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Alex Cabot/Female Reader

Summary: Margot finally meets her grandpa. Grandpa finally meets Margot.

Classification: Fluff

Warnings: None

Word count: +1200

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illicit affairs pt. 2

it doesn’t end cleanly.

it never does.

what happens instead is silence—thin, deliberate, carefully constructed silence. the kind that feels louder than shouting. sonny stops finding excuses to linger near your desk. you stop looking for him in the hallway. you both pretend the thing that lived between you didn’t leave fingerprints everywhere.

it’s a lie that takes effort to maintain.

the first time you see him after deciding to stop, it’s in court.

he’s standing at counsel table, suit pressed, voice steady, wedding band catching the light as he gestures. amanda is in the gallery, legs crossed, expression sharp and attentive. she smiles at him when he finishes a point.

you feel something inside you splinter.

because you remember his voice when it wasn’t steady. his hands when they trembled. the way he looked at you like this wasn’t supposed to happen—but did anyway.

you keep your eyes forward. you don’t look at him again.

he breaks first.

it’s late—too late—and you’re packing up to leave when you hear your name behind you. soft. careful. like he’s afraid you might turn around and disappear.

“i just wanted to make sure you were okay,” he says.

you laugh quietly, humorless. “you don’t get to ask me that anymore.”

he nods. “i know.”

there’s a pause. a heavy one.

“i miss you,” he admits, barely above a whisper.

your chest tightens. “you don’t miss me,” you say. “you miss what we were when no one was watching.”

that one lands. you see it in his face—the flinch, the guilt, the understanding.

“you’re right,” he says. “i do.”

the worst part isn’t that it’s over.

it’s that it keeps trying to start again.

a look held too long. a conversation that drifts too close to honesty. passing each other in the hallway and feeling the air change, like the room remembers even if you’re trying not to.

you start avoiding places he might be. you take different elevators. different lunch hours.

still, you know things about him you shouldn’t. when he’s lying. when he hasn’t slept. when he’s trying too hard to be good.

and he knows you too well to pretend you’re fine.

one night, you find him on the courthouse steps, staring out at the city like he’s looking for something he dropped.

“you ever feel like,” he says without looking at you, “you ruined something you didn’t even know how much you needed?”

you sit beside him, careful to leave space.

“all the time.”

he exhales. “i thought if i stopped, it would go away.”

“did it?” you ask.

he shakes his head. “it just learned how to be quiet.”

amanda notices.

not the affair—not the truth—but the distance. the way sonny is suddenly elsewhere even when he’s home. the way he flinches when his phone buzzes. the way he loves her with effort instead of ease.

you see her watching him sometimes, brows furrowed, trying to solve a problem she doesn’t know exists.

the guilt settles deeper in your bones.

you think about telling her. you think about walking away completely.

you think about how easy it would be to ruin everything.

the last time it almost happens again, it’s raining.

of course it is.

you’re under the awning outside the precinct, soaked and exhausted, when he steps beside you. too close. familiar in a way that feels dangerous.

“tell me to go,” he says. “and i will.”

you look at him. at the man who taught you how to love quietly. how to hurt carefully. how to want something you could never keep.

“go,” you say.

he hesitates. just for a second.

then he nods and steps away.

it hurts more than anything you’ve ever done.

after that, things change.

not suddenly. not dramatically.

but slowly, deliberately.

you stop waiting for him. he stops reaching for you. the looks fade. the tension dulls. the memory stays—but it loses its sharp edge.

what’s left is a quiet understanding: this was real, but it was never meant to last.

sometimes, late at night, you still think about him.

about how love can be small and devastating. about how something beautiful can exist entirely in the wrong place.

the truth doesn’t come out all at once.

it leaks—slow and corrosive—through the cracks you didn’t seal well enough. through sonny’s distance. through amanda’s questions that don’t sound like questions anymore. through the way she starts watching instead of trusting.

you feel it before it happens. the way animals sense storms.

amanda doesn’t scream when she confronts you.

she doesn’t cry.

she asks questions like a detective.

precise. controlled. devastating.

“how long?”

“where?”

