I odnt know how to feel about being a fictive sometimes but what it really boils down to for me a lot of the time is the fact that i cant ignore. that its. what i am
Like do i feel this way because im pico or am i pico because i feel this way
I guess the latter, considering that seems to be the reason fictives/factives happen to us. Cant operate alone in most situations or make quick decicions? Paralyzed with fear in high stress environments? Its dark as hell outside and Poor Little Baby has to get across town SOMEHOW or we're just not going home?
Yes, looks like you're on your way to getting an overconfident street smart asshole with pumped up kicks and an ecyclopedic knowledge of how not to die in X situation. Sorrryyyyrryyy try watching less Oneyplays next time idk
But at the same time how can i call myself a "protector" of system if im also the only one who smokes cigs and i get pissed over nothing and decide all this shit on my own without consulting anyone else and i do not take constructive criticism.
Not to mention the fact that I Am Not even Immune to the freakouts that happen after the fact + loud noises make me piss my pants + hallucinations + paranoid + no one can touch me + L + RIP Bozo + Cooked + Unc + Chopped
What is even my purpose. "Look" like pico, act like pico, but do not be as cool or as skilled or strong or brave or sexy or have a big dick or or orrr