sick to my stomach and I got to say
I watched something borrowed today
And you’ve been a perfect Dax
You texted me today
Been 3 months since you said hey
I cried a tear for each day
Cruel as it is, my sanity I pay
Because you moved on
But you won’t go away
You won’t say you love me
But you’ll beg me to stay
I stand at the gate waiting
For a plane on permanent delay
And you knew what I was risking
And you played with my heart
Drank my love like whiskey
And I knew what I was risking
Loving a man who was born to lose me
It’s a small world, growing smaller
By the day
We all wind up stuck on a hellbound train
It’s not fun and it’s not fair
Sometimes riding life gets you nowhere
And you cry and you sigh
Give it all your best damn try
Risk it all
Get left high and dry
But
If you settle then you’re sorry
Naive if you wait for a prince
You’re too modest if you say no
But forward, you’re a hoe
Young dreams are broken by the nonsense
And I’m tangled in suspense
That won’t amount to anything
Write it off as lessons learned
But betrayal, the shit still hurts
And all I can feel
Is the emptiness that’s real
When you aren’t here
Why aren’t you here
I’ll scream in a panic
At a boy who put me second
Feeling like I didn’t learn anything at all
Feeing like there’s nothing that’s ever felt this small
Aren’t we all?
(Channeling my inner @taylorswift & writing through it)