between his fingers. “Okay, when you put it like that, I just sound like an idiot.”
You gasp, mortified. “You just said a bad word!”
“Yeah. I seem to be doing many bad things lately,” he whispered to himself. “How come you never said anything?
“I did think about it. Especially on days you really pissed me off. I guess . . . I understood why you had to hide,” you shrugged. “Although it made my head spin at times. You were so kind to strangers, yet so awful to me. I just didn’t get why. For a solid month, I thought you were Superman’s evil twin.”
Clark let out a dry laugh. He looked up at the ceiling, staring at the chandelier bathing you both in yellow. “When you started as an intern at the Daily Planet,” he spoke, eyes growing distant, “you were obsessed with finding out Superman’s identity. Do you remember?
You nodded, twiddling your thumbs above your thighs.
“It freaked me out, really bad,” he confessed, blue eyes growing distant. “You once suggested in a team meeting that Superman may be Texan based on his accent, and I almost had a panic attack. I thought back then that if I was tough on you, I could discourage you from pursuing anything related to him. In hindsight, I understand that it was a dumb idea.”
You recalled the times he would shoot down your ideas about Superman during your time at the Daily Planet. “Are you being serious?”
“That’s the whole reason why I started interviewing myself as Superman to begin with,” he explained. “I believed you would let it go if he started speaking to another journalist, so I made interviews with Superman an exclusively Clark-Kent thing. It worked, and you never brought it up again.”
Your eyebrows furrowed, and your back arched off the cushion. “Are you seriously telling me you were being mean to me because you thought I was so good at my job that I would figure out you were Superman?”
“Yeah,” Clark admitted. “And I was right, you did figure it out. I still regret it, immensely.”
You felt as if someone had thrown a bucket of cold water in your face. You had always wondered when the hating game had started for him, but you could never have guessed the truth.
“This past week,” he continued, “I have been reflecting on everything I have done. I am so, so sorry, cherry coke. If I had only known, I wouldn’t have done any of that. I would have been a better friend to you. I would have . . . ”
“Would have what?”
He dipped his head down to finally look at you again. “You know exactly what.”
“No,” you shook your head. “I really don’t. I don’t think anyone truly knows what goes on your head.”
He paused for a moment before speaking. “You have no idea how hard it was for me to put on that act. And now I can’t stop thinking about how awful I was to you. I was trying to protect myself, but I went about it the wrong way and hurt someone I care about. I would do everything differently now.”
You felt your pulse throbbing in your neck. “Different how?” you insisted.
“I would have been honest about my feelings,” Clark answered, a remorseful smile playing on his lips. “I would have spoken to you kindly. I would have brought you coffee every morning. I would have asked you out to dinner months ago. And I would have definitely kissed you on that terrace, cherry coke.”
You squirmed in your seat, cheeks growing farm. “You can’t say things like that.”
“I know,” he said softly. “I wanted to anyway.”
Your mind couldn’t keep up with all the thoughts rushing in; you needed him out of your home.
He likes me. He was awful to me. He likes me. He made me feel so small. He likes me. He needs a reality check. Yes, but he likes me.
You sprang up and began pacing through your living room. “I need time to think,” you told him, marching back and forth.
He made no attempts to move. “Take all the time you need.”
You spun around on your heels to face him on the sofa. “Why would you tell me these things?” you cried, throwing your hands up. “This is b-bad timing . . . I need to focus. I need to be able to work on my job applications. Do you know I am working on six written pieces that ‘highlight my journalistic prowess’ right now?”
“I can help you with that!” Clark beamed at you. “You can submit an interview with Superman.”
You froze mid-step. “Are you being serious?”
“Sure,” he answered, voice getting higher.
You gulped. An interview with Superman would help get help against the gallows of unemployment. You desperately wanted Clark out, but Metropolis was an expensive city to afford. The spike in your home insurance after the Hammer of Boravia’s attack was enough to make you shudder. You grew distraught by the second.
Maybe think next time before you rage quit, you scolded yourself.
You took in a deep breath. “Okay, fine,” you decided against your better judgment. “If you’re sure you want to do this, I’m down.”
Clark grinned. “Let’s do it, cherry coke.”
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You rummaged through your purse to find your tape recorder; it had remained undisturbed since your encounter with Lex Luthor.
You turned it on and set it on the coffee table, and returned back to your seat. You cleared your throat and began speaking. “It’s August twenty-eight, twenty-twenty-five, eighteen-hundred hours, I’m sitting here with Superman.”
Clark rolled his shoulder back and sat up straighter. “Hello,” he greeted, his voice changing.
“Welcome.”
“Thank you,” he smiled. “I’m pleased to be here.”
You reached to shut the recorder off. “This is weird,” you remarked.
He slumped back down. “I’m not weird-ed out at all. I want you to interview me.”
You ran a hand through your hair, frustration budding inside. “I feel like I’m acting,” you sighed, “pretending like I don’t know who you are.”
“You should sit a little closer,” he suggested, “maybe that will help.”
You rolled your eyes, but moved to sit on the other edge of the coffee table with the recorder in your hand. His thighs spread apart slightly to make room for your legs in between. You made a conscious effort not to stare at them. “Let’s try this again,” you said, turning on the recorder. “So, Superman—”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“— recently it was reported you flew to Boravia’s airspace and threatened President Ghurkos to stop the invasion of the nation of Jarhanpur.”
“Yes,” he replied, head tilting to the side.
“And you did this without speaking to anyone in the national or international defense organizations beforehand,” you stated, leaning forward to stare him in the eyes. “Is that accurate?”
He blinked. “Umm.”
His large fingers pressed the pause button on the recorder in your palm. “I thought this was going to be an overall profile.”
You frowned. “We never discussed that.”
“This just seems a little dark, don’t you think?” he asked, eyebrows furrowed.
“You thought I was going to write a 'puff' piece,” you scoffed, “after everything that’s happened?”
“No, no, no,” Clark said, quickly. “It just felt a little . . . attack-y?”
“Attack-y?
He held his hands up in surrender. “I’m not saying you meant it that way.”
Your scowl deepened. “You think that even the most harmless question from me is dangerous.”
“Harmless?” he echoed, raising a brow. “There’s nothing harmless about you, cherry coke. You just accused me of defying international treaties.”
“Because you did defy them,” you deadpanned.
Clark licked his lip. “I think you should come sit a little closer so I can explain to you how I helped save people’s lives,” he suggested, and pulled you toward him.
You moved to take a seat next to him, but he tugged you onto his lap. You landed sideways over his thighs. “W-What are you doing?” you inquired, shocked at your position.
“Just trying to hear you better,” he answered smoothly.
Painfully aware of the lack of professionalism, you turned the recorder back on with shaky hands. “So Superman,” you began, voice wavering, “we were just speaking about you defying international protocols.
He had the audacity to look surprised. “This is a ‘hit piece’.”
“What?” you exclaimed, attempting to stand up.
Clark held you easily in place by your arms. “You’re doing a hit piece on me,” he remarked.
“I’m not!” you cried out, squirming in his lap. “I’m simply asking questions that anyone would ask.”
“Okay,” he replied, a playful smile playing on his lips. “That’s fine. You can ask me anything you’d like. I’m an open book, baby.”
You turn the recorder back off. “This is on the record, Clark! I don’t want people finding out that Superman and I—”
“Are you doing what exactly?” he interrupted, repositioning you over him. “We haven’t even done anything . . . yet.
You sat on his large thighs, one leg folded on each side. “Are you messing with me right now?” you questioned, chest rapidly falling up and down.
“Not even in the slightest,” he replied, pulling you into him. “I’m just suggesting that you let me kiss you, and then we can get back to the interview. I’m finding it hard to focus on anything other than you right now.”
You blinked. Your head was spinning so fast that you wondered if you were still intoxicated from last night. This was the exact opposite of getting him out of your apartment. At this rate, he would be setting up camp in your living room by the next hour.
“Clark,” you whispered.
He called out your name, eyelids growing heavy. “Let me kiss you. Please.”
You tried to ground yourself in the memories of your numerous quarrels, but they were fading once again. “Clark,” you repeated.
His hands trailed up your shorts and rested at the fold where your hips met your thighs. “Cherry coke.”
“This is a bad idea,” you croaked, fingers moving up the fabric of his suit to rest over the red and yellow emblem. “We are enemies. The hating game is back on, remember?”
“Not a chance,” he said, rubbing circles with his thumbs. “It ended for me a long time ago.”
Oh. Oh. You were melting in real time. Your mind was devoid of all thoughts except the burning sensation of his touch. You gulped. “Okay.”
His dimples poked through his cheek as his mouth stretched into a grin. “Okay.”
Your heart drummed loudly as his lips dipped to meet yours. He pressed a chaste kiss on your lips, but that alone was enough to ignite a fire within your bones. Your lips parted almost instinctively. When his tongue licked in your mouth, you lost all self-control.
The kiss grew messier instantaneously, with his saliva mixing with yours. His hands grabbed at the flesh of your butt, making you gasp and arch into his chest. “Yeah,” you heard him say when you both broke for air. “I’m not letting you go.”
His lips trailed down to your neck, peppering kisses down to the hollow of your throat and then back up to your jaw on the other side. This was much better than what you felt in your dream. Your imagination couldn’t even come up with the real thing.
His warmth made your systems go haywire. You moved your hands to his combed-back hair, and you clutched the strands to make your mouths meet again and again.
You didn’t know when, but his fingers had found their way under the hem of your shirt. You jolted at the sensation. He tore his mouth away and leaned back to look at you. “What’s wrong?” he asked, searching your face for any signs of discomfort.
“Feels good,” you whispered, tugging his face closer. “You feel really good.”
You kissed him, and your hips rolled down on their own accord. His hands began to move you over his crotch purposefully, and you were sure your pyjama shorts were soaked by now. You let out a silent prayer that his suit was waterproof as you lifted off his lap. His hands were quick to hold on to your waist. “Where are you going?”
You exhaled, squirming in his grip. “I . . . ”
“Don’t leave, cherry coke,” he pleaded, big eyes blinking.
You looked down at him below you. His hair was dishevelled, and his lips were swollen red with your kisses. The sight made your heart soar. You smiled at him, eyes forming crescents.
Yeah, I’m going to give in to his bullshit.
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.
.
You both stumbled into your room, lips connected.
Your hands moved across the length of his shoulders and down his chest. Clark’s arms circled your waist to crush you into him. “How do I get this off?” you demanded against his mouth, tugging at the tight collar around his neck.
“There’s a tab,” he spoke between kisses, “under the cape. Pull it down.”
You followed his instructions, and the suit sagged around him enough for it to slump down. He wrenched the material off him and slipped out of it with the ease of someone who had done it many times. You watched him, eyes blown wide, as he stripped down to his boxers. You licked your lips in anticipation; even through the dark fabric, you could make out the sheer size of him.
Clark dropped down to his knees in front of you. He lifted the hem of your shirt, and his lips found your stomach. You held on to his shoulders to balance yourself as he kissed the expanse of your belly. “I need you to know,” he spoke from under your shirt, “that I don’t do casual. I can’t, especially not with you.”
You let out a shaky breath. “I know, Clark.”
He peeked out from under the fabric, bright blue eyes meeting yours. “I’m going to still do the interview even if we don’t do this,” he breathed, deeply. “You can say no, and it won’t change a thing.”
You nodded, enthusiastically, to urge him on. “I get that. I still want to.”
He stood up. “I just don’t want us to just hate-fuck and never see each other again.”
“Oh my god!” you exclaimed, leaning back in surprise. “Don’t cuss, Clark! It’s weirding me out. And stop giving me disclaimers! I am fully aware of what we are getting ourselves into. You have got to trust me when I say that I want this too, okay?”
