deconstructing monogamy is all fine and well until you realize all your friends are brilliant and beautiful and it’s so easy to fall in love with them!!!
like! you might have achieved balancing like 2-4 partners you see somewhat regularly and then also find time to prioritize your friendship while also getting your bills paid and protecting time for your creativity
like you might achieve that balance
and then … sometimes someone tugs at tour heart strings just so. and sometimes they describe what they are looking for in love and you want to just be like yes yes yes i got you i can give you all that! i want to love you right. and maybe they even talk about the sex they have and what they like and don’t like about it. and you just have to keep a straight face and not let your breath hitch while you try not to think of all the ways you could be just right for them. or how they’d look in the morning light in your room with their clothes discarded on the floor.
like sometimes you have to get it together and not tell someone how ardently you desire to feel their nails in your back, desperately holding onto you while you give them exactly what they’ve been asking for.
