i’m not doing nearly as much witchcraft things as i should/want to, mainly because i don’t know anyone else who’s into this and feel very insecure without someone to show me things, at least in the beginning. that aside, i’ve been thinking about spirit work and whether or not i want to start at least doing some research specifically for that - on one hand, i think it’d be very interesting (if i can find the right books/sources), but on the other hand, i’m the image the dictionary shows you as the entry for “scaredy-cat” and the idea of actually encountering spirits/ghosts/anything related scares the shit out of me tbh.
but i still keep wondering, because... i’m fairly certain that, for a while, we had a spirit in our house. specifically, the spirit of one of our cats. we used to have two of them, one male and one female, and the male one, teddy, had been with my mother before she even got to know my father. after he died, our second cat, lisa, was still with us for a few years. but i swear, during that time, i could still hear teddy. i would hear him coming down the stairs when it was very quiet or i was home alone, and it wasn’t lisa because she’d be lying on my lap or sleepng somewhere nearby. sometimes i’d hear the quiet tapping of paws walking past me through the living room, with lisa elsewhere in plain sight. i never hear meowing or anything, but he never talked much. (i’m 60% certain i once heard him knock something over, although to be fair everything was in place when i went to look where the noise had come from.)
anyway, my mother said it must be the neighbours in the other part of the semi-detached house, but i don’t think so. i heard him for a few years... up until lisa died as well. after that, i never heard anything like it again. i did, and still do, hear the neighbours, but it’s different.
i cannot shake the thought that he was waiting around for her because he didn’t want to go on alone. they were great friends, and teddy was a cuddly little darling, and i could imagine him waiting around for his friend to accompany him when it was time, rather than go ahead of her on his own.
anyway. random ghost cat story, there you go ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ any thoughts on if i can possibly connect with my cat(s)? i’d probably feel safe with them. although, if they’re happy where they are now, i’d hate to pull them back here again.