“Okay, okay,” he grinned, nudging his forehead against yours. “Go sit down.”
You walked backwards with him until your thighs hit the softness of your mattress. You sat down as he knelt before you again. His fingertips slid under the elastic of your shorts and panties, and he slithered them down smoothly. “You have no idea how many times I have dreamt of this,” he told you, earnestly.
He took hold of your knees and spread them apart. The cold air hit your bare cunt, making you shiver. You couldn’t believe that you were sitting pants-less in front of Clark of all people. A tremor ran through your body.
He tugged you forward so that your hips hung off the edge of the bed. “You've got to show me what you like. I wanna’ make you feel so good.”
Your throat went dry. “Mm-hmm.”
You looked away just as his tongue licks a fat strip up from your soaking hole to the clit. Electricity shot up your spine at the sensation, making your legs jerk close. Clark’s grip tightened over your kneecaps to keep you in place. There was no winning against his strength, especially when your thighs were shaking.
He slipped a hand down to your pussy and used his fingers to pull your folds apart. He began following each lick with a kiss. You quickly glanced back at him to see his gaze fixated on you. The sight made you bite the back of your hand to stop yourself from crying out loud. “I want to hear you,” he spoke into your pussy. “Please let me hear you.”
The vibration made you toss your head back into the mattress. He opened his mouth wider and started sucking on your clit. You let out a moan that echoed through your bedroom walls. Your toes curled so hard that you were afraid your foot would begin cramping.
He let go of your clit with a plop and looked up. “Good?” he asked, mouth glistening.
You nodded frantically.
He dove back in. He stiffened the tip of his tongue to circle your clit. Your hand shot out to grab his dark curls. You didn’t know if you wanted to push his face further into your cunt or move his mouth away from you entirely. You felt him grin into you as you made your decision and turned his head toward the spot that made you melt.
He obliged, concentrating on the side of your clit that made you squirm. The shyness from your end disappeared soon after as Clark started to messily make out with your pussy. The slurping sounds were obscene enough to make your back arch up. You cried out in pleasure. Your hips seemed to have a mind of their own with the way they gyrated up to meet his mouth again and again and again.
Clark broke away from you, panting. “I need to stretch you out,” he stated, shaking himself. “Can I, cherry coke?”
You didn’t trust yourself to speak just yet. “Mm-hmm.”
He moved his thick middle finger down to your hole. Slowly, he pushed through the initial resistance until he was down to his knuckles. You seized at the intrusion, and he pressed his free arm over your stomach to pin you down. “Tell me what feels good,” he exhaled, determination shining in his eyes. “Show me where.”
Your cunt clamped down on him every time he moved his digit in and out. “Here?” he inquired, curling it up.
You brought your palms up to cover your face. His fingers found the spongy bit inside that you were never able to reach before. “You gotta’ talk to me, cherry coke. I like the sound of your voice. Right here?”
You gave in, heart thundering beneath your ribs. “Right there! Right fucking there!”
His fingers dug into the flesh of your stomach as pressure built up in your spine. “Remember when you gave me back my coat?” he asked, rubbing against the spot.
“Yeah,” you answered through your fingers.
“It smelled like that jasmine perfume you always wear,” he reminisced, picking up pace. “It got me so hard. I jerked off to it every night until the smell faded— had to retire it from my wardrobe entirely. Did you know that jasmine is my favourite flower?”
The visual of him tugging at his cock with his nose buried in the coat made a sob tear out from your throat. “Fuck!”
“Yeah,” he whispered, eyes dazed. “I’m going to, don’t worry. Just have to make some space first.”
His mouth came down on you again as his fingers pumped in and out. Every time he pulled away, his mouth would suck around your clit. “More, please!” you cried out, grabbing his locks tightly again. “I need more!”
Without any delay, he slid his index finger inside of you while still licking away. You felt so full with his fingers alone, you couldn’t imagine what his cock inside of you would feel like. Tremors ran through your body as your pleasure rapidly reached a crescendo. Your eyes rolled back as your orgasm tore through you. Ecstasy rolled through you in waves, making your limbs tight in one moment and then relaxed in the next.
You laid on your bed, staring at the ceiling as you panted. Your ears were ringing. Clark moved up into your line of vision, eyebrows furrowed. You spoke, but he had a hard time hearing you. He brought his ear closer to you, and you whispered, “I think you killed me.”
His glossy lips stretched into a smile. “Was I that good?”
“So good that I can’t feel my legs,” you replied. “Didn’t think you could do that, Kent.”
He pecked your lips. “Still want me around?”
You sighed, heart hurting at his persistent concern. “I’m not angry with you anymore, Clark,” you shared, brushing back his curls. “We’ll talk about everything after we’re done.”
“Done?” he echoed, leaning into your touch.
“Yeah,” you nodded. “I still have to suck you off. You still have to fuck me silly.”
.
.
.
He froze, jaw falling open. You push him off you, so he is standing. You manoeuvred onto your knees; your legs still feeling too jelly to stand on your own. “You don’t have,” he gulped as you tugged his boxers down.
You nuzzled your nose into his crotch. “I wanna’ make you feel good too. Please let me?”
“Gosh, when you speak l-like that,” he sighed, broad shoulders dropping down, “I can’t think. A-All right.”
Your fingers hooked into the elastic of his boxers and pulled them down. His hands twitched at his sides, unsure whether to reach out to touch you or not. His huge cock slapped against his bare belly. “Whoa.”
You wished you had thought more about Clark’s penis before. If you had, you could have practised to fit it into your mouth. To say he was huge would be an understatement. His cock was thick at the base, too broad to fully wrap your small hand around, and adorned with a bulbous head only a little thinner. It truly was the perfect shade of reddish pink. Your mouth watered at the challenge.
“I wasn’t kidding about stretching you out,” Clark frowned with concern. “I don’t want to hurt you. L-Let me make you cum once more.”
You shook your head, adjusting your weight on your knees. “I’ll cum around your cock later, don’t worry.”
His eyes widened at your words. Before his mind could conjure any other thing that could possibly go wrong, you began peppering kisses along the shaft.
Clark shook at the contact, making you smile. You took as much of him as your hand could hold and slowly pumped him. His hands shot to grab your shoulders to distance himself from you, but you tightened your fingers around him in disapproval. “You can take it.”
You swiped your thumb along the head. His cock grew bigger in your grip. He swallowed and reached to push up the glasses he wasn’t wearing. “Please,” he whispered, licking his lips.
You gather the wetness pooling at his tip and smear it along the length. “You’re gonna’ make my jaw hurt, Clark,” you mused, looking up at him through your lashes.
He groaned. You lowered your head to his cock and slipped it into your warm mouth. You licked a long stripe from his perineum to the head. His body jolted, and his eyes fluttered shut at the sensation. “Watch me,” you said, holding him in your mouth.
He glanced at you in time to see your cheeks constrict around him. His hands slipped in your hair as his head fell back. You bobbed your head up and down, eyeing his prominent Adam’s apple from below. He tasted a little salty, mixed with something otherworldly you couldn’t quite discern.
You hummed in content. A thin sheet of sweat had formed over his body; he was truly a sight to behold. You pooled spit in your mouth and placed a palm flat against his taught stomach to help you pick up speed. His fingers grabbed onto your strands tighter. Your free hand clenched his left thigh as you worked him deeper into you. “Don’t ch-choke,” he grunted, eyes glistening.
I want to.
Much to your dismay, he was still holding back. If your mouth wasn’t stuffed full of him, you would have frowned. Instead, you move your hands to cup his ass to guide him in and out in between your lips. You wanted him to show you a glimpse of the strength you knew he possessed. You needed him to hold you in place and fuck your mouth.
A moan escaped him. He rocked his hips once, twice, thrice, and then pulled you away by your hair. “No,” you cried out in protest, “I wanted you to cum on my face!”
He exhaled harshly and crushed your lips against him in a messy kiss. You clung to him as he moved you back, climbing onto the mattress himself. He peeled off your shirt and then your bra from your torso as his tongue swept through your mouth. Once, you were just as bare as he; he gently shoved you down, making your head bounce on a gathering of soft pillows.
He hovered over you, panting wildly. You knew in that moment that the only place he would be cumming was inside of your pussy.
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.
.
The air around you grew hotter as Clark climbed in between your legs.
He bent down to press his forehead against yours. “I have always wanted to feel something like this,” he exhaled, pupils blown wide.
You felt your heart double in size under your ribs at his words. You circled your arms around his neck. “Me too, Clark.”
“With you,” he clarified. “I have only ever wanted this with you. You make my head spin, cherry coke.”
Your eyes glistened as well. You cupped his cheeks and kissed him. Above, a light bulb shatters, bathing you both in darkness. “Sorry,” he said sheepishly. “My bad. This happens when I get too . . . excited.”
You giggled, running a hand through his curls. He trailed a hand down your neck and to your chest. He captured a nipple in between his fingers and gave it a tug. You hissed at the sensation. He lowered his head and wrapped his lips around it. Your spine tightened, and you arched up to him as he sucked at it.
Your toes curled. “Fuck,” you groan, squirming.
He let go of your swollen nipple with a pop and moved to the other. “I like it when you swear,” he smiled around your nub, dimples shining through. “It’s very punk rock.”
You couldn’t help but laugh again. His words cut through the tension. You felt at ease with him, like you two had done this many times before.
He reached down to grab his cock, and you spread your legs wider to make space for him. His leaking tip prodded at your centre. “I’ll go slow,” Clark promised, sincerely. “You’ll tell me if it hurts?”
You pushed yourself up on your elbows to observe and nod. You watch, breaths quickening, as his leaky head pressed firmly at your opening. He met a little resistance and glanced up to search your face for any signs of discomfort. When he didn’t find any, he inched in further. You collapsed back into the pillows as he slowly stretched you open on his dick.
He filled you to the brim soon after, almost like he was always supposed to be in there. He paused, buried inside of you to the hilt. You felt the mattress dip around your head, and his head pops into your line of vision. “Hey.”
“Hi,” you responded, meekly.
“Feeling good?” he asked, eyebrows furrowed.
The pressure inside you felt so tight that you couldn’t flex around him even if you wanted to. Your eyes grew wet as you tried to decipher if the feeling of him stretching you wide was too much or just right. “You’re huge, Clark,” you gasped, hands limp at your side. “Feels like you’re still in my throat.”
His cheeks redden at your words. “If you say things like that,” he bit his lower lip, “I won’t last long.”
You bit back your own smile. “I don’t want you to,” you confessed, holding his gaze. “I want you to fuck me into the mattress and then cum inside.”
He groaned in defeat and dropped his head into the crook of your neck. You jerked as his hips shifted, feeding his cock into you. “Shit!”
Clark moved again, and your arms flew to hold onto his shoulders. You hung on to him as he tentatively began to rock into you, getting you comfortable with his size. Your soft groans echoed through the room in sync with his rolls.
You moved your legs over his to tangle your limbs just as he snapped his hips forward, impaling you on the mattress. You cried out his name, nails digging crescents into his pale skin. His lips suck the spot on your throat that made you shiver. “I have wanted this for so long,” he gasped in your hair. “I can’t believe I’m finally inside you.”
Your eyes clenched shut, letting the tears drip down your cheek. “Every time we argued,” he continued, voice muffled, “every time you called me out, all I could think about was bending you over my desk and pulling your skirt down. Did you know that? Did you know that I was dying to be inside you?”
Your cheeks were scorching. Your heart battered in your chest hearing him speak like that. “Clark!”
He cupped the back of your knee and folded you like a straw at the hips. The sounds of your skin slapping together grow louder as he finds a new rhythm that makes you clench around him. “Tell me you needed this,” he demanded, leaning back to meet your eyes. “Needed this as much as I did?”