“did you think about me at all?”

each answer costs you something. dignity. breath. the illusion that you were ever anything but a mistake.

when you tell her it wasn’t planned, she almost laughs.

“none of this ever is,” she says. “that doesn’t make it less intentional.”

you don’t defend yourself.

there’s nothing left to defend.

sonny tries to apologize to her.

you hear about it later, secondhand, from someone who shouldn’t know but does.

apparently he cries.

apparently he begs.

apparently amanda listens and then says something that ends it completely:

“you don’t get forgiveness just because you regret the consequences.”

the separation is clinical.

the fallout is not.

sonny becomes smaller somehow—quieter, hollowed out. the confidence that once filled a courtroom drains out of him. he works longer hours. sleeps less. smiles never.

he does not come to you.

not for comfort. not for explanation. not for love.

that’s when you understand something too late:

you were never the future.

you were the escape.

the squad changes.

you feel it in the air.

you are no longer neutral. no longer invisible. you are known.

no one says anything outright, but you become the person people don’t sit next to. the one conversations reroute around. the name that lowers voices.

you deserve it.

that knowledge sits heavy in your chest.

the last conversation you have with sonny is worse than if he’d screamed.

it’s months later. neutral hallway. fluorescent lights. no privacy.

he looks at you like a stranger he recognizes from a bad dream.

“i don’t hate you,” he says. “but i don’t forgive you.”

your throat tightens.

“i don’t expect you to,” you whisper.

he nods. “good. because i won’t. not ever.”

then, quieter:

“what we did doesn’t get to mean something just because it hurt.”

that’s it.

that’s the end.

years later

your life doesn’t fall apart.

that’s the cruelest part.

it continues.

slowly, steadily, in directions you never expected.

you leave svu. not dramatically. just… eventually. a transfer. then another. distance layered on distance until the past stops ambushing you in hallways.

you meet someone later. someone kind. someone unremarkable in the best way.

he doesn’t burn. he doesn’t undo you.

he stays.

you marry him.

you build something careful and honest and unremarkable and real.

you have children.

they change everything.

motherhood doesn’t absolve you.

it clarifies you.

you understand, suddenly and painfully, what was taken. what was risked. what could have been destroyed even further.

you think of amanda sometimes—how she protected her children by walking away.

you understand her now in a way you couldn’t then.

sometimes, late at night, when your house is quiet and your children are asleep down the hall, you remember sonny carisi.

not with longing.

with weight.

with the knowledge that there are versions of you that don’t get happy endings—only lessons.

you never see him again.

you hear things, once or twice. that he transferred offices. that he never remarried. that he became sharper, colder, more careful.

you hope he found peace.

you do not seek forgiveness.

some things are not meant to be healed—only carried.

your spouse kisses your forehead in the kitchen one morning while the kids argue about cereal.

your life is loud. full. ordinary.

and good.

but sometimes—rarely, quietly—you think about how love doesn’t always destroy lives in explosions.

sometimes it does it slowly.

sometimes it does it politely.

sometimes it lets you live anyway.

and that is the punishment.

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illicit affairs

illicit affairs pt 2

first day of my life

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first day of my life

sonny carisi x reader

1.46k words

FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE: you don't fall in love with sonny carisi all at once. it happens in quiet moments, shared coffees, late nights, and stolen glances. and one night, you realize this isn't falling. it's waking up.

you don't realize your life is changing until it already has.

it doesn't come with sirens or raised voices or some dramatic moment you can point to later and say, that was it. it comes quietly, almost shyly, in the form of sonny carisi sliding into a chair beside yours on your first day as his partner and offering you a smile that feels like an open hand.

