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[bizee]

20.02.2026 emerging from a slump

sequences and series

a lecture, notes and practice problems

YPT time: 5 hours

[bizee]

And God, if you are listening, I do worry. God, if you are listening, I count the miles between my body and the body of the person I love and I worry about each of them. God, I worry about the planes we take to each other and the sky that might not hold them. God, I wear seatbelts and visit the graves of my friends in spring to kick away the dirt from winter. God, it is just us talking now, and I worry about everything I can’t control. God, can you tell me how much longer I’ll get to be alive and in love. God, I am sorry for the times I didn’t want to stick around. God, there is a scroll of things I have taken for granted in order to survive this long, and it is endless. And it is maybe too late to want to live forever after everything I’ve seen and done. But there are freeways between me and the person I love, God. And I don’t have enough time to travel all of them. I worry that I can’t bend them all into a giant circle from where I begin to where she begins. God, I don’t know what I believe in except the shrinking of distance. God, do you worry about the things you can control? I am enough in love to worry about everything that might cast a shadow over it. God, I have touched the living face of a person I love with the same hands I have touched the dying face of someone I love and none of that seems fair. God, I am enough in love that I want to make everything about it an endless circle, with a sunset at the top of every hour. I know this is all too much, God. But as long as you’re not tired yet of talking, it helps.

Hanif Abdurraqib, On Seatbelts and Sunsets

[bizee]

to whoever reading this is procrastinating on going to the gym or half-assing your workouts: you better start working twice as hard on my behalf because i am literally not allowed to go to the gym

[bizee]

let's all hold hands and step our pussy up

[bizee]

the pre-exam urge to run away from home, set up a roadside dhaba in the hills and fall in love with a girl

[bizee]

07.11.2025 panic hasn't set in yet

units & dimensions

motion in one dimension

i've been trying to study thermodynamics for the last two days and gave up and got into physics instead. solved around forty problems. pretty easy. finally understood the relative velocity trains problem.

YPT time: 4.5 hours

[bizee]

i'm so terribly sleepy gonna have a hot coffee and finish that maths lecture i've been watching for four days

[bizee]

i must sow the seed to eat the fruit