“Yes,” you sobbed, weekly shoving his chest. “Yes! Yes!”
“You just needed me to fill you up like this,” he continued, pounding you into the mattress. “I can do that. I can keep you full forever. No more fighting, okay, cherry coke? We can talk things out just like this.”
At this moment, Clark could ask you for anything, and you would agree to it. You’re lost in the feeling of his weight pressing down on you. You simply nodded, enthusiastically.
He leaned back on his knees, and you cried out at the loss. He grabbed your waist in his large hands to lift you up and began pulling you into his cock. Your belly grew warm. You squinted in the dark to see him staring at the bulge moving in your stomach.
You realized he was using his X-ray vision on you. “Gosh,” he gasped, sweat beading on his forehead. “I can see myself inside you.”
He adjusted himself, finding the spongy bit inside once again. “Right there,” he spoke to himself. “Gonna’ get you right there, baby.”
You groaned, legs wringing. He glanced back up at you. “You look so beautiful like this. If I had known, I would have done this sooner. I wanna’ watch you forever.”
Your back arced at a painful angle, but you pushed through the ache. Clark’s rambling was hurling you into the light, and you were so close. “Squeezing me so tight,” he grunted, driving into you harder. “We were made to be together.”
You took hold of the inky curls at the base of his neck. “Don’t stop! Do not stop!”
His lips stretched into a grin. If someone had told you a month ago that Clark Kent would be buried so deep in your pussy that you’d be feeling him in your throat, you would have laughed in their face. But there he was, inching you closer to bliss by the second.
His thumb found your clit and began rutting into you. “Clark,” you wheezed as he rubbed it. “I’m—”
Your vision went white. Your pussy clenched around him as waves of pleasure erupted from the base of your spine and out to your extremities. You cried out, shaking underneath him. Your vision blurred as the orgasm wiped your head clean.
Clark didn’t stop, cock still working into you. Your pussy grew sensitive when his rhythm grew sloppier. Groans began pouring from Clark’s mouth as he gathered you into his arms to thrust into you quick and shallow. Your stomach tightened at the sight of him losing himself inside you. You wished to engrave the image of his heavy-lidded eyes and slack jaw into your mind forever.
He let out a groan, heavy balls tightening against your ass, and flooded your cunt. He rocked into gently, riding out his orgasm. You felt impossible full as his cum leaked out of your pussy and dripped down the crevice between your cheeks.
Clark didn’t pull out. He cupped the back of your head and kissed you. You melted into his mouth, limbs still tingling. He manoeuvred you around so that he laid flat on the mattress with you on top of him.
His hands smoothed down your spine, and his lips pressed on top of your shoulders. “Are you okay?” he asked, breathless.
Your cunt pulsing around him as aftershocks of your orgasm worked their way through you made you groan. You nodded against his chest, breathing laboured.
“Please look at me,” he said, hooking a finger under your chin to lift your face up to him. “Did I hurt you, cherry coke?”
This was beyond anything you could have ever conceived. You couldn’t recall any discomfort you didn’t welcome wholeheartedly. “No,” you croaked, blinking at him. “You just made my brain all jelly.”
His lips stretched into a smile. He playfully nuzzled you, arms tugging you closer. You both settled in together, wrapped in each other's embrace, basking in the aftermath.
“Does this mean we are dating?” Clark asked in a small voice, breaking the silence.
You laughed into his torso. Only Clark Kent could be intelligent enough to keep up a secret identity, yet still be clueless when it came to romance. “Yeah,” you reassured him. “We are, Superman.”
You both stayed like that, joined together at the hip, until sleep took over. When you stirred up hours later, daylight was breaking over the horizon through your bedroom window. Clark’s eyes were closed, but his thumbs were rubbing circles on your back. He was just as hard as you last remembered.
You stretched a hand out to fetch your phone from the nightstand and opened your contacts. You scrolled down to his name and changed it from Clark Kent Daily Planet to simply Clark <3. You tossed your phone on the bed and then brought your hips down to drive him in deeper.
Summary: During the rare total solar eclipse over Metropolis, Clark's solar reserves run dry. For the first time in years he's just Clark: mortal, vulnerable, and aching to feel what it's like to fuck you without holding back.
Warnings: established relationship, clark temporarily loses his powers, a bunch of manhandling, size kink (obviously), belly bulge, light overstimulation, praise, missionary and doggy, light hair pulling, unprotected sex, creampie
A/N: fuckkk i love weak pathetic men. there will be a part two to this x
Word Count: 2,454
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The city feels suspended in time, the late afternoon light filtering through the Metropolis skyline having taken on an eerie, coppery hue. You're curled on the living room couch with a half-finished article on your laptop when the familiar whoosh of displaced air hits the open balcony doors, followed immediately by a heavy, uneven thud.
You look up just in time to see Clark stagger through the sliding glass, one hand braced against the frame. His cape hangs limp behind him, the red fabric dragging across the concrete.
''Clark?'' You're on your feet in an instant. ''Are you hurt?''
He manages a crooked, breathless smile when he sees you, but it doesn't reach his eyes the way it usually does.
''Hey,'' he rasps, voice rougher than you've heard it in years. He pushes off the doorframe and takes two unsteady steps inside, then stops like gravity is pinning him to the floor. ''I made it. Barely.''
You reach him before he can say anything else, hands sliding up his arms. His biceps feel the same, warm, thick, impossibly solid, but when you squeeze, there's no flex of superhuman muscle pushing you back.
''You're shaking,'' you say, almost an accusation.
He lets out a low, surprised laugh that turns into a pained groan. ''Yeah. Turns out flying without a full charge is... well, exhausting.''
You guide him toward the couch, but he doesn't sit right away. Instead he leans back against the wall, head tipping until it thumps against the plaster. His suit is still pristine, but sweat beads at his temples and darkens the collar. You've seen him come home bruised and bleeding after fights with gods, but he's never looked this... mortal.
''Talk to me,'' you demand, voice kind but insistent. Journalist habit. You cup his jaw, thumb brushing the freshly shaven skin. ''What's happening?''
Clark exhales through his nose, eyes sliding shut for a second like even that small motion takes effort.
''The solar eclipse,'' he says finally. ''The moon's blocking the sun completely. Has been for almost two hours. I didn't have enough left to fly to space, so I burned through my solar reserves getting back here.''
He opens his eyes again, meeting yours with a dopey (and slightly delirious, you're assuming) smile.
''I wanted to be home with you,'' he admits, quieter. ''Before I couldn't fly anymore. Before I couldn't... do anything anymore.''
Your pulse kicks up. ''And now?''
''Without the Yellow Sun, my powers deplete until I'm functionally identical to an ordinary human. A normal, mortal Kryptonian without powers. I'm just... me. Six-foot-four, two-hundred-thirty pounds of farm muscle, and a really inconvenient hard-on because—'' He stops, cheeks flushing. ''Because I haven't felt this... equal to you in a long time.''
You stare at him. He stares back. The apartment is quiet except for the distant sounds of the city and the soft, uneven rhythm of his breathing.
''Equal,'' you echo, testing the word. Your fingers slide down his chest, feeling the rapid thud of his heart under the S-shield. It's not the slow, steady metronome you're used to. It's fast. Human. ''You mean... you wouldn't have to hold back?''
His throat works. ''There's not much to hold back when I'm this...'' He gestures vaguely at himself. ''...depleted. I wouldn't have to worry about breaking your pelvis if I thrust too hard, or leaving bruises on your skin. I wouldn't accidentally snap the headboard in half when I—'' He cuts himself off again, jaw tightening. ''Gosh. I sound like an animal.''
''You sound like a man who's been fucking his girlfriend like she's made of glass for years,'' you correct him, voice dropping low. ''And now doesn't have to.''
Clark's eyes darken. You step closer until your body presses against his, feeling every inch of him, still towering, still broad, still so much bigger than you, but without that effortless power coiled underneath.
''Tell me,'' you murmur, fingers tracing the line of his jaw down to the pulse hammering in his throat. ''What do you want to do right now, Clark?''
He swallows hard. His hands, big, calloused, trembling, settle on your waist.
''I want to make love to you until you can't think straight,'' he admits, voice rough. ''I want to feel every flutter and clench without having to listen for your heartbeat to make sure I'm not hurting you.''
A slow, wicked smile curves your lips.
''Then do it,'' you whisper. ''Show me what Clark Kent feels like when he finally lets go.''
His control snaps like a frayed rope.
One second you're standing, the next he has you lifted, still strong enough to do it easily, and your back hits the wall with a solid thump that rattles the framed photos of you, Clark and Krypto.
His mouth crashes into yours like a man starved, messy and desperate and tasting faintly of ozone and sweat.
You laugh breathlessly against his lips when his hands fumble with the hem of your shirt, fingers clumsy from fatigue.
''Need help, Kent?'' you tease.
''Shut up,'' he groans against your lips, but there's laughter in it too, bright and surprised. You help him yank the shirt over your head. Then his hands are on your bare skin, warm, rough, greedy, and he groans like the contact alone is enough to short-circuit him.
''Golly,'' he breathes against your neck. ''You feel so good. Always do. But like this—'' He bites down on the sensitive skin, your back arching with a sharp moan.
''Like this,'' he continues, voice wrecked, ''I can feel every shiver. Every goosebump. Every time your pulse jumps under my tongue.''
His hips rock forward, grinding the thick ridge of his cock against you through the suit. You hook a leg around his waist, pulling him closer.
''Then stop talking,'' you say, nipping his lower lip. ''And fuck me like you've always wanted to.''
Clark doesn't need to be told twice.
He scoops you up again, carrying you toward the bedroom with long, determined strides, the heavy thud of boots on hardwood and the ragged sound of his breathing filling the apartment.
He kicks the bedroom door shut behind him, wood rattling in the frame, and drops you onto the mattress with enough force that the springs groan in protest. You bounce once, twice, laughing breathlessly as you prop yourself up on your elbows. He's already tearing at the clasps of his cape, fingers fumbling for the first time because there's no super-speed to make it effortless and quick.
''Gosh darn it,'' he mutters before finally ripping the cape free and flinging the red fabric across the room. It lands in a heap against the dresser.
You're already shimmying out of your sweatpants, watching Clark with hungry eyes. He looks... wrecked, in the best way. Hair mussed from the wind of his labored flight home, suit clinging to sweat-damp skin, chest heaving like he just ran a marathon, and so fucking hard the outline of his cock strains obscenely against the red fabric.
He catches you staring and gives a crooked, almost shy grin that doesn't match the feral glint in his eyes.
He's on you in two strides, knees sinking into the mattress, caging you beneath him. His hands, still trembling faintly from the lack of solar energy, grip your hips and yank you down the bed until your ass is right at the edge, and you moan at how easily he manhandles you.
''Gosh,'' he breathes, staring down at where your legs wrap around his waist. He drags one palm up your inner thigh, spreading you wider, and groans when he sees how wet you already are. No super-hearing to tell him exactly how soaked, but he doesn't need it. The slick shine on your folds is obvious, obscene.
''Tell me if it's too much,'' he says suddenly, voice cracking with lust and worry even as his thumb brushes your clit and makes you arch. ''I can't— I can't hear your heart. Can't tell when your pulse is spiking because you love it or because I'm hurting you.''
You reach up, cupping his face, forcing him to meet your eyes.
''Clark,'' you say firmly. ''I'll tell you. I promise. But right now, I just want you to fuck me like you've been dying to.''
His pupils blow wide.
He doesn't bother stripping the suit all the way, just yanks the crotch open with a sharp rip of fabric that makes you gasp. His cock springs free, thick and flushed dark, already leaking at the tip. He's bigger than most men could dream of being, and it looks absolutely obscene.