"guess we're stuck with each other," he says, half-joking.

you smile back, "could be worse."

neither of you knows it yet, but something has already started.

you'd thought you understood your life before this - before svu, before this partnership. you had routines, relationships, a sense of who you were and where you were going. but working besides sonny slowly shifts something in you, like a lens coming into focus.

you start noticing how he waits for you before entering a room, how he never cuts you off when you're speaking, how his voice softens when he asks if you're okay after a hard case. you notice the way he says your name, careful and sincere, like it matters.

and some nights, lying awake after your shift ends, you find yourself wondering if everything before now was just prolouge.

the work is heavy. it always is.

there are days when the job feels like it's hollowing you out from the inside, when you sit in your car after a shift and stare at the steering wheel because you don't know how to bring yourself back into the world.

those are the nights sonny texts you before you can talk yourself out of reaching for your phone.

you get home okay?

sometimes you answer. sometimes you don't. either way, the message stays with you.

you start to think, quietly, almost guiltily, that if something ever happened to him, you wouldn't know how to survive it. the thought terrifies you. not because it's dramatic, but because it's so certain.

it feels like learning to love without realizing you've never been loved before.

like waking up and understanding that everything up until now has been lived half-asleep.

you work late one night, the squad room nearly empty, the city glowing faintly through the windows. sonny hums softly under his breath as he types, something gentle and familiar.

"what's that," you ask.

he shrugs, "just a song i like. makes things feel... interesting."

you don't tell him how much that resonates.

instead, you watch the way the light hits his face and think about how strange it is - how something so ordinary can feel so important. how sitting here with him feels like something you'll remember for the rest of your life.

the realization comes slowly, then all at once.

you're standing outside an interview room, and he leans in close to murmur something under his breath. the closeness sends a warmth through you that has nothing to do with body heat.

you think: i choose this. i choose him.

the thought is simple, terrifying, and certain.

you've never been so sure of anything.

still, neither of you says it.

because love like this feels fragile. like if you speak it out loud, it might disappear. like if you reach for it too quickly, you'll lose everything.

so you hold it carefully. let it exist in the way he walks you to your car, even when you insist you're fine. in the way he checks your expression during a tough testimony. in the way he smiles when you laugh, like the sound is something he wants to keep.

you tell yourself it's enough.

it isn't.

the night it finally happens is quiet.

you're in his car again. the engine is off. neither of you make a move to leave.

"if someone told me a year ago," he starts, "that my life would look like this... i wouldn't have believed them."

you glance at him, "is that a good thing?"

he smiles, small and honest, "yeah. the best."

your chest tightens. you know this feeling. that sense that something has shifted beyond repair - that whatever happens next, there's no going back.

"i don't know what i'd do if i lost this," you admit softly.

he turns fully toward you then, eyes searching your face like he's afraid to miss something important.

"i've been thinking the same thing," he says. "and it scares me because i've never felt this sure before."

sure. the word settles into you like truth.

when he kisses you, it's slow and reverent, like a promise instead of a question. his hand rests at your waist, grounding you, anchoring you to the moment.

you think - if this ends, i don't know how i'll survive it.

but you also think - it's worth it.

you pull back just enough to rest your forehead against his.

"this feels like the beginning," you whisper.

he laugh softly, breath warm against your skin, "yeah. like everything finally makes sense."

nothing about the world changes overnight.

the cases are still hard. the hours are still long. the city still feels to big sometimes.

but now, when you wake up in the morning, there's a clarity you've never known before. like the fog has lifted. like you're standing at something real.

you walk into the precinct together, shoulder brushing.

and for the first time, you understand.

this isn't just love.

it's the moment your life truly begins.

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illicit affairs

sonny carisi x reader

1.9k words

ILLICIT AFFAIRS: he's married. you know that. and yet, every stolen glance, every whispered word in the shadows, pulls you closer. it's wrong and it's dangerous. yet, you can't stay away.

it starts in whispers.

sonny carisi, ada, husband to detecive amanda rollins, the man the precinct calls brilliant, composed, untouchable, is suddenly... human in the quiet moments he shares with you. the first time it happens, you don't even realize the gravity of it. you're filing case notes, the precinct empty except for the hum of the fluorescent lights, when he leans over to ask a question, close enough that your shoulders brush. you feel it in your chest - sharp, electrifying, wrong - and you know before you even speak that nothing will ever be the same.

