#swearing ts

[thisgreatestadventure]

It's almost 9pm. It's pouring rain. How did I even know they were here? Those fucking brakes or something 'cause lord knows they weren't running the siren all the way over. I swear, all week has been like this. I'm probably just overly sensitive but fire is fucking everywhere. It's not really getting to me (yet, it's only Wednesday) but there's still no break.

[thisgreatestadventure]

fuck this.

f u c k this.

i was doing okay yesterday. i got out of this place for a while and ran myself into the ground at the gym and i was doing okay.

and then, there’s today. i saw the truck head out on a call at lunch, and then apparently they were at the elementary school for a field trip because, oh hey, look who’s starring front and center in the local news station’s pictures.

(moustache march does not favor him, btw.)

and don’t forget heading out to the store this evening, ready to walk it out with some fast music and--would you look at that. sirens, lights, and there they go again. 

this is fine.

absolutely.

i didn’t stop to cry at all.

god, i need to get out of here, even just overnight. twenty four hours. just gotta hold out that long. 

[thisgreatestadventure]

0117.21.01.2017

The time should tell you something, at the very least.

It wasn’t New Year’s, it wasn’t another Cinderella night, but–it wasn’t awkward and it wasn’t forced. We laughed and talked and–

I had a really good time. It felt normal. It was fucking amazing to sit down and just interact with someone outside of work, outside of everything I see in my day-to-day.

Also, the arms on that man, I swear. Thank God for fire protection.

It got kinda waylaid at the end because a friend of his just got here and more or less dominated the conversation after that point but–he glanced at me a lot, and told his friend about when he had to call me for directions on New Year’s and it was just kinda everything I needed tonight. This week has been crappy, today especially, and to get to just–interact.

I’m pleased. And am hoping he had a good enough time to want to do it again sometime, but I guess we’ll see.

[thisgreatestadventure]

1922.09.01.2017

excuse my excessive french but my chest is burning at the moment.

but, what in the f u c k i n g hell?

you want to know what he said?

“one day you’ll grow up”

TAKE A SEAT ASSHOLE

"and not take everything like the world is out to get you"

because i believed i would undoubtedly be robbed, raped, and murdered when i took MYSELF, ALONE, ON MY LONESOME TO THE CITY

"or that every man is going to hurt you."

not only do you want to insult my maturity and ability to take care of myself, now you're gonna go after the guys in my life who i've known a comparative lifetime next to you? who i spent countless days with, learning about them and letting them prove why i could trust them? you're going to take these carefully tended relationships and pretend like they don't count?

fuck you too, buddy.

you probably don't realize but this is e x a c t l y why i told you to lay off. this exact reaction. right here. belittling me and what's important to me because you couldn't keep it in your pants and realize that you fucking s c a r e  m e.

you don’t know my life. you don’t know me and you sure as hell don’t know my reasonings. i don’t regret that maybe i was cold, maybe it was sudden. i don’t regret it and i won’t apologize for it because i did the right thing by myself and keeping myself safe, especially in the light of this reaction.

so screw you too and have a good life.

[themalhambird]

@    pornblogs will you QUIT already? that's five of you I've blocked in three days. No pun intended, but fuck off will you?     

[themalhambird]

well that wasnt terrible. B for english and history, which are the important ones. Philosophy and ethics can go fuck itself

[aoidiechi-blog]

apollo what the fuck

[laprimavera-moved]

mach girl is my fcking daughter holy shit!!