have gone from 7 days of support a week
to 2 days this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (If even my person can come friday!!! Otherwise just 1 day holy fucking shit)
while i'm already neck deep in psychotic episode and everything is on fire and i'm so behind and suicidal
Days without support work mean:
Can barely get food, usually just maybe a protein shake and small no-prep snacks. One meal a day if I can even manage that of something shitty and microwavable.
Cannot leave house
Cannot make phone calls, send emails, have appointments
Cannot get meds, bother doctors about meds, pick up meds, make pharmacy fill meds. Leading to even more delays and missed doses.
Oops I didn't take my morning meds because no one was here to make me eat and take them! Now i'm 3 hours late and literally only remembered because writing this post!!!
Cannot order groceries, so yet another day of trying to make do with none of my safe foods
cannot take care of my pets effectively (if partner has lower pain later they will come help)
Can't do PT
Cannot do literally any house chores like dishes or laundry or anything
Cannot care for basic needs, leading to hours of meltdown, self harm, and destruction
Nothing that needs to happen to make my life work can happen!!!!!!!!!!
Literally imagine making a plan for your day but literally all of it relies on external support and then have that external support yanked away first thing in the monring.
Now good luck! Don't kill yourself!
And then finding out it's not 1 of 7 days i'm missing, it's fucking 4 of 7.
[Note: I am very lucky in that I don't literally die without support - i am low end of medium support needs, and while I greatly suffer without support, and it greatly impacts my health, I am lucky enough to not be in the position where missing this many days of support will literally kill me, like it would do for many for my more disabled siblings. As shitty and dangerous as it is for me, it is different than for people who literally die without support.]