"you shouldn't be here," he murmurs, brushing a stray strand of hair behind your ear. but it's not a warning, it's a need. desire. and something in his eyes, something raw and dangerous, makes you lean closer anyway.

the nights after that are a dangerous rhythm. meeting at coffee shops long after the world has gone to sleep, conversations in his car where the tension is so thick you can feel it in your bones, stolen glances during courtroom proceedings. every time his hand finds yours under the table, every time his thumb brushes over your knuckles, the guilt is a knife - but it doesn't stop you. you want him.

and he wants you.

you know he's married. you know amanda rollins, the detective whose integrity and fire he admires so openly, the woman he pledged his life to, is his reality. and yet, in these fleeting, suspended moments, she is irrelevant. in these moments, it's just the two of you, bound by silence, desire, and the thrill of secrecy.

one night, it escalates. the courthouse is quiet, the echo of your shoes against the tiled hall louder than usual. you're supposed to be finishing reports, but the tension between you is unbearable. he pulls you into a shadowed corner, fingers brushing against yours. his gaze is full of conflict, regret, and an ache that mirrors your own.

"i can't... i can't do this forever," he says, voice rough, lips brushing your temple. his hand cups your face, hesitant, searching. "but i can't stay away either."

you swallow hard. "i know," you whisper, feeling the heat rise in your chest. "i feel it too."

the first kiss is electric. not slow, not cautious. urgent, like something has been building for months and can't be contained. the world disappears. you hear the faint hum of the city, but it's distant, unimportant. there is only him, only this forbidden moment. and when you pull back, the guilt washes over you. sharp and bitter, but beneath it lingers something darker: satisfaction, and a thrill you can't deny.

the following days are a mixture of tension and routine. court sessions with amanda seated nearby, unaware of the storm brewing under the surface. office hours where sonny passes you case files, just slightly longer than necessary, fingers brushing in a way that sends heat through your veins. every touch, every glance, is coded. publicly, nothing happens. privately, the world feels like it's cracking open around you.

you find yourself analyzing every part of him. the way he bites his lip when he's thinking, the way his voice softens when he's talking only to you. the way he steals a glance in your direction when no one else is looking. each moment is a piece of a puzzle you don't want to solve, because solving it would mean facing the truth: you're entangled in something morally impossible.

but you can't stop.

your clandestine meetings continue. one night, he drives you to a rooftop overlooking the city, the skyline glowing like molten gold in the dark. he leans against the edge, glancing at you, conflicted and intense.

"i can't look at her," he admits, the words raw. "amanda... she's incredible. she doesn't deserve this."

you reach for his hand. "neither of us does," you whisper.

he shakes his head, laughter hollow. "it doesn't make it less... intoxicating. doesn't make it less real."

the confessions hangs between you. heavy, but neither of you pull away. the thrill of knowing it's wrong makes your heart pound faster. his lips find yours again, slower this time, savoring it. there's longing, but also fear. the fear that at any moment, someone could walk in and shatter it all.

the guilt is a constant companion. you lie awake some nights, heart racing, thinking about amanda. about her warmth, her dedication, her love for sonny that you're intruding upon. and yet, the memory of his hands on yours, the taste of his lips, the way he looks at you in those stolen moments, refuses to fade.

sonny carries guilt too. he's brilliant, careful, measured... until it comes to you. the way he stares at you, touches you, the way he balances the lie he tells amanda with the truth he lives with you, is a tightrope act he walks daily. he hates himself for it, and yet, he can't stop.

then comes the night it all almost falls apart.

he's supposed to be home early. amanda waits for him, unaware that he's meeting you instead. he's tense, the adrenaline of secrecy meeting something more dangerous.

"i can't keep doing this," he mutters, voice low. "not like this. one day, it'll explode."

"i know," you say, heart in your throat. "but right now... right now i just want to be here, with you."

he looks at you, eyes dark, torn. "i shouldn't be here."

"and i shouldn't want you," you reply.

but neither of you steps back.

the kiss that follows is desperate, needy, and intoxicating. every emotion, every fear, every bit of guilt is washed away in the intensity of it. and yet, he pulls back, the weight of reality crashes in. you both know that when the lights come on, when the precinct wakes, when amanda calls for him, it's over. you can't exist here in this way forever.

weeks pass in this rhythm - stolen moments, brief touches, secret texts, guilt, and longing. every meeting carries the same tension; will this be the last? could someone see us? can we survive the consequences?

and through it all, the desire only grows.

he laughs with you in the break room, fingers brushing when passing coffee. he leans close to whisper something only you can hear. he looks at you in court, subtle glances that say everything words cannot. and every time, your heart beats faster. every time, you know it's wrong - but it feels impossible to stop.

finally there's a night when the weight of it all becomes unbearable.

sonny finds you sitting alone on the rooftop again, city lights shimmering. rain begins to fall, soft and steady, drenching both of you. he sits beside you silently, hesitating before placing a hand over yours.

