#sv anon

[vh-vulvicryptid]

I think this might end up being kinda venty but I’m at a loss/don’t know what to do from here, and I’m also pretty angry, so in advance I’m genuinely sorry.

I noticed pretty early on as a kid that my genitalia didn’t look similar to the ones provided with various sex ed materials I was given, but all the information I got during all of my sex ed experiences was “every vagina looks different <3!!” So I just figured mine was ‘normal’ but as an adult I’m not so sure about that. The issue is I’ve never seen either a diagram or a photo or ANYTHING that looks like what I’ve got. Like my stuff isn’t super similar to any perisex diagrams, and every time I try to search an intersex variation I IMMEDIATELY get blasted with fucking CSAM. (which as a CSAM survivor is really fucking triggering actually!!)

So I guess I don’t really know what to do from this point. I should probably go get a gyno appointment but I want to not do that for multiple reasons. it might be unavoidable though.

(Gonna go by SV in case I end up in your ask box again. Again I’m really sorry about how venty this ask is)

no need to apologize for vents or for being angry 🫂 this blog has space for all kinds of experiences, & your anger & pain is so so justified.

also i recommend checking out interACT's medical resources (link) for patients, if you do decide to go to the gyno abt this. they have a patient self advocacy toolkit (link) thats basically a few pages you can fill out + print or otherwise bring w you to an appointment, which can help take the weight off of having to explain everything while you are there + stressed out. also their know your rights brochure (link)

best of luck to you anon 🫂 you are welcome in my ask box anytime

[meiladys-world]

Rise Against wrote, "All we are is entertainment / Caught up in our own derangement / Tell us what to say and what to do"

I'd make a few changes:

"All I am's your entertainment / Caught up in my degradation / Tell me what to say and what to do"

-SV

Oh poetic little toy. I am pretty bored right now. I do need an entertainment. Nothing too much. Just an obedient thing that will serve me with no questions and no hesitations. Tell me what are you willing to do for my amusement. What clothes are you going to wear? What position are you going to wait for me in? What phrase will you keep repeating to yourself while waiting for my orders? How obedient can you be? How willing are you to degrade yourself all for me?

[jin-guang-ow]

(sv anon) some spicy opinions for the meme: sqq doesnt love lbh romantically

I love this gif v sorry guys but it’s my fave atm

Agree!

Personally, I think the entirety of Scum Villain was uhhhh a little rushed idk? The ending didn’t quite strike me as fulfilling??? I pretty much just agree because I feel like I never had that AH-HA moment of like omg they’re totally in love with each other. Idk if it’s just because there was a lot more effort put into making it funny, so MXTX skipped that romance shit???

I don’t doubt for a second that he has amiable feelings for BingHe since he does seem to really care for him, but I never really got that “I see why Shizun has fallen for Binghe” moment? Do you guys know what I mean? Because it’s my very favorite part of romance anything!!! I get why BingHe loves Shizun (one of the first people to be v kind to him uhhh after the transmigration of course). Shizun really treasured BingHe, but it didn’t feel romantic. I feel that. I feel like the extras were much cuter than the actual story line. Again, I think there was just more effort into the funny HAHA NOW THE MC IS GAY THANKS TO STUPID SHIZUN than uhhh justifying Shizun actually loving BingHe haha.

Idk I really like MDZS and TGCF because they’re slowburn and you get all these small moments that slowly build up until the characters (pretty much just the MCs in this case) are like wooooahhhh I love that person!!!

Somehow the 6 chapters of MoShang made me believe they were v cute and could end up loving each other better than the 80+ chapters of BingBing chasing Shizun over and over and over again haha

Feel free to send me your MXTX Hot Takes and I’ll tell you if I agree or not (I probably agree honestly hahaha)

[felixeslee]

also, you dance? are you in a crew? for how long you've been doing this?? xoxo - your sv🌙

haha yes i do dance!!! i’m on two different dance teams: i’m on my school’s dance team, and a out-of-school studio dance team! alksdgjaoisdjf i started dance in like 8th grade(?) bc i stopped doing rhythmic gymnastics then (i miss doing rhythmic so much T-T) but including my years doing rhythmic gymnastics, i’ve been doing this for about 10-11 years hehe :) 

[vh-vulvicryptid]

I am so deeply confused my my anatomy 😭. I took your advice on finding the urethra, and ohhh boy. Sidenote as well, I was pretty confident that my urethra was where it is supposed to be on a perisex body and was just doing it to confirm that, but now I’m not so confident about that!

So description of it, there’s this fleshy sack that hangs down from the top of my vaginal canal, (shaped kind of like a bulbous teardrop) and it covers the canal, and is partly connected to the vagina. Overall if you don’t look too closely at it it kind of looks like there’s a piece of tissue emerging from the vagina. There’s a slim bit of tissue that connects from the sack to the top of the canal (where it turns into the vulva) and after checking multiple times it looks like my urethra exit is located just within the bounds of the vaginal canal, though because of the flesh sack thing it pokes out about a cm. Interestingly enough there’s a divot (which is painful to the touch, though most of my vulva is) where the urethra would normally go, though from what I can tell with my limited equipment, it doesn’t go very deep, or is really anything other than this odd little oval pit. The weird little fleshy ball is also very wrinkly so it’s kinda hard to tell what is a hole and what isn’t, but I might actually have 2 urethras; with a smaller hole sitting on a much larger, slit looking hole, though again, very hard to tell what’s going on.

This is actually really awesome because it might explain why I have constant pain when urinating, and also why I always had utis as a kid. I do still think I’ll go to my gp about this, just in case it’s not something more serious, but learning that my genital anatomy is different from what’s expected of me has been such a wild ride, and this seems to be only one of multiple vulva variations I have!

Might be back sometime soon but thank you for your awesome advice!

SV <3

hi SV! i'm so glad you are learning more abt your body!! im glad my advice was helpful for you :)

[meiladys-world]

Nnnngghh I'm trying so hard to think of original things to do to entertain you and not be generic but it's hard. I know I'd be humming the refrain I'd sent in the last message, for certain, but for your other questions-

I feel like your first is a trick, and that I should be wearing no clothes - make myself bare in your presence.

As for position, I don't know if you'd prefer me prone, supine, or on my knees, but I know I should be placing myself under you, subservient to you.

I'm willing to be perfectly obedient, to do anything you say at a moment's notice, and to try and learn what you like so that I may anticipate and do what you wish without having to be told.

I'm so sorry, Miss Mei, that I can't be more specific. I'm trying to be better.

-SV

I like how you know I like tricking people. And you sound pretty obedient already, what more if I train you, right? I'm pretty pleased with your attitude so it's fine if brain got too dumb. 9.5/10

[meiladys-world]

Ohhh nooo

Why :(?

-SV

Cause when I try to be kind, ppl abuse it ♡♡♡

[jin-guang-ow]

(sv anon) wwx would def call lwj daddy, lbh would try and probably get beaten to death by shizun, hc might attempt it but then xl just bluescreens

Wei WuXian calling Lan WangJi “daddy” is practically canon, that’s how much I agree with that statement.

Shang QingHua tells Luo BingHe to call Shizun “daddy”. Indeed, he does get beaten up. Later, MoBei Jun tells SQH “Call me daddy” because BingHe told him about it. Shang QingHua has many regrets (this includes having to explain why anyone would eVEN WANt to call someone daddy).

p much also agree with your view on HuaLian v tru would happen. Mischievous Hua Cheng once again shocking poor Xie Lian who really has no idea why anything happens.