Nostalgia, Dreams and Reality
So these past few days have been a lot more... let’s go with enjoyable and memorable than they have been in a long time.
If you’re reading this, you probably know me to some extent and know that I’m not a depressive or melancholy person. Sometimes you just slip into a routine and forget to live the life that is right in front of you.
That’s exactly how I’ve felt since September. I haven’t been living my life to the fullest and that’s a damn shame.
For reasons, that I do not need to or want to get into, I had to learn to be myself once again.
You are probably wondering, “How do you get to know yourself? You are yourself?”
Well it is a lot more complicated (and simple) than that. I think I’ll get into this on another blog post.
Back to the present and past few days.
It all started with a SWAMP meeting where I got to hang out and talk with some old friends that I hadn’t really taken the time to converse with in about 3 years.
It was nice and maybe kick started a series of events that would make me question what year it was.
On Friday, I got to enjoy the fine sounds of a band that basically jump started Bebop Media and provided an outlet for me to do my media thing.
The Conglomerate, and all those dudes, played a reunion show in Downtown Bryan and I shot probably my final concert in this town. What a fitting way to end my time here. Then I got to hang out and just enjoy the evening.
It was literally like nothing had changed and all these guys that I played music with while an undergrad just made things feel right again.
It almost felt like 2012 again. The nostalgia bug was alive and well, but I took a great deal away from it all.
I remembered how to live in the moment and love who I am.
That’s such a cliche but I feel a sense of calm that I haven’t felt in years.
This naturally has carried over into my everyday life.
On Sunday evening, I went to a mic check slam poetry/pie event with a few good friends.
It was so enjoyable and also a bit nostalgic.
The chilly evening air at Revolution in Bryan took me back a few years.
In that moment, I knew that I didn’t have to live in the past. That this was happening right now.
And I was enjoying it and soaking up every minute.
So I did what any rational person who lives in the moment would do in this situation...
I signed up for the open mic section and began to write a piece to perform on my phone.
Yeah, slightly crazy, right?
But I wasn’t scared and I knew just what to write.
So I took the stage and talked about what has been on my mind all these months.
I got a good response but that’s not why I did it.
And that felt good. Great even.
I took the stage for me and did not worry what people thought.
That’s who I want to be again.
I’m not entirely there yet but it is a start.
I’m going to be who I want to be and it will be great.
So thanks to everyone this weekend who helped me get back to the right path that I belong on.
It means much more than I ever can express.