"i hate that i feel this way," he admits. "i hate that i want this. i hate that i can't stop thinking about you."

you lean into him, " i don't care. i feel the same."

for a moment, the world disappears. the rain the guilt, the looming consequences. there is only this stolen bubble of time, only the knowledge that whatever happens, this exists.

it's not love in the pure sense. it's not meant to last. but it is real. and for now, it's enough.

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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ | ... aka the junkyard of everything i've composed 🎸

| everything that isn't underlined is unwritten!

SWINGIN' AND SWOONING - s5! casey novak x svu! reader, unestablished relationship, pining, casey teaches you the ropes on how to play baseball.

SWEET ON U! - s2! spencer reid x reader, established relationship, you and spencer spend his day off baking and being in love.

HOW I MET YOUR DAD - late seasons! spencer reid x bau! reader, established relationship (married), you retell you and spencer's love story to your child.

THE MAN WHO CANT BE MOVED - s10! spencer reid x ex bau! reader, the one that got away trope, spencer reconciles with an old flame he never moved on from (you)

seasons. - spencer reid x bau! reader, a fluffy cliche of how spencer falls in love with you a little more throughout every season. 4 + 1 fic format!

NO. 1 PARTY ANTHEM - spencer reid x bau! reader, drunk confessions and one too many shots with the resident genius himself, i cant classify this as fluff angst or smut but there IS tension, pining/admiring from spencer but he doesnt even know it himself.

balisong. - spencer reid x bau! reader, spencer contemplates his feelings for you and finds himself discovering the true extent of his adoration

SANTA BABY - spencer reid x reader, christmas with the reid family! mischief, destroyed gingerbread house, and a vivid retell of the story of Krampus

BEAU VISAGE - spencer reid x painter! reader, established relationship, you two paint each other for a date.

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illicit affairs pt. 2

it doesn’t end cleanly.

it never does.

it’s a lie that takes effort to maintain.

the first time you see him after deciding to stop, it’s in court.

you feel something inside you splinter.

because you remember his voice when it wasn’t steady. his hands when they trembled. the way he looked at you like this wasn’t supposed to happen—but did anyway.

you keep your eyes forward. you don’t look at him again.

he breaks first.

it’s late—too late—and you’re packing up to leave when you hear your name behind you. soft. careful. like he’s afraid you might turn around and disappear.

“i just wanted to make sure you were okay,” he says.

you laugh quietly, humorless. “you don’t get to ask me that anymore.”

he nods. “i know.”

there’s a pause. a heavy one.

“i miss you,” he admits, barely above a whisper.

your chest tightens. “you don’t miss me,” you say. “you miss what we were when no one was watching.”

that one lands. you see it in his face—the flinch, the guilt, the understanding.

“you’re right,” he says. “i do.”

the worst part isn’t that it’s over.

it’s that it keeps trying to start again.

a look held too long. a conversation that drifts too close to honesty. passing each other in the hallway and feeling the air change, like the room remembers even if you’re trying not to.

you start avoiding places he might be. you take different elevators. different lunch hours.

still, you know things about him you shouldn’t. when he’s lying. when he hasn’t slept. when he’s trying too hard to be good.

and he knows you too well to pretend you’re fine.

one night, you find him on the courthouse steps, staring out at the city like he’s looking for something he dropped.

“you ever feel like,” he says without looking at you, “you ruined something you didn’t even know how much you needed?”

you sit beside him, careful to leave space.

“all the time.”

he exhales. “i thought if i stopped, it would go away.”

“did it?” you ask.

he shakes his head. “it just learned how to be quiet.”

amanda notices.

you see her watching him sometimes, brows furrowed, trying to solve a problem she doesn’t know exists.

the guilt settles deeper in your bones.

you think about telling her. you think about walking away completely.

you think about how easy it would be to ruin everything.

the last time it almost happens again, it’s raining.

of course it is.

you’re under the awning outside the precinct, soaked and exhausted, when he steps beside you. too close. familiar in a way that feels dangerous.

