@syrsi “ we were one hell of a pair, weren’t we? ”
he can’t quite place the moment he’d decided to leave , he’s been trying since the moment he stepped into the london flat ; it’s cosy and homelike , and yet somehow it feels so strange and wrong as if there’s something missing. the something being , a lack of loved memoribilia , as as he stares at the loft tryign to find it ; he could have sworn that a veil falls over his eyes and instead he finds himself staring at the old brick home he used to live in with sersi , once upon a few centuries ago , decorated from head to toe with gifts and memories... and this one , as the veil falls he finds the words he’s looking for , looks like a house but not a home. if it weren’t for sprite ; this wouldn’t even feel lived in. it would feel like a set for a motion picture... it would feel wrong and staged and... he’s reading too much into it ; he’s sure he is. he wants to see things that aren’t there , he wants to see things so that he doesn’t have to face the truth , one that sprite let spill five minutes into him arriving --- that she has , moved on. and no longer cares...
fingers graze at his wrist ; tugging at fabric the man had long forgotten existed , well not forgotten rather ---- the fabric had become a part of him , the fact it too existed to those around him , always felt like a suprise. he’s unsure of what to say as he loosk down , seeing her fingers oh so close to his hand and yet , feeling so distant , that invisible barrier of a new lover so prominent in his mind. the love he had feels like an anchor , dragging his soul to the bottom of some long forgtten ocean ; out into the vast emptiness of space ; away from her as the bracelet gets examined for it’s meaning. it was ---- “ a gift , from the humans... ” she’d been sewing with them , or , crafting with them ( he couldn’t quite remember which ) , but the child she’d been helping had created the small fabric , and brought it up to him. he had of course , kept it , and worn on a mostly daily occurance of course ,he wonders if she remmebers it. as vividly as he does , or if it was just another lost memory in the long list of ones they had.
her words that followed were not what he was expecting ; a racing in his heart pounds aginst the eternal’s chest. “ we were. ” the first words to leave his mouth feel like the heaviest. “ you were everything. ” to him anyway. “ i’m sorry. ” it’s the first apology he’s given to her about the... well leaving , the first time he’s acknlowledged it. he doesn’t want to explain it. he doesn’t want to lie to her ; “ i’ve missed you. ”