He notches himself at your entrance, drags the head through your slick once, twice, coating himself. ''You feel incredible. No one makes me feel the way you do,'' he mumbles absentmindedly.
He slams home in one brutal stroke, bottoming out so deep you swear you can feel him in your throat. Your back bows off the bed with a choked cry, nails digging into his shoulders. He's huge, always has been, but without his powers tempering the force, the stretch burns in the best way, filling you so completely you can barely breathe.
''Oh, wow,'' he pants against your neck, hips stuttering like he's fighting not to come already. ''So tight. So, so tight around me. I can feel you fluttering. Gosh, I can actually feel it without having to focus—''
His hips snap forward again, harder this time, the wet slap of skin on skin echoing in the room. The bed creaks ominously, but he doesn't stop. He can't. He fucks you like a man possessed, each thrust driving the air from your lungs, his big hands pinning your wrists above your head so you can't do anything but take it.
''Look at you,'' he rasps, eyes raking down your body. ''Taking all of me. Every inch. Look how your stomach—'' He presses one palm low on your belly, right where he can feel the bulge of his cock moving inside you. The pressure makes you clench hard around him, and he whines. ''Yeah. Right there. Feel that? That's me.''
You're already close, overstimulated from the relentless pace, the size of him, the way he's finally letting go. Your thighs tremble around his hips.
''Clark, I'm gonna—''
''Come,'' he orders, voice rough. ''Let me feel it. Let me feel you soak me.''
Your orgasm hits like a freight train, sharp, blinding, your walls clamping down so hard he nearly loses it right then. He talks you through it, whispering praises and dragging it out, making you shake and whimper as aftershocks ripple through you.
But he doesn't stop.
He flips you onto your stomach, yanks your hips up, and drives back in from behind. One hand fists your hair, not hard enough to hurt, but enough to arch your back perfectly for him.
''Again,'' he pants. ''Give me another one. I want to feel you come while I fill you.''
You're oversensitive, clit throbbing, every stroke too much and not enough. You sob into the sheets, pushing back against him anyway.
''Clark—''
''You can take it,'' he interrupts, more of a desperate plea than a command, but then guilt floods him. ''Tell me to stop if—''
''Don't you dare stop,'' you gasp. ''Fill me. Please.''
He slams in one last time and comes with a broken moan that vibrates through your whole body. Pulse after pulse floods you until you feel it leaking out around his cock, dripping down your thighs even as he keeps grinding, trying to push it deeper into you.
He collapses over you, careful even now not to crush you completely, chest heaving against your back. His cock is still twitching inside, still leaking the last of it.
''I didn't hurt you, did I?'' he whispers after a long minute, voice wrecked.
''Never.'' You turn your head, catch his mouth in a messy, sated kiss.
Clark stays buried inside you for a moment, hips twitching with aftershocks, his forehead pressed between your shoulder blades. His breathing is ragged, and you can feel every uneven exhale against your skin as his weight pins you to the mattress in the most delicious way.
Eventually he rolls to the side so he doesn't crush you completely. You feel the hot rush of his come immediately when his cock slips out of you, leaking out of you and onto the sheets. He watches it with something like dazed fascination, one big hand sliding down to cup your pussy possessively, thumb smearing the mess over your swollen clit.
''Golly,'' he mutters, voice hoarse. ''I... that's a lot.''
You laugh softly, still catching your breath, and turn to face him. His cheeks are flushed, hair sticking to his sweaty forehead, eyes heavy-lidded and tired in a way you rarely get to see post-sex.
You reach out, trace a lazy finger down the center of his chest, feeling the rapid thud of his heart slowing gradually.
''Feeling mortal yet, Kent?''
He huffs a laugh that turns into a groan when he tries to shift closer and his thigh muscles protest. ''Yeah. Very.'' He winces as he stretches one leg out. ''My quads are burning. And my back— For gosh sake, did I pull something?''
''Clark,'' you laugh, propping yourself up on one elbow so you can look down at him properly. ''You're just sore.''
He shoots you a mock-glare, but the corner of his mouth twitches. ''Laugh it up. I haven't had to deal with lactic acid buildup since... ever.''
You trail your fingers lower, over the defined ridges of his abs, then lower still until you're brushing his softening cock, still impressive even at half-mast, slick with both of you. He twitches under your touch, sensitive, but doesn't get hard again. Not instantly. Not like usual.
''Look at you,'' you tease, voice dropping to that soft, filthy murmur he loves. ''No super-speed recovery. No round two in three seconds flat.''
Clark's eyes darken at the words, even as his cheeks flush deeper. He catches your wrist, squeezing gently.
''Keep talking like that,'' he warns, voice rough, ''and I'll find a second wind whether my body likes it or not.''
You grin, leaning down to brush a slow kiss against his jaw. ''Promise?''
He groans again, but it sounds more like a laugh this time. His arms wrap around you, still big and strong enough to make you feel small and safe.
''I'm gonna need a minute,'' he admits, nuzzling into your hair. ''Maybe ten. Possibly a nap. Is this how tired normal people get after sex?''
You hum happily, tucking your face against his throat where his pulse is still racing.
''Take all the minutes you need,'' you murmur.
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summary: in which you're ready to end things with clark, but he doesn't let you. how were you supposed to know kryptonian saliva is an aphrodisiac?
CWs: 18+ MDNI! DUBCON AT THE VERY LEAST! READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION!, explicit sexual content (oral - f!receiving, some brief nipple play), fem!reader x clark kent, super manipulative & icky clark bc he needed some dark!representation and im here to provide for that gap, very VERY messy kisses, spitplay? i guess that's a term for it? idk man he spits in your mouth, HE SPITS IN YOUR MOUTH!!!!
wc: juuuust under 4k!
author's note: alright. listen. LISTEN. this is a labor of love for me. it took me a very long time and i am very proud of it. however, i will not be writing dark!clarkie in a long time, because he is exhausting. i hope you all enjoy him. let's be depraved together <3
this is dedicated to my beloved @thceseus and @tw1sters !! thank you two for being the best depraved perverts who Also want to be manipulated by clark kent. i love you more than words can express.
Clark Kent is a good man. That’s why he never kisses you.
It’s something he saves for certain occasions. Anniversaries. When you have a really hard day at work. Nights when you’re struggling to sleep.
Fights.
Especially the fights where a particularly rough grit in your voice is present, telling him when he’ll have to break his own rather shaky moral code. It always comes after a night spent yelling at each other, of going back and forth about some issue in your relationship that he’d rather avoid.
A night like the one you’re both being strangled by right now.
You’ve been screaming back and forth at each other for over 20 minutes; nothing but barbarous insults hurled at each other that neither of you will be able to forget but will refuse to discuss when your tempers have regulated. Not to mention that he heard that tell-tale grit in your voice from the very first second that you opened your mouth. Hell, it almost weighed heavier on him than the horrible things you were telling him.
Now, though, you’re both silent. Everything that needed to be said was said.
Eyes wide and unflinchingly locked together, unwavering connection stemming from the vicious battle you just went through in this bedroom. The one that was never going to produce a victor, because neither of you can take back what you told each other. You’re still red in the face. You’ve still got veins popping out of your neck. Hot, angry tears are silently pouring down your cheeks—no doubt from the high emotions, the unbearable pain.
Or maybe from the realization you’re arriving at for the millionth time this month: This relationship isn’t working. Hasn’t been working for weeks, and he knows you’ve been in that state of mind for a while.
Clark, though? Not so much. He’s given you so much of himself, so much of his time, so much of his life and love…how could he ever let you go?
So when you finally break that eye contact, when you look down at the floor separating the two of you, he knows what he has to do. Does he want to do it? No, because Clark is a good man.
But he’ll do anything to keep you with him.
It starts when you let out one of those wistful little sighs—the exact type of sigh that precedes the line he knows you’ll forget you even said to him in a few minutes:
“I think we need to take a break.”
Your voice is much softer now. Broken, in a way. Broken from how hard you were yelling. Broken from how upset you are. Broken from your own suggestion, because Clark knows that, deep down in your heart, you never mean that. You’ve never gone through with it, so how could you possibly mean it? You don’t want that.
He knows what you want.
Clark clears his throat. Takes a few slow, long strides across your bedroom until he reaches you. You’re so tired from the fight that you don’t even move away from him. Not like you’d want to, anyway. Clark knew you wouldn’t. He knows this fight—and the way you react to it—better than anything else.
You might have said you can’t stand him, that you want to take a break, that you’re tired of it all…but your body doesn’t agree. Your body leans into him. Your body presses your hands against his chest and lets your forehead fall on his shoulder. Your body rests on his so that you don’t have to carry the weight of your shared dysfunction on your own anymore.
“C’mon, baby. Don’t say that.” he whispers. “You don’t mean that.”
“Clark, don’t—”
That tiny beginner’s protest doesn’t really ring true while you’re sliding your arms around his shoulders and pulling yourself into his chest, so he cuts you off.
“No. No, we don’t need a break. We can work through this. We always work through it, don’t we?” he purrs at you. Tilts your head up with one hand while his other arm stays wrapped around your waist. Glues you to him and doesn’t give you any space to unstick yourself from him. His fingers curl around your jaw and a quick scan of your face in the pale blue moonlight streaming into your room gives him what he was hoping to see.
You have a certain habit that he uses to his advantage when you fight with him. You gnaw at your bottom lip when you’re trying to keep certain insults in. Sometimes, it’s so harsh of a bite that you cut the skin. Make yourself bleed.
Give him an opening to change your mind.
“Goodness, honey. You gotta stop doing this,” he sweetly coos. Runs his thumb over your bottom lip to make it seem like he’s only concerned about the cut. To be fair, he is concerned about how it’s probably hurting you—but that’s not taking precedence right now.
“Gonna hurt yourself. I know this doesn’t feel good.”
He pushes out a sigh through his nose. He has to look frustrated and sympathetic if he wants to act like he doesn’t know what he’s doing.
“You gonna let me clean you up?”
You whine and lean into his touch; a confirmation without the words to accompany it. He knows you can’t resist him. He puts on his sweetest smile and mumbles, “Good. Gotta take care of my girl,” while he gives you a soft squeeze.
Getting you this close is just step one.
Step two, though, is where the last remaining dregs of his own guilt start to creep in. He hesitates for a moment when he pulls his thumb off of your lip and brings it up to his own mouth. He could pull away from you and get a wet rag to clean it instead. He could be the good man Ma raised him to be.
Then you lean into him a little more. Get so close to him that he can smell the shampoo in your hair, the perfume on your skin, the adrenaline pumping through your blood. Your bottom lip is still subtly trembling. A shockwave from your crying that just refuses to leave you, much like how you can’t leave his arms right now.
How could you blame him for what he’s about to do? Your body is begging him to do it. Begging him for some release from this pain. Craving relief that only he can provide you.
Isn’t the whole point of his being here on Earth protecting and caring for its inhabitants, anyway?
So he ditches the guilt. Swallows it down and acts like he’s just trying to clean you up when he licks his thumb to wet it and swipes it over the gently oozing blood on your lip. Drags it back and forth over the still-open cut once, twice, three times. Soft and sweet, like Ma would do when he had a stain on his cheek from playing outside when he was a kid. As though there’s no ulterior motive here.
And to you, there probably isn’t. To you, he probably seems like he’s just caring for you. Trying to make you feel better.
Clark knows that’s not the case.
He keeps his thumb pressed against your lip. Keeps it over that cut. Keeps pressing his saliva into the little wound. Rubbing it back and forth. Licking his thumb again. Repeating the whole process when some more blood wells from your self-inflicted bite. Feeding more and more of himself to you.
Part of him wishes Kara never told him about this little trick.