“tell me to go,” he says. “and i will.”

you look at him. at the man who taught you how to love quietly. how to hurt carefully. how to want something you could never keep.

“go,” you say.

he hesitates. just for a second.

then he nods and steps away.

it hurts more than anything you’ve ever done.

after that, things change.

not suddenly. not dramatically.

but slowly, deliberately.

you stop waiting for him. he stops reaching for you. the looks fade. the tension dulls. the memory stays—but it loses its sharp edge.

what’s left is a quiet understanding: this was real, but it was never meant to last.

sometimes, late at night, you still think about him.

about how love can be small and devastating. about how something beautiful can exist entirely in the wrong place.

the truth doesn’t come out all at once.

you feel it before it happens. the way animals sense storms.

amanda doesn’t scream when she confronts you.

she doesn’t cry.

she asks questions like a detective.

precise. controlled. devastating.

“how long?”

“where?”

“did you think about me at all?”

each answer costs you something. dignity. breath. the illusion that you were ever anything but a mistake.

when you tell her it wasn’t planned, she almost laughs.

“none of this ever is,” she says. “that doesn’t make it less intentional.”

you don’t defend yourself.

there’s nothing left to defend.

sonny tries to apologize to her.

you hear about it later, secondhand, from someone who shouldn’t know but does.

apparently he cries.

apparently he begs.

apparently amanda listens and then says something that ends it completely:

“you don’t get forgiveness just because you regret the consequences.”

the separation is clinical.

the fallout is not.

sonny becomes smaller somehow—quieter, hollowed out. the confidence that once filled a courtroom drains out of him. he works longer hours. sleeps less. smiles never.

he does not come to you.

not for comfort. not for explanation. not for love.

that’s when you understand something too late:

you were never the future.

you were the escape.

the squad changes.

you feel it in the air.

you are no longer neutral. no longer invisible. you are known.

no one says anything outright, but you become the person people don’t sit next to. the one conversations reroute around. the name that lowers voices.

you deserve it.

that knowledge sits heavy in your chest.

the last conversation you have with sonny is worse than if he’d screamed.

it’s months later. neutral hallway. fluorescent lights. no privacy.

he looks at you like a stranger he recognizes from a bad dream.

“i don’t hate you,” he says. “but i don’t forgive you.”

your throat tightens.

“i don’t expect you to,” you whisper.

he nods. “good. because i won’t. not ever.”

then, quieter:

“what we did doesn’t get to mean something just because it hurt.”

that’s it.

that’s the end.

years later

your life doesn’t fall apart.

that’s the cruelest part.

it continues.

slowly, steadily, in directions you never expected.

you leave svu. not dramatically. just… eventually. a transfer. then another. distance layered on distance until the past stops ambushing you in hallways.

you meet someone later. someone kind. someone unremarkable in the best way.

he doesn’t burn. he doesn’t undo you.

he stays.

you marry him.

you build something careful and honest and unremarkable and real.

you have children.

they change everything.

motherhood doesn’t absolve you.

it clarifies you.

you understand, suddenly and painfully, what was taken. what was risked. what could have been destroyed even further.

you think of amanda sometimes—how she protected her children by walking away.

you understand her now in a way you couldn’t then.

sometimes, late at night, when your house is quiet and your children are asleep down the hall, you remember sonny carisi.

not with longing.

with weight.

with the knowledge that there are versions of you that don’t get happy endings—only lessons.

you never see him again.

you hear things, once or twice. that he transferred offices. that he never remarried. that he became sharper, colder, more careful.

you hope he found peace.

you do not seek forgiveness.

some things are not meant to be healed—only carried.

your spouse kisses your forehead in the kitchen one morning while the kids argue about cereal.

your life is loud. full. ordinary.

and good.

but sometimes—rarely, quietly—you think about how love doesn’t always destroy lives in explosions.

sometimes it does it slowly.

sometimes it does it politely.

sometimes it lets you live anyway.

and that is the punishment.

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