#system vent

[chimamire-tenshi]

Nobody should ever have to explain their trauma or recovery to a stranger online. Safe spaces shouldn’t be gated by forcing you to explain things that can be used against you.

/targeted at a specific syscord

[carnage-cathedral]

some of us are built as cannon fodder. they built me to stay broken, not to be put back together again

[jackalopepawzsystem]

lowkey hate the plural community, why does everyone suck?

like just because i think discourse is the least important thing we can be spending energy on that means i cut myself off from like 80% of the community it seems.

it’s just really isolating.

[sovereignsystem]

Endos will never understand the pain of sitting with your own brain and just begging to be Normal. Ordinary. Mundane.

[variantetch]

being a system means having to deal with not just 'regular' dysphoria but dysphoria having to do with your entire identity. being present simply means feeling like an imposter, an intruder. looking around at stuff made by the ""host"" (prnscc, rentry, blogs) and feeling utter disgust. its not you, but it technically is. && i know once 'we' wake in the 'morning if im gone this feeling will be gone too. but damn it all if I have to continue living pretending to be somebody else.

[heartlikeanember]

Moving shit from Simply to our goddamn notes app is completely horrible. Don't hit me with the "ohh you have three months" we are a polyfragmented system. If we paced it evenly, that's still logging at least 4 profiles a day in order to be ready for June. And that's assuming we do it on weekends, every day that something comes up, no matter what, no matter where.

And it does not help that we can't even decide on how to prioritize this shit. — 🎸⛓️ of 💌

[bugicidal]

I hate dissociating in a texting / typing context so so much . Many of our parts have vaguely distinct or different typing styles , so when we're dissociating or blurry , nothing will feel " correct " && it's so fucking uncomfortable .