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Lena felt guilty.Â
That wasnât new. Sheâd grown up a Luthor and all the legacy that came with it an, honestly, Lena would rather feel guilty about that over the alternative; that arrogant certainty that whatever a Luthor did, it was the right choice no matter who or what got hurt as a result or haw many laws it broke.Â
No, what was new was that this time Lena felt guilty about doing her job and doing it well, something she normally took great pride in because unlike the rest of her family, Lena held herself to a moral code. Or tried to, anyway, which was more than could be said for her adoptive mother or her brother. But Lenaâs problem didnât come from her criminal relatives, it came from the reason why she was working to being with. When sheâd handed Sam the reigns of L Corp, it had been with some regret, true, but with confidence that she was making the right decision; both in stepping back from L Corp so that questions of her morality wouldnât overshadow all sheâd done to undo the damage Lex had done in his mad quest to âsave earth from alien invadersâ and in her choice of replacement.Â
Sam was more than capable of filling her shoes and more over she deserved the chance to sit in the big chair. At least... she had been. Hence Lenaâs guilt. Sheâd forgotten how much she loved running L corp in the heady rush of stepping into the new challenge of overseeing Cat Co and now that she was back at L Corp a part of her was thrilled to be back. But the only reason she was back was because Sam was- Because Sam wasnât-
Because Sam was sick. Sam was sick and no one knew what was wrong with her. And yes, that might have been part of the reason why Lena was glad to be back at L Corp because it helped keep her mind off the subject of her oldest friendâs health but that only added to her guilt.
So Lena felt guilty... and she had no idea what to do about it. None of Samâs test had lead anywhere, none of her exams had provided any clue what was affecting her, what was behind her lost time. Nothing. Lena had nothing to go on. Nothing she could research. Nothing she could do to make things better, to make Sam better. She had the combined resources of one of the largest corporations on the planet and all of its various and numerous subsidiaries to draw on and absolutely no idea what to do with any of it.
Except feel guilty. And she couldnât share any of this with anyone because the only people she was close enough to share it with were Sam herself, who really didnât need all of this dumped on her, and Kara who had enough to deal with with her ex back in town and married no less. And historically that wouldnât be a problem because Lena was used to carrying all of her issues alone; even with Sam there had been a strict separation between personal and personal until Kara entered her life and now she missed having that outlet which, you guessed it, left her feeling guiltier.Â
It was a vicious cycle, really. But just because Lena couldnât do anything to fix Sam, didnât mean she couldnât do anything to alleviate some of her guilt. Like, say, show up at Samâs apartment with ingredients for a full five course meal and a pair of master chefs to make it.Â
Now if she could just get Sam to answer her door.Â










