I know some of you have been hanging out here and hanging in there with me. I really appreciate it. The Community is still growing...slowly... http://loyalty-and-honor--pierced-for-life.enjin.com/ Find us there. We are still open to applications.
So where has the Pretty Purple Panda Priest been? Buzy. Very. We had a death in the family, as some of you know...my husbands father passed away at home about a month ago. It’s been very crazy dealing with someone passing away, and all the aftermath that comes with it. But, we are doing our best.
I also have some health issues of my own. I am currently, slowly, losing my eyesight. Yes..you read that right. I am too young for this and as a artist, I have not been able to draw hardly for the past year. I kept that too myself..but it is very scary for me to have this going on. I will be finding out shortly about surgery...but I am not looking forward to it either. I also find it hard to be at my computer. Eye strain has been a huge issue and it only makes my vision more blurry.
Also...I have to admit that I have shy’d away from Tumblr a bit. I use to look so forward to seeing posts from my friends and the family. Now, my feeling only become hurt. I miss my ‘friend’. I can’t look at things anymore, because when I see things being posted...I get upset or angry...because you see them doing everything they said that they did not want in their life??? Yeah...I feel lied too. Because I was. Then, after being close to them..to have them drop me like that...just splat... It’s like morning another loss of a loved one...only they are not dead??? And I don’t want this to be a pity party or anything like that...because that is not what this is about. I just miss someone who I considered a good friend. I have never, with one exception from high school, lost someone who I cared for in this way, like this. I have never ‘broken up’ with a friend. My friends become family to me. I actually care about them. THAT IS WHO I AM. It’s not fake...it’s now to pressure people...I JUST CARE. SO SORRY....NOT! How the hell can someone care ‘too much’? Yeah...still trying to figure that out. ???
But this is why I stay off tumblr. It causes me physical pain. I will post here and there...and I am around..but you might have to reach me via the site. Please...join us. ALL ARE WELCOME.
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