“All I know is that it’s like…a fuckin’ love potion, or something. If you kiss a human, they’ll go crazy for you. I think it’s in our spit. I know it sounds crazy, Kal, but trust me. That shit works.”
He thought she was lying. Didn’t believe her at first, because how outrageous would that be? Sure, his parents wanted him to repopulate Earth, but isn’t aphrodisiac-laced spit a little far fetched?
Two years later, he knows she wasn’t lying. Especially right now, as he’s watching you fall into the effects of it. He’s watching your pupils dilate with every gentle brush of his thumb over your lip, watching your breathing quicken in your still-heaving chest.
This trick’s worked on you every time. And every time he does it, he feels bad about it, but he’s sure not stopping any time soon. Not when he gets to see you like this.
Your eyes keep locking onto his mouth. You keep squirming in his grasp, body warm, skin dampening, and much more pliable than you were only a few seconds earlier. When your fingers dig into his shirt, he finds that they’re trembling. Whether it’s from the rage of your fight or the lack of his attention toward the mess you’re already making between your thighs, he doesn’t know. Maybe it’s both.
“Clark,” you whine. Pitchy, breathy, irresistible. He ticks his jaw, annoyed with himself for being so turned on by this. By being able to control you this easily. He’s supposed to be a good man. He’s not supposed to get hard when you’re upset with him.
“I’m here. I’ve got you, baby.”
Your lidded eyes trace every single word that leaves his mouth. You moan at the pet name. His fingers, still curled around your jaw while his others grasp at your waist, pick up on the heat radiating from you.
“Don’t like it when we fight.”
“I don’t like it either, honey.”
Your knees buckle at the saccharine nickname he knows is your favorite—a slight jolt that makes him tighten his hold on you—and you start panting, start gripping him a little harder.
Are your hips rolling against his? He pays no mind to it. Forces himself to take his thumb away from your lip, because you’re good and moldable for him already. Three rounds of feeding himself to you through an open wound’ll do it. He doesn’t need to take this any further.
That doesn’t mean he doesn’t want to, though.
“I love you,” you whisper to him. The inky blackness of your pupils eats up your irises. You’re soaking through your panties, making such a big mess that he can smell it. He should be excited—and part of him is—but his heart aches instead. When was the last time he had you this wet, this compliant, this soft and needy for him, without using his saliva to get you there? Must have been before everything started going downhill a few months ago.
Oh well. At least you’re there now, right?
So he smiles at you. Sweet and crooked, the smile you’ve told him you love a thousand times before. Makes you whimper and has you bucking your hips up against his. You’re so hot that your skin is burning. Warm to the touch and a little bit damp. Just how he likes you. His trick worked like a charm.
“There’s my sweet girl. Was starting to think I’d never see you again, baby. I love you so much.”
When his lower-octave purr hits your ears, you almost collapse. He felt it all. The way your knees gave out, the way you grabbed onto him a little harder, the way your heart started slamming so roughly behind your ribcage that it almost burst out of your chest.
“Can I have a kiss?” you mercilessly, pathetically beg. Voice so soft and needy and whiney that he couldn’t possibly dream of resisting you. “I know—I know you don’t like to do it, but…I need one. Please?”
“Is a kiss gonna make you feel better?”
You hum and nod so hard that your head looks like it’s about to fall off. He finds himself laughing. Not mean, not teasing, just…laughing. Because he’s in awe. How has this trick worked for this long? How haven’t you built up an immunity by now?
Thank God you haven’t built up an immunity by now.
“My needy girl always gets what she wants.”
He licks his lips—getting them wet so he can keep you pliant—and leans down to press them against yours. His tongue gently glides against your bottom lip, making sure to take a little extra time on that cut there and causing you to suck in a brief wince. He pushes his way into your mouth without even a hint of resistance from you. Does its work. Keeps you easy.
20 minutes ago, you’d have had his head on a pike if he kissed you when you were that mad. If he had so much as suggested a kiss 20 minutes ago, you would have walked out of that door and never came back.
You break away not even 10 seconds later. Clearly woozy from the kiss, like he knew you’d be. Everything is so heightened for you that he’s surprised you even lasted that long. You press your forehead against his jaw.
“Better?” Clark asks. Your answer is some sort of jumbled little confirmation.
Your sticky, warm skin clings to his when you catch your breath, pull back, and try to reconnect the kiss. He lets you. You’re the one parting his lips to press your tongue against his, you’re the one licking into his mouth so you can get as close to him as possible, you’re the one tangling your hands in his hair and yanking on it so you can part for air after a pathetic 10 more seconds. And yet, after you gulp in a few deep breaths, you kiss him again. Surprise engulfs him when, this time, you suck on his tongue.
Couldn’t hold the moan that burst from his chest back if he tried.
It’s the first time in a couple weeks that you’ve paid any sort of positive attention to him at all, and he loves it. He loves you. If his girl wants a kiss—or two, or three—she’ll get one. Matter of fact, he’d let you do anything if it meant he got to keep you forever. He just might be able to do that if you keep sticking your tongue down his throat and sucking on his like you just did.
He pulls away when he senses that you’re losing yourself in him. That realization comes through your landing a particularly rough bite on his bottom lip before you start kissing his chin, his jaw, and his neck, leaving a trail of tiny wet patches in your wake.
Clark cradles your face in his hands to stop you from diving in for another kiss. Gives you a chance to breathe and gives him a moment to drink you in when you’re not mad at him. Your precious, soft, absolutely lovedrunk face. His poor baby. So far gone—eyes half-lidded, lips kiss-swollen and glistening from your messy litany of kisses, skin hot to the touch and chest heaving as you claw at his shirt and stumble over your own two feet while you drag him backwards toward your bed.
You’re more than pliable enough, now.
Clark swipes his thumb over your bottom lip, thumb dampening from the filthy kisses you’ve shared with him, a mix of your saliva and his. You chase after the contact and tilt your head into his palm when he slips his thumb down toward your jaw.
He puts on his best soft, deep voice and asks, “Gonna let me take care of you, now, baby? Let me apologize?” before you can yank him down onto your bed.
He gets a soft hum from you. A nod. Of course he does. You’d never say no to him when you’ve got this much of his “love potion”—as Kara would call it— coursing its way through your veins. So he takes your confirmation that he knew he’d get, lifts you up, and lets you indulge in your forced desires.
Clark’s form of an apology isn’t an actual apology. He doesn’t say sorry to you anymore. When has it ever soothed your anger, anyway?
Instead, he apologizes by burying his face between your legs. He never has to give you much after you’ve kissed. A gentle circling of his tongue around your clit for a handful of seconds is enough to get you to come undone for the first time. The next is a little harder to work for, but if being between your legs and humping the mattress to get his own relief could be a full time job, he’d apply for it immediately.
“Clark!” you groan while arching off the bed. While you’re being thrown off the proverbial cliff, falling into your third climax in an obscenely short time frame.
Your body is a gorgeous symphony to him when you’re like this. Everything you do is music to his ears when you’re in this bed. The roughness of your breathing, the sheets rubbing against your heated, sticky skin, the lewd squelch of your wetness as he drives two fingers in and out of you, the moans you sing out when he curls those fingers up to hit the soft, spongy spot that he loves to abuse until you’re boneless beneath him.
“Coming! Fuck, I’m coming! Don’t—ah! Don’t stop!” you babble. There’s a string of curse words attached to the end of that jumbled declaration. Clark just hums and continues eating. Slips his fingers out of you to replace them with his tongue. The rough push of his nose against your clit forces a full-body jolt out of you.
You keep screaming for him to continue, to go deeper, to not stop, and he gives it all to you until you’re falling apart. It’s not like it was his intention to stop. Wouldn’t dream of stopping now. Wouldn’t deprive himself of the pleasure of being glued to your pretty pussy like this.
He’s not sure when he became so selfish. Maybe it was the first time he kissed you to manipulate you. Well, it’s not manipulation. Not if you were the one who asked for a kiss. That’s what he tells himself, at least.
“Shit!” you hiss while you collapse back down on the bed with a heavy thump. Your body’s starting to give out. Mind’s been gone for a while, now; there’s no way you remember what that fight earlier was about. Perfect. Just where he wants you. Should be enough to buy him at least a couple days of peace. A couple days of not having to worry about you wanting to break up with him and him losing all his motivation to live.
Clark smiles. Pulls back just enough to speak to you. When he pushes his thumbs against each of your folds and spreads you open, your whimpered response is telling him you’ve got tears in your eyes. You cant your hips up, bucking and squirming for him to give you more.
How are you still begging for more when you’ve had so much already? Maybe he’s not the only selfish one here.
“Look at the mess you made. Love it when she’s cryin’ for me like this, baby. Can’t believe I get to call this perfect little pussy all mine. How’d I get so lucky?”
He pushes his filthy words into your thighs between kisses as though he’s praying to you. He is, in a way. Praying that you won’t leave him. Praying that he’ll get to keep you if he’s good enough at worshipping the altar of your body.
Those kisses slowly trail up your hips, your waist, your stomach. Each time he makes contact with you, he feels the goosebumps on your skin. Feels the way you shiver, the way you’re still weak for him even though he hasn’t kissed you in what feels like an eternity.
He wants to kiss you. Wants to push you a little further. Wants you to go completely dumb so that you don’t have to think about how mad you are at him. So that, if he’s lucky, you’ll forget about everything altogether and just love him the way he loves you. Without hesitation. Without regret.
For now, he refrains. Kisses up to your chest and sucks one peaked, sensitive nipple into his mouth while his thumb teases the other. A gentle back and forth swipe, one that he drew on your bottom lip just a little while earlier.
He stops his kisses when he reaches your jaw. Tilts his head away from you when you try to kiss him. Nearly dies from the tiny, sad noise you push out when he doesn’t give you what you want. Clears his throat and gently spreads your legs with one knee. Somewhere along the way, he slipped his hand down to your overstimulated clit, and he earns a cute little moan from you when he starts tracing soft circles on it.
“Gonna let me use her one more time, honey?”
“Last time,” you confirm while spreading your legs wider for him. You nod. “One last time.”
Clark stills. Lifts his head so he can actually meet your eyes for the first time since this has all started. It’s a miracle that they’re still open. What’s not a miracle, though, is how your irises have started to return.
His blood chills. Threatens to freeze in his veins and render him useless. How long has it been since that aphrodisiac wore off?
“Last time? You don’t mean that,” he mutters. The way his voice went up an octave is embarrassing. How could five words make him panic so quickly?
“I told you I wanted to take a break,” you counter. Your arms wrap around his shoulders and your fingers play with the curls at the nape of his neck. Clark’s face starts to burn. Whether it’s from embarrassment, panic, or anger, he doesn’t exactly know.
“You didn’t mean it when you said that, either.”
He sighs. He knows what he has to do. He didn’t think it’d ever get this far, but if it means keeping you, it’s getting done.
He steels himself and sends you a fake smile. You probably clocked it. He’s never been good at faking them with you. He brushes some of your hair off of your forehead and lowers his face towards yours. His voice is a whisper when he finds it again.
“We’ll talk about it later.”
You huff at him. Press your lips into a thin line but turn toward his palm when it slides down your cheek. Soon enough, his thumb is gliding over your lip again. He always seems to find it. This time, though, he’s got a reason.
He swipes it back and forth. Gentle. Unassuming. Considers it a win when you tilt your chin up for him to continue the tiny, comforting movement. He regains some confidence in his voice now that he’s accepted his fate and knows what he has to do here.
“Be a good girl and open up for me, baby,” he commands while he drags his thumb down your chin. For someone who wants a break so badly, you comply immediately. The smile he sends you is genuine, this time.
“That’s it. Just like that, sweetheart.”
As soon as you’ve got your mouth open, chin tilted up, he does it. He stares into your eyes as he lets a single, heavy dribble of his saliva fall onto your tongue. Just enough of it to bump up the concentration of the aphrodisiac without knocking you out completely.
“Swallow,” he coos when he closes your mouth for you. Smiles when you do as he says without skipping a beat.
“Atta girl.”
When he finally tears his focus away from your mouth to look at your entire face, he sees everything he wants:
summary - clark saves you just in time, but you don't make him aware of the extent of your injuries
pairing - dcu!clark kent x gf!reader
word count - ~2.5k
Your ears were still buzzing as you stumbled out onto the street.
A hard body slammed into your right side, distorting you more than you already felt. Your eyes tried to stay open as you adjusted to the hazy sun and the thick dust swarming the air around you.
Somebody screamed behind you, which caused a chain of people to start screaming.
You turned around on wobbly feet, and noticed the building behind you topple forwards. Your jaw dropped to gasp but the dust invaded instead, causing you to choke and cough.
People were running towards you - trying to run away from the collapsing building.
Regardless of the fact you couldn’t hear still, you forced one foot in front of the other and tried your best to get out of there. You broke into a run when reality started to settle around you. If you didn’t run fast enough you weren’t getting out of this alive.
The building continued to fall and fast.
You listened to Clark’s voice in your head telling you to always run facing towards, and never to look back. So you did.
You were so determined to run forwards, however, you stumbled on a bit of road debris and went flying onto the floor. Your hands broke your fall, grazing harshly over the ground, before your knees went down too.
You screamed in pain as something dug into your side as you fell down.
Another cough broke from you as you began to pick yourself back up, only to look back and realise you’d never make it in time now.
You closed your eyes and waited for impact - for the end.
That was until a sudden impact hit you from the side, swooping you fast to the side and then up into the air. All you felt was the sudden wind and overwhelming relief.
Clark.
You held your arms tight around him and nuzzled your face into his neck. Yes. It was definitely him - you could tell by the faint remnants of his cologne.
“I’ve got you.” He said, still flying fast.
He must have looped in the air because your stomach dropped quickly. You held on a little bit tighter, but so did Clark.
You felt Clark’s body settle and the wind lighten, meaning that he had landed, but you still didn’t let go or move your face from the safety of his body.
“It’s okay. I’ve got you.” Clark whispered into your hair. “I’ve got you.” He kept repeating to himself, almost like he was trying to convince himself that he’d made it in time and you were safe.
Your heart was catching up to the insanity of the situation, beating too fast for comfort.
You knew that Clark was needed elsewhere though, because you weren’t the only civilian in Metropolis. You needed him, but so did everyone else.
Pulling away from the comfort and security of his neck was scary, but you knew he had to leave. You didn’t want to be the reason that someone else ended up with the same fate that you nearly did.
“Let me see you.” Clark said, placing his hands delicately on your cheeks. His big, blue, eyes scanned over your face to check you didn’t have any signs of concussion.
“Yo-You’ve got dirt on your nose.” Your words were shaky, but you tried to remain strong for Clark.
As much as you wanted to cry, you couldn’t fall apart when the world still needed him.
Clark offered a small smile, but couldn’t hide the worry on his face.
You lifted a hand to brush over his nose, not really wiping any dirt away, “You need to go.” Your words were soft and whispered amongst the chaos of the city.
“But…”
“I’m okay.” You nodded.
Clark nodded too. He knew he had to, but leaving you was hard enough when it came to simply waking up before you let alone after a traumatic event.
“I love you.” He said, kissing you carefully - like he was scared of damaging you any further.
“I love you too. Now, go.”
“Be careful.” Clark let go of you and you felt the absence of his touch deep in your bones.
“You too, Superman.”
Clark smiled before shooting off into the sky, no doubt to save more people, deal with whatever inter-dimensional beast was causing havoc in the city and do what he does best which is serve the people of Earth.
After watching Clark turn into no more than a smudge in the sky, you took a moment to locate yourself.
Of course.
You were on the roof of a tall building. One day you’ll manage to get Clark to let you down on solid ground, rather than potential toppling buildings.
Sighing, you opened the door to the roof staircase and started the long journey down them. There was no way that you were taking the lift even if this old building did have one - especially not when the city is this unstable.
You’d made it down three flights of stairs when your vision went fuzzy and your entire right side of your body burst with pain.
“Gahh.”
You scrunched over in pain, gripping a hand onto the staircase for support whilst the other went to your side. The hand that landed there felt the area to be wet, so you focused your vision and brought your fingers closer to your eyes.
Oh.
Blood.
Your fingers were covered in fresh, bright-red, blood. You looked down at your t-shirt under your jacket and noticed the now growing stain of red.
That’s when you noticed the pain in your side increase tenfold.
“Gnnghh.”
Your legs wobbled beneath you, since you’d never been that good around blood. Funny, considering that your boyfriend came home at least once a week covered in blood from beating up some intergalactic alien or stopping the local robberies.
You took a moment to breathe and slowly looked over the staircase bannister to see how far you had to go down, only to not even be able to clearly see the bottom. Fantastic.
You knew you had to keep going.
Clark would come looking for you eventually, but he had other important things to do too.
If you could just move it down another couple flights, then assess how you are…
Just need to stand up…
And keep….
Eyes….
Everything faded to black.
The steady sound of a beeping machine woke you up.
Your eyes peeled open in their own time, but once you were fully awake and took note of your white-walled surroundings you started to recall what happened.
You were in a hospital bed which was less uncomfortable than you would’ve thought. The bright lights in the room were a little jarring, the smell was slightly antiseptic and your body was sore but other than that everything was okay.
Tilting your head to the side you understood why your right hand felt a little extra warm.
Clark was holding onto you tight.
His thumb brushed over the back of your hand rhythmically, like it was the only thing calming him.
His eyes locked straight onto yours. He looked tired and distraught. The redness of his eyes, along with the puffiness, told you he had been crying.
“Hey.” Your voice came out croaky.
“Hi.” Clark tried to smile.
“What’s with the tears?”
Clark scoffed through a laugh, turning his gaze away from yours so he could hide the fact that he was close to crying again.
“Honey…” You tried softly.
Clark shook his head, looking at the blank wall instead of you. You watched as he bit his lip, literally biting back the emotion that threatened to tip out.
“Clark, baby, breathe.”
Hearing your voice must have triggered something within him, because he hiccuped a couple of sobs out. You let him breathe and take his time. You were right there and not in any rush, so he could have as many minutes to destress as he needed.
“Ah, you’re awake!”
You looked towards the open door and there stood Clark’s parents. Seeing them was practically its own form of healing.
“Hey.”
Clark cleared his throat like he was trying to compose himself, but Martha ignored him and focused on you.
“We just went out to grab Clark sum’n to eat. He’s not eaten since he brought you here.” Martha tutted, walking around the opposite side of the bed to Clark and unpacked her plastic grocery bag.
“He’s as bad a worrier as me.” Jon added, making you smile.
Clark’s hand stayed firmly on yours, his thumb continuing to rub over your skin.
“I also brought you a smelly thing for the room,” Martha pulled out an air-freshener, “Needs a bit of… sum’n in here.”
Couldn’t argue there.
“She shopped like she thought you’d be here forever.”
You knew Jon was joking, which was why you laughed again. Clark on the other hand didn’t seem to find it funny, and instead stood up from the chair with a loud, grating, noise and walked out of the room without saying anything.
You almost wanted to apologise for his behaviour, but knew that his parents would understand.
“I’ll go talk to him.” Jon shuffled out of the room.
“Sorry.” You said.
“Hey, don’t you start apologisin’ for Clark’s behaviour.” Martha lightly scolded you.
“He means well.”
“I know he does.” Martha smiled and took her hand in yours, “My boy loves you so much. Probably more than he loves his Ma or Pa. Which is why he can’t comprehend losing you. Where would that love go if he didn’t have you? Hm? He’s scared and he doesn’t like that, because he thinks that he’s just big ol’ Superman. But when it comes to you, he’s just Clark. He’s just a boy, who loves a girl so much that it scares him”
You felt a tear run down your cheek.
“I d-don’t want him to be scared.”
“I know, but he’s gonna be. Especially when it comes to you.”
That both warmed you and your worried you.
“Thanks for being here Martha.”
“Oh, anytime, you know that.” She smiled.
Martha let go of your hand and began rummaging through her bag again. It made you happy to see her treating you like she always does and not tiptoeing around you because of your current situation.
“Did the doctors say anything?”
“Sure. They said that you were lucky that Clark found you when he did. Carried you all the way from that building to the hospital doors, he did. Well, he might’ve flown along the way.” She laughed to herself, “Doctors said you’ll be fine. Some rubble had punctured your side, but they stitched you up just fine. Might be bruised and sore for a week, but i’m sure our Clark will be there for you every single day.”
Whilst it was good to hear you were alright, your kind couldn’t but wander to Clark.
You just wanted him to come back so you could hold him and reassure him you were okay. It was obvious that he wasn’t upset with anyone but himself - no doubt beating himself up over something not even he could control.
Martha finished pulling snacks out of her bag and then informed you she was going to find a doctor.
Left alone in the room you had a moment to take life in.
Breathe.
You told yourself to just breathe.
Everything could have ended today. Everything.
No more sunrises. No more commuting to work. No more gossiping with friends. No more coming home to Clark… No more Clark.
Your breath hitched over that last thought.
Breathe.
You wiped beneath your eyes quickly when Clark walked back into the room, Jon and Martha just outside whilst they waited to catch a doctors attention.
“Hey. Are you okay?” You asked him.
Clark rounded the hospital bed and sat on it this time, rather than the chair, and leaned down carefully to kiss you.
His lips were soft and he cradled your face so carefully, but you could tell by the force of his lips on yours that he was desperate to show you that he was here - that he loved you. So, you kissed him back with just as much love.
Clark’s nose nudged against yours, his hand so gentle against the skin of your cheek.
You pushed your head back into the pillow so you could pull away slightly, needing a moment to breathe.
“I love you. So much.” He whispered, his breath touching yours.
“I know.” You smiled, leaning back up to kiss him again. This time only a short peck - your lips making a smacking noise as his lips left yours. “And I love you.”
Your vision was just Clark. His large frame completely blocked out the rest of the room and for that you were grateful.
Anytime he was the only thing in focus, was when you felt most calm and comforted.
“I’m sorry for running out.”
“It’s okay. This is a lot.” You gestured to yourself and the room.
Clark nodded, “Still. I’m sorry. I need to be here for you, I know that.”
“And you are.” You added quickly. “You always are, Clark. Just let me be there for you too.”
Clark smiled and kissed you again, turning your entire body on like it was being charged with electricity.
No one had ever made you feel like Clark.
No one ever would.
After being discharged from the hospital, Clark made sure to help you be signed off from work for a week. Thanks to Perry owning Clark time off, it meant that you could both go to Kansas for the week.
You were coming back from walking Krypto when Clark pulled up in front of his parents house.
“You’re supposed to be on bed rest.” Clark said, shutting the door of his truck behind him.
“I was,” You approached him slowly, “Until my boyfriend left me and I escaped.”
“Escaped?” Clark raised his eyebrows.
“Yeah. Your arms were the cage.”
“Uhuh.”
“I broke free.”
“Sure you did.” Clark nodded, quickly reaching out his arm and pulling you in closely all whilst being careful of you still.
You gasped from the sudden movement, but not from shock because when it came to Clark you were used to moves like this.
Clark leaned down to kiss you and you let him. His head tilted so he could kiss you with ease, earning a soft moan from you when his lips and hands moved just right.
“That was punishment for breaking out the house.” Clark mumbled against your lips, going in for a second and third kiss.
“Doesn’t seem like much of a punishment.” You smirked.
Clark moved away slightly, “It’s cause you’ve turned me soft.”
“Like your Pa. Big ol’ mush, as Martha says.” You teased.
“Something like that.” Clark kissed you once more and then distanced himself by a fraction of an inch, so he could assess you and your body, “Are you okay, though?”
“Yes.”
“You’d tell me otherwise?”
“I promise.”
“Okay.”
“I feel so much better than a few days ago.” You reached both hands up to link around his neck, meaning you perched up on your tip-toes. “I think it’s your kisses. They make me feel better.”
“Oh do they?” Clark smiled.
“Mhm.”
Clark scooped you up in arms with a laughing squeal from you.
the other man (clark kent x fem!reader) -- one shot
I saw Superman twice in one week so it is absolutely no surprise that I had to write a lil silly goofy one shot!! (I don't want to promise anything but I might write more for him aka some smut bc THE VOICES!!!!)
Warnings: angst, being stood up, this fic made me giggle a lot, fluffy + happy end!
Summary: You think Clark is seeing someone else. That someone? Superman.
WC: 4.7k!
You watch, miserably, as the clock ticks past the time Clark said he’d be here to pick you up for dinner. He’s always late for work, so, you think, five minutes past is fine. Until it’s ten. Until it’s twenty. Until it’s forty-five. Until you’re taking your shoes off, changing into sweatpants, and taking off your makeup.
It shouldn’t surprise you, it really shouldn’t. Though this was supposed to be your first date, it isn’t the first time Clark has mysteriously canceled plans, or promised to meet you somewhere and not shown, sending a text instead to say he can’t make it.
Like clockwork, you hear your phone buzz. You don’t even grace it with a glance. You know it’s Clark, apologizing for needing to cancel. It’s fine.
It probably wasn’t even meant to be a date, it just seemed like it might be. It was the first time the plans included him picking you up rather than the two of you meeting somewhere. It was the first time a reservation had been made at this tiny little restaurant the two of you always passed together and always said, “We should go in there.” It was the first time he had said, though you thought it was kind of a joke, or at least not totally serious because it is a phrase people use without meaning it literally, “It’s a date.”
You grab your tub of ice cream from the freezer and a spoon, not even bothering with a bowl. You step out onto your fire escape and plop down, stabbing the ice cream with your spoon.
On the next escape over, your neighbor’s orange cat licks his paws, ears perking when he hears you.
“I sure know how to pick ‘em, eh, Lou?” you scoff, licking the ice cream off your spoon. “Why can’t I just sleep all day like you?”
Lou trills and lays his head down with a big sigh. All you can think is me too, buddy. Me too.
You eventually drag yourself inside after eating half the tub, figuring you shouldn’t eat all of it tonight. Clark will be at work tomorrow and you’ll have to face him -- and his apologies, that are, frankly, starting to get old -- so you’ll probably want that other half tomorrow night.
Before you crawl into bed, you finally give your phone a look, seeing it’s just as you expected. Clark is apologizing. Apparently Superman was fighting something and wrecked Clark’s route to get to your place. Rain check? He asked. And then, just a few minutes ago, Please?
You read them but you don’t reply. You don’t have it in you.
It’s always Superman.
That’s his excuse. It’s always Superman did this or Superman did that, and you honestly think you’ve reached your limit for Superman-related excuses. You mean, sure, the guy has saved the city countless times, and he makes sure there is minimal damage both to civilians and to the city, but why is Clark always bringing him up? He’s always interviewing him, too, and you have no idea how, because as far as you’re concerned, Superman just shows up when the day needs saving.
Not that you’re complaining, because you’re not. You’d much rather the day be saved than some monster from another planet destroy everything you’ve ever loved. You just.
You’re not jealous of a superhero. You are not.
And yet, the more you try to tell yourself that, the more it seems like you’re not convinced at all.
You bury your face into the pillow with a groan. You can’t compete with Superman. You’re you. No wonder Clark is always making excuses to cancel on plans with you. If the options were you and Superman, you’d pick him, too.
God, how did you not see it before? You never thought Clark was interested in men, but clearly he is -- which is fine, you have no problem with it, you just wish he had said it to your face instead of these vague messages and signals.
Or maybe they haven’t been that vague, you’ve just been too blind to see it. Maybe the excuses were his way of trying to politely and gently tell you he wasn’t interested, and you just weren’t getting it. That doesn’t seem like something Clark would do, because he does seem the type to tell you to your face in a direct, but not unkind, way. But still. Maybe he’s been trying to let you down easy this whole time, and you’ve been a fool, believing his excuses, and thinking nothing of them.
You can be so ridiculous sometimes.
+++
You barely sleep. Between crying and being frustrated with yourself for it and tossing and turning every five seconds, you think you manage a measly four hours of actual sleep. You know you look a complete state, but after half an hour of trying to mask it with makeup, you give up.
You stop for coffee on your way in, grabbing one for Lois too, because the coffee at The Daily Planet is…well, it’s really not coffee at all. You feel like you’re insulting all coffee by calling it that. You can hardly stomach it even with all the sugar Lois pours in it.
“Rough night?” the doorman asks when he sees you still have your sunglasses on.
You flash a tight smile, knowing he means well. “Yeah, you could say that.”
He winces. “I’m sorry, kid.”
“It’s alright,” you wave him off, handing him a doughnut. You had meant to eat it, but truthfully, you’re already feeling nauseous. “Here.”
He accepts it with a smile. You head into the newsroom, spotting Jimmy hunched over his desk and Lois looking up at you with a smile that quickly morphs into an alarmed expression.
You, like a fool, had told her about your “date” with Clark. And you, like an idiot, had forgotten until this exact moment that you had told her.
God, you should’ve called in sick.
“Hey,” she says gently, joining you at your desk. “How’d it go last night?”
You let out a weak laugh. “It didn’t, so.”
Her eyes widen. “What happened?”
You hand off her coffee to her with a shrug. “He canceled. Said something about Superman fighting something, I don’t know, I--” You shake your head, bringing your coffee to your lips. “I didn’t answer his texts.”
“He didn’t even call?”
You shake your head again, finally working your sunglasses off the bridge of your nose. “Be honest, how red do my eyes look?”
Lois tilts her head with a sad smile. “Noticeable.”
You snort. “Thanks, Lois.” You expected nothing less from her. “Do me a favor, when he comes in-- if he comes in, tell him I lost my voice or something?”
Her eyes dart to the side and she grimaces. “I don’t think that’ll work. What about if I punch him instead?”
You let out another laugh. Thank God you have Lois. “Why not? Go for it.”
She doesn’t, though the look she gives Clark might as well be lethal when he comes silently walking over to your desk, looking every bit the role of a kicked puppy.
“Hi,” he says quietly. He’s well over six-foot tall, but right now he looks half that. You don’t know if you find comfort in it or not. “Apology coffee? You’ve already got one, but I thought…well, I know you like it, so, here.” He places it on your desk. “I have an apology croissant, too, if that’ll help, I just-- I’m really sorry.”
You offer a smile, but it doesn’t reach your eyes, and it kind of hurts to even pretend. “Thanks. Don’t worry about it.”
He makes a pained noise, opening his mouth, his lips already forming your name, but you shake your head at him. Jimmy calls out to him with some joke and you focus back on your notes, hoping he’ll get the hint. He does.
You watch out of the corner of your eye as Clark crowds into his desk chair, and you try to get some work done.
Every word you write sounds wrong, and even the edits you make to Jimmy’s piece are complete crap -- and you tell him so in your apologetic email back to him. He asked for your help and instead he got…whatever that was.
It doesn’t help that you can practically feel Clark looking at you all wistful and sad, and you really don’t understand it. Why is he so bothered by your mood if he’s seeing someone else? Shouldn’t he be relieved that you finally got the hint? It only took it being a bright neon sign smacking you square across the nose, but you’ve got it now. Clark just doesn’t see you in that way, and that’s fine. You just wish he had enough guts to say that to your face, but it’s fine. It doesn’t really matter. The date never happened, so the two of you never “dated,” therefore he owes you nothing. It’s fine.
Except, it’s not fine, because your eyes are burning from never moving them from your computer screen, your head hurts from having only had caffeine all morning and no food, and you really wish Clark would stop looking at you.
Lunch is a nightmare, but the food does help. Clearly your blue mood has gone noticed by, well, everyone because Jimmy buys your sandwich and Perry gives you an extension on the piece you should’ve turned into him by the end of today. Lois acts a bit like a protective shield, talking to you about her piece and asking Very Important questions, even glaring at Clark when he tries to interject.
The end of the day can’t come fast enough, and you’re gathering your things and scrambling out of there before anyone can catch up. You think.
Because then you’re halfway down the sidewalk and you hear someone calling your name, someone whose voice sounds suspiciously like the person you least want to speak to right now.
Tears are springing to your eyes because they’re burning from staring at a screen and you’re just so tired. You just want to eat the rest of your ice cream and go to bed. You just want to ignore Clark for the rest of the week, or at least until he admits to your face that he’s seeing someone else and didn’t know how to let you down easily. You just want this day to be over.
“Wait! Wait up! Ple-- Sorry! Please!”
You stop dead in your tracks in the middle of the sidewalk, tilting your head toward the sky. You compose yourself and turn around just in time to see Clark dodging all the people and nearly tripping and falling over in the process of trying to reach you. He exhales in relief when he sees you’ve stopped to wait for him.
“Hey,” he breathes, pushing his glasses up onto his nose as he skids to a stop in front of you. “Are you-- Did you see my messages last night?”
You chuckle without meaning to, and his eyebrows furrow. “Yeah, Clark, I saw them.”
All around you, people move on the sidewalk, heading home, parting for the two of you when you wish they’d carry you away like a riptide.
“Can we-- Sorry,” he steps out of the way of someone else, moving closer to you in the process. “Can we try again? Tonight?”
It’s tempting, you admit, to agree and go somewhere with him right now. Because he’s right in front of you. Because you know he’d make it if you two go right now, together.
But you know it’s not where he really wants to be.
“No,” you shake your head. “It’s okay. We don’t have to.”
He frowns, adjusting the strap on his bag. “But I want to.”
Do you? You want to ask, but you don’t. Instead, you give him a sad smile. “I’ll see you tomorrow, Clark. Have a good night.”
Just like that, you disappear into the crowd, and even with all his might, Clark can’t seem to find you.
+++
Things go back to normal. Kind of. Mostly. Sort of.
Clark keeps bringing “apology coffee” as he calls it, and if it weren’t for the jet fuel they try to say is coffee at Daily Planet, then you might tell him to stop. But you don’t. You accept each cup with a smile, and dodge all of his questions expertly.
He still comes in late, and he still blames it on Superman. The two of you have a standing hang out at a museum in the city every month, but this time you cancel before he can. It feels cruel, doing it when you have no real reason to, but you can’t bring yourself to leave your apartment and hang out with him when your feelings are so obviously unrequited.
He does another interview with Superman. You try not to turn your nose up at it.
It’s awkward, this new air about your friendship with Clark. It’s tense. You can tell he wants to ask you about it, to ask about another raincheck maybe, but he never does. You don’t know what you’d say if he did.
It comes to a head when you cancel on yet another standing hang out the two of you have, using feeling sick as an excuse this time, and Clark just won’t let it go.
Can I bring you some soup? Tissues?
I’m fine, you tell him. Just need to sleep, that’s all.
He texts something else, but you don’t reply. You lay on the couch in front of your TV and shovel pretzels into your mouth in between sips of coffee -- that you definitely shouldn’t be drinking this late, but you don’t care.
You’re jolted from your stupor when you hear knocking on your door. Knocking that you know, unmistakably, is Clark.
You debate faking sleep until he goes away. But you can’t quite bring yourself to do it.
So, you wrap a blanket around your shoulders and answer your door.
“Clark?” you croak. It’s a weak -- and honestly awful -- attempt to fake being ill, but it’s all you’ve got. “What are you doing here?”
“I brought soup,” he says innocently, holding up the takeaway containers. “Your favorite, from the place down the street. And some, ah, bread, tissues, pain medicine, cough syrup-- You didn’t answer, so I went a little crazy at the store,” he says with a sheepish smile, holding up the grocery bag that is nearly bursting with cold remedies. “Can I come in?”
“Sure, but I’m just,” you clear your throat, half from your act and half from emotion clawing at your windpipe from him being so sweet, “watching TV and dozing.”
“I won’t stay long,” he promises. “Just want to make sure you’re okay.”
“I’m fine, Clark.”
He narrows his eyes in what you hope is a playful manner. “I don’t believe you.”
You let him inside with a sigh, retreating to the couch. He can probably tell you aren’t really sick, and he’s probably just being nice by not calling you out on it.
You hear the rustling in the kitchen as he puts things away and then as he pours a glass of water that you think is for himself, until he sets it down in front of you. He sits in the chair beside your couch, clasping his hands together and looking at the floor instead of you.
“You’re not really sick, are you?”
His voice is timid, and a bit hurt. Like he’s upset you’re lying to him and he can’t figure out why you’re doing it, but he sort of has an idea.
“What gave me away?” you chuckle bitterly. “My brilliant acting?”
“You never drink coffee when you’re sick,” he says seriously, nodding to your cup. “It’s how I know when you’re not feeling good.”
You blink. You hadn’t expected that answer, let alone the fact that he would notice something like that. “Oh.”
“What’s going on?” he asks desperately, finally looking up at you, and why are his eyes glassy? “I miss my best friend. We used to talk every day, but ever since that dinner--”
“That you stood me up for,” you remind him, the words leaving your lips before you can stop them and, as a result, having a bit more heat behind them than you want them to.
“I know, but I--” He wrings his hands, the words getting caught in his throat. “I’m sorry, I-- It was Superman! He was fighting, and it was everywhere--”
“Oh my God, Clark, it’s always Superman,” you laugh, not necessarily at him, but maybe you are. It’s cruel, but it hurts, the way he keeps dragging this out. “It’s always Superman destroyed the train or Superman--”
“Because he is! He’s keeping the city safe, but sometimes that means he’s--”
“Clark, stop it,” you turn your entire body toward him, giving him a look. “I know.”
He freezes, stutters, starts. He pushes his glasses up on his nose, his blue eyes wide behind the lenses. “You know?”
You nod. “You don’t need to keep lying to me. I’ll keep your secret. I just wish you had told me first, you know?”
He chuckles awkwardly, shaking his head. “I just-- I wasn’t sure how you’d react, and--”
“I don’t care that you’re dating him, Clark,” you interject, a small smile creeping onto your lips. “It’s cute, actually.”
He blinks, opens his mouth, shuts it again. Opens it. “Wait.” He tilts his head, smiles a little. “You-- What?”
“Come on, it’s obvious!” you start to grin from the sheer absurdity of it. “You’re always getting interviews with him when he won’t do an interview with literally anyone else! And you’re always talking about him, always defending his actions and defending him when Jimmy makes a joke about him! You don’t need to be ashamed of it, I mean, I know the two of you probably can’t be public about your relationship, obviously, but--”
Clark says your name, tries to get a word in, tries to tell you to stop and that you’ve got it all wrong, but you keep going. “Seriously, it’s fine. You don’t need to hide it, not from me at least.”
“Right. Um.” He shakes his head, laughs. “I should-- I’m gonna go.”
“Go,” you shoo him away. “I’m fine, seriously. Go spend time with your hot superhero boyfriend.”
Clark’s cheeks go pink at that, which is basically all the confirmation you need, and you giggle after him, feeling much lighter now that the truth is finally out in the open.
Once Clark leaves, you finish your coffee and search your freezer for some more ice cream. Thankfully, you have a little bit left -- you sort of stocked up on it when The Incident happened -- and you head out onto the fire escape to enjoy the night air.
“Well, hello there,” you reach down and pet Lou’s head. He rarely sleeps on your fire escape, but today is one of those days.
He’s not all that interested in the space once you’re sharing it with him, though, so you watch him scurry away to your neighbor’s fire escape and you roll your eyes after him. Typical.
It’s strange, being on the other side of it now. Sure, it still stings a little, but come on, you can’t compete with Superman. And Clark seems happy. As his friend, you should want nothing more than to see him happy.
And you do. You do want that. Even if it’s a little sad that he can’t be that happy with you. But you’re sure the sting of it will go away in time, as will the crush you have on him.
You’re enjoying the sunset and your ice cream, still laughing to yourself in slight disbelief about Clark and Superman when the latter flies in front of you.
Your spoon clatters onto the metal stairs, scaring Lou and yourself shitless. Superman, however, floats in front of you, unfazed.
“Um,” you come up empty in the words department. You have no clue what to say to your friend’s boyfriend who is also a metahuman who you also, up until about half an hour ago, felt ridiculously jealous of. “Hi?”
“Hello,” Superman replies, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. He gestures to the empty space beside you. “Do you mind if I…?”
“Oh! Not at all.” You stand up and step to the side, and Superman takes up every bit of the free space. “Look, if this is about you and Clark--”
Superman laughs, the sound light and airy coming from such a large man. “It’s not about me and Clark-- Well, I guess it kind of is.”
“I won’t tell anyone, I promise!” You hold up your right hand as if you’re swearing before a court, your left hand still holding onto the now-melting ice cream. “Actually, should we go inside? Should we be, you know,” you lower your voice, “talking about your relationship out in the open?”
He chuckles again. “Sure, let’s go inside, if that’s okay with you?”
If that’s okay with you. Of course it’s fine, even if a bit weird, and where is Clark? If he went and told Superman that you know about them, why didn’t he just come back with him?
“Sorry for the mess,” you call out as you head through the living room into the kitchen to put the ice cream away. “I wasn’t feeling well,” you grimace, the lie just sounding stupid now, but you’ve said it, so.
You shut the freezer and spin around to find Superman standing in your kitchen, and on the counter next to him are…Clark’s glasses?
You roll your eyes, muttering, “Did he seriously leave these here?” But you swear you saw him leave with them on. “Wait. Is he here?”
“He is,” Superman replies, picking up the glasses and opening them. He laughs, almost only to himself, before working the frames onto the bridge of his nose.
“What are you--?” You blink and narrow your eyes, watching Superman’s face become…Clark’s? That makes no sense. Those are Clark’s glasses, and this is Superman standing in front of you. Two completely different people. “Wait, but--”
“I’m not dating Superman,” Clark, or Superman, says with an amused smile. “I am Superman.”
“But you--” You shake your head, still reeling from the fact that Clark’s face is on Superman’s body. “But you said--”
“I didn’t think you’d believe me without the suit,” Clark explains, dragging the glasses off his nose and setting them down. “You seemed pretty convinced that I was dating him.”
“What else was I supposed to think?” you cry. “You stood me up and blamed it on him!”
Clark-- Superman’s face twists up in genuine remorse. “I know, I’m sorry, and I wanted to make it up to you, but you just kept getting further and further away, until I didn’t even know if you wanted to be my friend anymore.”
“Of course I want to be your friend, Clark, I just,” you shake your head, a bout of dizziness coming over you. You rub your forehead with your fingertips. “Sorry, I don’t--”
“Shoot, no, I’m sorry, here, let’s get you to the couch.”
You have no clue what he’s sorry for, but you let him help you over to the couch all the same. The dizziness passes and you look up at him, at the bright red and blue of his suit, and the fact that he looks like Clark but doesn’t at the same time.
“I don’t usually take them off and on so much around people,” he explains. “They’re these glasses that Four made for me, so I could still have a normal life. They make my face look a little different.”
You nod slowly, because sure, yeah, makes sense, why not?
“I’m really sorry I didn’t tell you sooner,” he says, cramming himself into the same chair he was in before, but somehow, now it looks like he doesn’t quite fit. “I thought I was keeping you safe by not telling you, but then I saw how sad you were, and--” He cuts himself off, shaking his head. “I don’t ever wanna be the reason you’re crying, or frowning, or anything like that. I wasn’t thinking.”
You stare at him, at your best friend, at Superman sitting before you with such an obvious ache in his chest over you being sad, and you can’t help but smile.
“Come here,” you tell him, patting the open space next to you on the couch.
Timidly, he stands and walks over to join you, just narrowly avoiding knocking over the coffee table.
“Sorry,” he whispers, plopping down beside you with a giddy, albeit sheepish, smile.
You throw your arms around his neck, clinging to him, taking a deep breath into his neck. He smells the same as Clark, but slightly different. It’s the suit, you think, but regardless, he smells good. Familiar. Safe.
“I take it you’re not mad at me anymore?” he asks, his arms finally tightening their hesitant hold on you when you don’t let go.
You snicker into his hair, pressing a kiss to his cheek before pulling back to look at him. “I was never mad at you, Clark. It’s impossible for me to be. I was just…sad. I thought we were finally going somewhere, finally getting over ourselves and going on a date, so when that didn’t happen, I just…” You shrug, realizing now that just because he’s told you the truth about who he is doesn’t necessarily mean the two of you are going to date.
He frowns again, one hand coming up to cup your jaw, thumb stroking your cheek. “I’m sorry,” he says again, fingertips grazing your own frown lines and furrowed brows. “I should’ve told you a long time ago.”
“It’s fine,” you murmur, peeling yourself off of him with a little smile that can’t figure out if it wants to be sad or not. “I can’t imagine that you’ve told anyone else.”
“Ma and Pa know,” he says. Then, with a grimace, he adds, “And…Lois.”
“Lois?” you lean away from him. “Lois knows?”
“Only because she figured it out and confronted me one day after work!” he rushes to explain. “She had connected the same dots as you did, except,” he pauses to laugh, “instead of assuming I was dating him, she figured we were the same person. But I told her she couldn’t tell anyone, no matter what.”
You understand that. It’s his secret to share after all, but still. She didn’t even try to defend him once when you told her that he stood you up. She seemed so angry with him on your behalf that you assumed it was for that reason alone.
“If it helps,” Clark lets out a sheepish chuckle, scratching the back of his neck, “she threatened me quite a lot when I told her I hadn’t told you yet.”
That causes you to bark out a laugh. “Why?”
“Because she knows I like you. A lot. It’s embarrassing, honestly, or she tells me it is,” he smiles. “Apparently I uh, looked like a kicked puppy when you wouldn’t talk to me that day.”
You giggle at that, having had the exact same thought. “Yeah, you did.”
“Well,” he breathes, like he’s psyching himself up. “Can I have that raincheck now?”
You hum, trying and failing to tuck the stray curl on his forehead back with the rest of his hair. When it falls back down defiantly, you smile. “Depends. Can we work around your saving-the-world schedule?”
“We can,” he says with a firm nod. “I can be flexible. Can I ask another question?”
You lean your arm onto the back of the couch, your palm cradling your head. “Sure.”
“Can I kiss you?” he asks softly. “Or should we wait until after our date?”
You shake your head. “I don’t think I can wait that long.”
“Thank goodness,” he breathes, leaning forward, one arm snaking around your waist. “Me either. But if you had wanted to, obviously I would’ve, I just wanted to ask first--”
“Clark,” you laugh.
“Yeah?”
“Just kiss me.”
He grins then, and you pull him in despite it, both of you a giggling mess through the first kiss that has been months in the making. After so long of dancing around one another -- in more ways than one, you come to realize -- you’re finally holding his face gently, finally kissing him slow and sweet like honey, and his arms are snaking around you, pulling you into him, almost into his lap entirely.